INTERESTING ARTICLE

Sometimes i like articles because it can really describe you in such detail that you will get a shock that you didn't know yourself at all before reading. And i like to read articles describing males because they are arrogant species and would never let you know what is actually in their minds.

So i flipped through this article called "In where are men hiding his unsecured feeling?" and 5 types of males have been identified.

And i read through one: When they are facing insecurity, they would just "freeze" you - acting as if they didn't care at all.

HMMMMMMMMMM???????? =D

July 25, 2011
11.06PM

C:

Do you know?

Sometimes a simple word can enlighten my whole week,

because that word is from you. 

July 24, 2011
10.46PM

WHY HAR???

Sometimes i just don't understand why some people will do something.

Why you must be so care of some events? I know that is a big one but still without it your life won't be ruined! I mean sometimes you concern that much will just make your life more pity and helpless and because you care too much you'll just end up in sadness. And you'll start blaming others because you think they caused your sadness. Huhz? As long as you know what you're living for, everyday is still a very happy day!

And, why some people refuse to let go when it is time for letting go? I mean, there's already meaningless for holding that 'thing' yet some people would rather be hurt and killed by that 'thing' instead of letting it go and lead a brand new life! Isn't this called "lying others and the worst, lying yourself"? I know you can feel it, i know you are hurt, but i just don't know why you're still holding on! You can see the blue sky just after you open up the door! Why must you lock yourself inside?

Okay, i've been moody today. Shall return to my tax assignment.

July 20, 2011
10.46PM

Ma 21st Buffday!

Hey, i just realized that i didn't talk about my big day - 21st freedom birthday! =D So let's see how i passed my memorable time!

Sometimes pictures explain better than words! =D

1. 030611 - Ocean Green Dinner with Family


Delicious? See my action and you'll know it. =P

2. 040611 - A Surprise from Pretties and Handsomes

SURPRISE! And then only i realize - wow, it's for me!

A bunch of pretties! =D

And the best ever - the only pic with my dearest senior! ^^

Thanks KP, thanks daddy. ^^

3. 060611 - Surprise Cake from Classmates

I thought it was a normal sunny afternoon and as usual, we were heading to somewhere for lunch to fill up our two-hours break.
But i saw candles...


Awwww.... SWEET! 


And here's my cute classmates! 

Thanks TARCians! ^^

4. 060611 - Another Dinner with Family


The main thing was, i received a call on that day. Someone told me something and i was like: huh? LOL that's a surprise as well.

Thanks uncle (for the call at lease) ! ^^


Thanks to 100++ over people who left birthday wishes on my wall! ^^


Don't be jealous, my birthday will be the sweetest! =P =P

=D


July 08, 2011
11.32AM

HEY, I AM HERE.

Well, long time didnt pay a visit. Actually i have test in the following week, but still i decided to close the book and come here. I have no mood to study, perhaps because of my messy thought that i have had these few weeks. I don't have one, and i don't want one, to be at my side to listen to all my silly thought, because i have decided to keep everything private to myself. I never have done this as i used to pour out everything to make myself feel better. But this time, i decided to keep this in myself, forever.

My messy thought started sometime after internship, i don't know when it started actually. I become lazy, i realized, and i m not that determined anymore. This is somehow good in the sense that i didn't feel any pressure anymore, the pressure that i used to feel it every weekends during two sems in year one. However, i scared this is to make everything worse. Everything is getting tougher and i am not sure whether i can cope with it with this attitude. But somehow, i restructured my thought and i discovered i didn't waste my time. I fought with time everyday for my assignments. Hey, this is meaningful as well. I have enough leisure also, just sometimes not enough sleep, perhaps. Haha. But i just realized (also) that i am actually used to sleep late now. I now prefer to finish everything, not being stubborn on the sleeping time. Mom said this will make me become older, and i said, just let it be la. =P

I finally decided to become single. This is a big decision for me actually. I am too used to rely on someone and now i have to work out everything by myself. A challenge, really, but it helps me to learn. I now even know how to fetch people from airport, this is really cool. I never thought i can. =) But somehow, it is quite empty when you are so tired that you need someone to be at your side to listen to your grumble. Hmm, i think now that person is my mom, ha. My mom has become a really great friend of me, listening to me and analyzing with me. She gave me answers for unknown questions in my mind, though i don't know whether what she said and predicted will become true.

