No matter how hard it is, it will pass.
And when i turn back, i will just smile.
Sept 14, 2011
3.52PM
ENDURING
I believe.
No matter how hard it is, it will pass.
And when i turn back, i will just smile.
No matter how hard it is, it will pass.
And when i turn back, i will just smile.
海枯石爛
Recently a song touched me a lot. It tells us that true feeling doesn't need to convey "I Love You" everyday. It can be very simple, just a smile will do.
I like this because there is no "I Love You" in the lyrics but yet the song can be written in such a meaningful way.
Especially for this sentence: "有空想念我的話就上線來說晚安,讓夢裡星光燦爛"
I like this because there is no "I Love You" in the lyrics but yet the song can be written in such a meaningful way.
Especially for this sentence: "有空想念我的話就上線來說晚安,讓夢裡星光燦爛"
Sep 12, 2011
1.06PM
TURNING
Hmm. I met an ex-classmate today and he was like: wow you're more mature now! You're changing!
I dunno whether he has been rather shocked with this but i guess the main issue is he didn't meet me for a long time d. When we were classmates, i was still a half-boiled girl who only started to mix around.
I am not saying that myself is now very mature or what but from the feedback, there is some changes i guess. Sometimes i am not sure what kind of feeling others will have on me but i am always trying to be myself. If there is difference, means the spirit inside myself is turning, and it's not the case that i am imitating others. That's really good, lead my own life, with my own style. ^^
Well, i like the word "turning" more than "changing". Changing can be getting worse, but turning usually means changing into something / someone better. =DD
I dunno whether he has been rather shocked with this but i guess the main issue is he didn't meet me for a long time d. When we were classmates, i was still a half-boiled girl who only started to mix around.
I am not saying that myself is now very mature or what but from the feedback, there is some changes i guess. Sometimes i am not sure what kind of feeling others will have on me but i am always trying to be myself. If there is difference, means the spirit inside myself is turning, and it's not the case that i am imitating others. That's really good, lead my own life, with my own style. ^^
Well, i like the word "turning" more than "changing". Changing can be getting worse, but turning usually means changing into something / someone better. =DD
Looking into the world,
Sept 9, 2011
12.08PM
A NIGHT BEING PRINCESS
Don't laugh. I really feel i was a princess coz if it's me in my ordinary life, i wouldnt have the chance to even step in Rasa Sayang, don't even mention having buffet there. But this has become a reality last night, when i had my very first hotel buffet dinner in the hotel. The most surprising was the lounge, i was like: wow! i never imagine i can even step in such place! This is what we call : "open eyes big big". LOL.
September 6, 2011
11.17PM
Blurring My Vision
“青春是一場雨，即使感冒了，還會想再淋一次。”
讓我一大早就模糊了視線 - 《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》， 如此赤裸裸的，喚醒那封塵已久的回憶。
最原始的感動，最瘋狂的那段青春。
或許，十一月，我眼睛會再淋雨一次。
讓我一大早就模糊了視線 - 《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》， 如此赤裸裸的，喚醒那封塵已久的回憶。
最原始的感動，最瘋狂的那段青春。
或許，十一月，我眼睛會再淋雨一次。
August 15, 2011
10.53AM
=D
Scrolling down in FB wall, i discovered that the girls who laughed and cried during those days in secondary school are all grown up. =)
Suddenly i miss the days, i miss how we could proudly express our feelings with the excuse of "we are passionate teenagers".
Now, when i look back at myself, i am just the same as them. I smile, feeling happy that i can now, finally, fully, take things easily, without asking the reasons, because it is not an obsession anymore.
^^
Suddenly i miss the days, i miss how we could proudly express our feelings with the excuse of "we are passionate teenagers".
Now, when i look back at myself, i am just the same as them. I smile, feeling happy that i can now, finally, fully, take things easily, without asking the reasons, because it is not an obsession anymore.
^^
August 14, 2011
11.11PM
EXAM MODE
Okay, as usual, i have no mood to study just before exam. I haven't finished all my revision, for your information, yet i feel very lazy for it. Hmm, as usual. =D
The reason i hate going through the pass year is it reminds me that i've actually forgotten everything i've studied. 0.o That's a painful reality though things can be in the way that i might not be able to memorize the facts i shd've remember but i can actually crap and the answer might be correct as well. The problem is the perception matter - the facts listed in the notes are the most accurate. So when i see the pass year and my mind goes blank, i would tend to search for the answer and when i find the notes, i would need to memorize everything AGAIN. SIGH.
But it's a belief of "need to go through pass year". So if i didn't go though it, i would feel my study and revision not completed. SIGH SIGH. So i go though, mind goes blank, and memorizing.....? Stay away from me, i would never keep everything in mind. =D =D
What else can i say?
ALL THE BEST TO YOU LAH, SHIYEE.
The reason i hate going through the pass year is it reminds me that i've actually forgotten everything i've studied. 0.o That's a painful reality though things can be in the way that i might not be able to memorize the facts i shd've remember but i can actually crap and the answer might be correct as well. The problem is the perception matter - the facts listed in the notes are the most accurate. So when i see the pass year and my mind goes blank, i would tend to search for the answer and when i find the notes, i would need to memorize everything AGAIN. SIGH.
But it's a belief