And she said something about "something", which until now i still can't believe "something" actually exists in my life. I didn't know how i am connected with "something", and sometimes i rather i am not connected with "something".  "something" is now driving my emotion, i realized, i JUST realized. Haiz, this is a painful reality. Somehow this might be one of the reasons that cause the change of my attitude? Perhaps. My mom said something that made me quite... errr.... should i say, happy to hear that? But happiness brings hope, and hope causes disappointment, disappointment will cut my heart. Sometimes i cried because "something" is just too nice until it makes me wondering. And i dislike this wondering because it creates hope, again. I don't want hope, i rather others' hand is held. But the environment just tells me there is some possibilities. I hate the jokes, the laughter, the eye sight, everything from that "something". And, again, I REALLY HATE HOPE NOW.

But i have decided to keep everything deep in my heart. I don't think i will ever tell. If the case goes as what i expect. You know, sometimes we hope for miracle, and we hope tale will become truth, but it is just too optimistic. Besides, i don't want to cause any trouble to "something". So just let me bear everything myself. I don't know how long this would last but i foresee it to be very very very very long. But it's okay, let me bear everything.

Hmm... besides there is some "flies" i have met. It's not that i look down on someone or what, but they are giving me such feeling. I finally know what is meant by kids. Hmm, when he is, he really talks like a kid. I now really get what mom means. And ermm, somehow, i really dislike those guys who always desire pretty girls. You know some guys they have thousands of friends on fb and when you glance through, goodness, all are pretty girls. God, guys like this please don't approach me, i really dislike you. You don't expect after knowing your stupid hobby i will be holding your hands sometimes in the future. Argh! Useless!

Wow, seem emotional. Okay, cooling down. Haha. Haiz, a good guy is hard to find. Ha, if daddy sees this, he will say: "dun think too much la! study la!" Yeah, i have to study now. Really have to. So after this post, let's put down everything, take a deep breath, and begin my study life. Too much assignment to be done! SIGH! But i will be able to handle it! No worries! Add oil Shi Yee! You can do it! Yeah.

To that "something", i'll still keep it in my heart, in fact, it's really good to have came across it during my life. ^^

Oh yeah, i have had the most unbelievable and unforgettable bday in this year. A total shock and surprise! Really thanks a lot to you guys who was in RB! I love you! Muackz!

And to those in LC - i really really really really.... LOVE YOU GUYS! Hahahaha. French-kiss!!! =D

And i wonder, where is all those photos taken... =P

June 12, 2011
11.53PM

THE RETURN

Finally, i've ended my internship and would be returning to college in this week. What's my feeling? Hmm, i am not sure about the reason, but i just enjoy working so much that i don't want to go back to college. Well, you might be thinking 'cause i am just a trainee, no burden, no rushing accounts, no calls from client, no pressure from managers, that's why i enjoy. I never become a permanent employee so this might be true, who knows? But to be honest to my feeling, i don't want to leave. The people there are nice. Then maybe you will say again - you never met those who are not nice YET. Maybe, who knows? But be certain, i will return to this field after one and a half year. =D

Starting to miss everyone i've worked with. =(

May 9, 2011
4.21PM

BIGGEST DECISION

I'll make it short for this one. I've made a big decision, probably biggest during these few years, in my life. Actually i am not so sure whether it is correct or wrong, but i guess for the current condition this would be the best way. Well, what will happen in the future remains unknown. I don't know how people is going to talk badly behind me, but i will just smile and let it go. In fact, i can't control. Well, i guess i will just accept everything and have a brand new start. Wish myself all the best!

May 7, 2011
11.51PM

LIVING IN HEAVEN

I was living in heaven for these two weeks! Actually one of the reasons, which is commonly known, is not really good to be disclosed here, so i just keep it to myself. Haha. And another reason, i bet no one will know about this. Well, i will also just keep to myself since it will cause some unnecessary misunderstanding, i guess. 

So why am i writing this? Haha, i am now asking myself as well. I initially wish to appreciate all i have now but it seems very sensitive to be discussed here. Hmm... Perhaps, let me take a bathe first and think about it. 

I really feel lucky for having the chance to enjoy all i have gone through. I would take everything as a joy because i enjoy learning new things. I am very glad that i didn't reject KPMG or i wouldn't be me as in today. I've met lots of nice seniors who are always willing to share with me their knowledge and experience. I'll never never forget the moment i spent in KP and with all my beloved colleagues. Because of this meaningful internship, i've been to SP for the very first time, spent 3 weeks over there. I've been following 3 seniors, learning different things from them. As a short conclusion, i am very happy in these 3 months until i don't want to go back to my college. 

But, i still have to be back and work hard for my ACCA qualification. I bet i will be back, though almost 100% people that i've met are not encouraging this. We will see how after 1 and a half year. =D

I still left one week living in heaven. And i'll be back to reality. 

April 30, 2011
11.31PM

AN UPDATE AGAIN - BUT NOT ABOUT INTERN =D

Woah, i just realized that all my recent posts are about internship! So i decided to write something out of internship. I think it might be very short 'cause somehow some "matters" i can't share here.

I discovered that i like to fill up my time with work. One A1 told me that auditor in China actually died because of too much workload. It sounds scary, but i still prefer life with work rather than life without work. I mean, maybe i was born like this, or i was trained to be like this, i can't stand the days without work. I will feel this is a waste of my time. I want to fill my time meaningfully. So i guess i will become an auditor next time. But i have a problem here. I might be very busy until i don't have time for others. So... I don't know how to write here, but this is really a big concern for me. A BIG ONE. I mean, the concern is about, how i deal with the "others", i will still carry on my wish to become an auditor. =D See la, if i really can't stand, i might quit someday. =D But i think i can. LOL.

Someone said my mind changed after internship. I guess this is very normal. I've heard others saying that becoming an auditor isn't really an easy job because you need to work until very late. Now i really experienced how the life of an auditor is. So it's very natural for me to change my thinking. I start to look into future and consider all the factors if my future life is way like this.

On last Thursday, i reached at about 11++, almost 12. My dad sms-ed me and asked why i am so late. I guess if next time i go back to KPMG, my dad might be asking this same question everyday, will he? LOL. My mom is still fine, she understands this is work. And i have a hard time dealing this with BIG PIG at my home. He said he can understand when i really come out to work, but i really didn't know how much he can understand... If i really become permanent employee, i will be even worse than now, because my style is, if i am working, i won't bother about others. My mom really knows my pattern well, she knows. But i don't think BIG PIG can stand. How??? Let thing becomes what it should be la. =D

Okay, just a small part for internship. I learnt a lot this week handling the roll forward of the inventory. Finally my job is done and i want to thank the A2 that guided me for all these. I can't imagine if he is not around how i could finish my job. I kept on pouring questions to him although he is not so free to answer me. So sorry yet so thankful to him.

This week is still a happy one, though i have to work until very late, even after i am back to home. I guess i am used to it? No, i am still very "young" to talk about this. We will see how. =D

I am ending my internship soon, feeling not going back to college, wanna stay here~~~~~ haha.

April 16, 2011
10.21AM

AN UPDATE

This post is just an update for my recent life. I really don't know what title i should put, seriously... ><

Well, i was back to office for two days and i am glad that i actually happened to meet a few TARC trainees and have lunch with them. I thought i would be alone at first, not knowing some of them would actually go back. We were very happy chatting and sharing our experience of dealing with clients. Some clients are really nice, and one of my friends actually met those nice one, which she now thinks herself is very lucky compared to us. LOL. Whereas for us, actually still fine lah, it's just that either we got some difficult jobs or we met some troublesome clients. It's, anyway, a great experience, and a great chance for us to learn what's patience. Like my senior said, we will be very "thick-face" after becoming an auditor. LOL.

Hmm... The past week i was still going to Prai, for three days. Guess what time i was back to home? Around 11pm+. Serious. The first day was a terrible one, with everyone not knowing until when we would be working. So everyone did not prepare for dinner, ending up being hungry for the whole night. That's a really bad day. So, the next day, we headed to bakery and kedai runcit for bread and biscuit. The situation was just like we would actually be camping at client's office! LOL. Everyone was so scared to be hungry again at night. Some people even proposed to buy mattress and pillow, without forgetting tooth paste and brush. LOL. I said this is more like "outstation".

I finally have work to do, have a thing to be busy with. I am happy with life like this, though some issues i have to think and think and think. This client is a big one so sometimes i might not be able to get what i want. So i was really busy searching for what so called audit evidence (finally i know what's that! =D) and verifying client's statement. But i really learnt a lot. I must thank my senior for trusting me and let me handle the whole EE5.1 section. LOL though i know she allocated me for this job is not because she trusts me. I sometimes feel that i am very stupid because my thinking is very straight. If i am asked to finish a task, i must be explained clearly only i will know what i should do. And if i don't understand, i will keep on pouring questions to seniors. I guess they will feel very troublesome and annoyed for having a trainee like me. But nvm, we have to learn. I did many things wrongly but i learnt from that. Maybe i am born to learn new things in this way and i accept it. I need to be grateful for all the chance i have for me to explore the world. This is what life is, it doesn't come in the way you wish, instead it enriches you with obstacles and provide you a learning path. So after you have gone through it, you will be a great person with enriched knowledge and experience. Nice. =D I couldn't believe i wrote this. =)

I just happened to browse through one of my friends' blog and she said, she thinks she falls in love with someone. I don't know who that is but i have feeling to share my opinion. If who she means is a senior in the firm, i think she might be just "admire" him but not falling in love.
If you admire a person, you'll sure be happy to see him or even work with him. When you don't see him (maybe in office) you might be wondering where he is. Is he out to client's office? I think all these are very normal for "admiring".
Also, she said one of her friends said admiring for more than two weeks might be falling in love, which i don't really agree lah. There must be reasons for you to admire a person, and if you work with him for more than two weeks, it's quite impossible for you to stop admiring someone after two weeks right? The reasons will always be there, because he is he himself.

If you ask me will i have the same experience? I will say of course. Everyone will meet someone they really admire when first join a community (not only firm but also a community like new friends group and new classmates). As for me, KPMG has a lot of seniors who are really capable and nice. They might not know they are really awesome, but a person will shine when he/she is confident, capable and nice to person around him/her. I hope in future i might be someone like this. =D I am always imagining if i have a trainee... LOL You might be laughing as i have not even ended my internship, that's still long way from here. But it will arrive soon, someday. i will be treating him/her very nice i guess, if my temper is in control. =D

April 9, 2011
4.16PM

LIKE A BOMB

It was a shock when i got to know my senior is going to 'abandon' me starting from Thursday! I mean i like her so much and i wish to end my internship with her! I was quite shocked when i was told about this, and started to worry who i will be following for the next 5 weeks.

So on Thursday, i was told by manager to assist one S3 whose trainee had left on Thursday. I followed her to Prai on Friday. It's not that i don't like her, but she is way too serious for me. I don't like working in a very serious environment, at lease with some laughters, like previously. But i should be glad that she is not that kind who likes to marah-marah and make things hard for trainees.

I hope things will get better in the next 5 weeks. I am going to the same co for weeks. Will i be bored? Not sure. I still hope to end this internship with best memory. =D

March 27, 2011
9.14PM

END OF OUTSTATION WORK

I have officially ended my outstation engagement. I have asked a few of my friends who also work in KPMG, it seems that they don't go outstation. No wonder i only meet USM trainees while in outstation. LOL

So, i also enjoyed the last week with a movie on Wednesday. The funniest thing was my SIC slept in the cinema! He gave me my very first experience of watching movie with one of my friends actually slept in the cinema! Goodness. He said the movie is dull and he only saw bombing and gay sense. Then we said he has unique 'interest'. LOL

This sat, i believe our dearest Luke has had his memorable 21st birthday which he'll remember forever! We celebrated his birthday in Redbox. The unique one was that his senior actually told him that he has to go back office for OT. I didn't know how they brought him to 1st Avenue, but he was stunned in Redbox, saying that he couldn't believe he was there. LOL That's really funny, and i've had wonderful time enjoying his duet with Kai Huey. =D

Then, i went to Bee Sean's birthday at night. Meeting my old classmates, Hock Heng, though i never know him when i was in primary. Haha. Bee Sean was so beautiful that night, JJ must be stunning. =D I didn't make it for the apartment. Hope there will be next day for meeting up!

I'll be meeting Ying Chia in the office next week (i mean this coming Mon)! I really miss her so so much and feel very badly for rejecting her appointment. But we're actually thinking to go for a short vacation after intern. I'll also be meeting up Pei San in the office. Planned to spend the night time with Ying Chia also, will ask her and see how.

I've had a nice chat with Ee Leng who is working in KL KPMG. Now i really believe that KPMG employees are really nice. I hope my SIC won't be annoyed and become frustrated with me teasing him all the time last week. =D

March 20, 2011
9.21PM

BACK FROM SP!

Woah this week was a total enjoy! I just rushed for finishing my work on sat and the next day i started heading to SP. Yes you get it right, i worked OT on sat, but luckily half day lah, i still had some time to pack my things for SP one-week "trip". LOL

So i arrived at penang church at 7.50am PUNCTUALLY and finally saw my SIC's car arriving. That SIC freaked my dad up because he arrived at 8.15am. LOL. At that time i still didn't know him, if not i guess i should have asked him to treat me to compensate my time wasted for waiting. HAHAHA. A Virgo guy.

As what i expected, i held the file of a dormant company. Anyway, a dormant is easy to handle, i guess it's specially for trainees, if trainees are available. LOL. So from knowing nothing until completing current year CAF, i realised i've learnt a lot. Hopefully all the knowledge and experience have been absorbed and will be applied in future.

I couldn't really believe that we still could watch movie after work. From last 2 weeks experience, i thought it would be like 8am-9pm. But this job was really enjoying with less issues and clean record. We took our sweet time to finish up everything. Maybe in future weeks this sweet moment will not exist anymore but let me just sweetly finish these two weeks. One week left, and i am going to make best use of it! Haha.

The colleagues are nice! I realized that auditors are usually pretty and handsome, maybe because auditors are usually young (i mean those working one, not reviewing files one =D). Well, i might not be pretty but i think i am going to be one of them, soon. =D

March 11, 2011
5.30PM

WORKING DAYS

From 8am until 7-9pm, it sounds quite terrible right? But this is only for the hours that we are working in client's office, excluding the hours that we work at home. So it sounds even terrible now? Haha.

I can't make a good comment on this right now because as a trainee my workload is still not as much as those auditors. In two-weeks time, i will be at outstation again, being informed by my senior that i will be personally holding one file. Ah, that time i might feel free to comment on the feeling of working in such long hours. Stay tuned as i will update my blog in weekends. =D Oh ya, that's really good to claim RM50 per day when we work at outstation.

Well, by now, weekends is still a leisure time for me. Thinking on spending it on movies and shopping, i am considering to start writing my brand new story. Can i make it? Not sure, because by now i still don't have the mood of writing. Will see how then, haha.

I take these things to work everyday. =D

This week, i met some very funny people, funnier than those in SP engagement. Maybe because there are guys, so there will be more joy and topics to be "made use of". Haha.

February 26, 2011
11.47AM

OUTSTATION ENGAGEMENT

Poor PIG that he has to celebrate Valentine day himself. =D Well, i went S.P. on the day of valentine until yesterday. It was really a good experience, not only on audit work, but also to learn to stay outside independently.

For me the most important thing was to learn to 'TAHAN LAPAR'. We had breakfast at 8am and lunch at 12.30-1pm. It's still fine. But our dinner was at 8-9pm. Goodness, but luckily we had some snacks to eat during work. However, it's still not really enough for me as i used to have teatime. So during this week, i really learnt to 'TAHAN LAPAR' and now i am already used to it.

Now my problem is constipation. Yes, it comes again! I think basically is because i didn't have fruits and cereal for one week, besides eating nuts as snacks when i was working. I think i am going to fix this by bringing cereals for the next outstation engagement.

Anyway, it's a great experience during this valuable trip and i hope i can learn more in the coming future. =D

February 19, 2011
8.30PM

MY FIRST WEEK OF INTERNSHIP



It's was fun! I didn't expect i would like auditor's job. It seems to be very boring to most of the people, and i've heard too much negative comments from a lot of people. But it doesn't turn out as what i've heard.

However, it can be explained as i am just a trainee, so i still not yet feel the heavy responsibility of meeting the deadlines. I saw my seniors rushing for deadline, working on weekends and sleeping at late at night. They keep on complaining that they are tired, stressed out, but they don't say they are giving up. I guess maybe in 2013, i'll be one of them. LOL.

Anyway, until now, i enjoy my job. I guess i like to travel instead of sitting in office. The first day was the day of test. We need to take 5 tests. After passing the test, we were assigned to seniors. But in the second day, we were still in office because seniors were unable to pick us up as they've already traveled for engagement. That's the most boring day. We'd nothing to do, ending up reading audit materials on intranet. The third day was fun as we followed seniors to Bukit Minyak. I was borrowed by another team because my senior was at outstation and unable to fetch me. So i've learnt to search for invoices which are listed and match the amount with the record. This is vouching i guess? Haha. What's tiring was the work of searching, but it really filled up time. After a while, I realised it's already one hour over! LOL. I feel it's just like working on assignments, without caring days and nights.

What's most exciting is i am going outstation next week. Though with little worries, i still feel very happy with this. I really hope i will learn a lot from this internship. So far, i am happy and enjoying. I hope this will stay. =D
This is what we usually think of auditors, but if you really enjoy your job, you will be very committed and your life will be enriched by the job. =D

Still not knowing what i m going to face, but i hope for the best. =) GO GO SHIYEE!

THE DAY BEFORE INTERN

I saw one of my friends' blog post stating she was not motivated to work tomorrow. Well, i guess if we were given a choice, noone is going to choose to work rather than rest. Haha, same for me, i feel that i still don't want to be away from Chinese New Year. Meeting relatives is fun and enjoyable. Well, i seriously feel that this CNY is too short for me.

But luckily, before CNY, i have 2 weeks to rest, so it isn't that bad for me yet, thinking that after i graduate, i might be facing worse situation. Anyway, we should always be grateful and thankful about what we have now. Though working isn't my choice, but since i have no choice, i would face it positively. Wearing formal and looking smart aren't bad things, right? No matter how a person look like, formal wear will always give him/her a smart image. I am quite excited about this.

Let's accept all the challenges! They will teach us to be strong and mature. They will let us see another world!

Nevertheless, study time is always the most enjoyable time during our whole life. I guess this sentence will be further proven after tomorrow.

And finally, i wanna say "Hwaiting" to myself! "화이팅" !

"aja aja Fighting!" Shirt. LOL. 

February 8, 2011
1:03PM

CHINESE NEW YEAR

After posting the photos of reunion dinner, i keep you informed about the first day of Chinese New Year. I didn't wake up very early, around 9am. In my memory, i woke up, faced comp, bathed, ate and watched cousins 'playing cards'. LOL.

But before that, let me show you my preparation for CNY - nail painting! =D


My mom said it looks like vampire, but i think it's quite nice XD

So the 1st day of CNY: 

The adults are chatting.

While the kids.. 

Attracted by iphone.

Playing coins, making them stand. =D

My sis and my cousin. 

February 7, 2011
9.58PM

HAPPY CNY AND HAPPY BDAY TO MY PAPA


We decided to have our reunion dinner held at Xuan Sheng, steamboat restaurant at Tanjong Tokong.

Arrived at 9 PM.

Waiting to eat... 

Start boiling...

Chubii cousin, Jia Ye 堂弟

Coincidently, that day was my dad's lunar birthday. So i bought a cake for a simple celebration.



Vanilla cake

My cousins, 堂妹

My cousins, 表弟

That was a wonderful night. =D

February 7, 2011
9.32AM

A CORNER FOR COSMETIC 化妝品的角落

A new corner in my drawer! I was so excited because this is the first time i actually choose and buy cosmetic. So when i was keeping my drawer, i squeezed this corner into my drawer which is usually for hair pins and notebooks.


My new corner..

Elianto loose powder

Elianto cream concealer

Eyelash Brusher, Elianto Eyeliner, and Eyelash Curler

Silky Girl Mascara & Eye Shadow

Elianto moisturizing Lip Gross

I quite like Elianto products because it is quite cheap for a beginner like me. I don't want to buy good but expensive one because i still dunno how to use. It's kind of waste if i discover i don't like it or it is not suitable for me.

This is one of the preparation for internship. =D

February 7, 2011
9.07AM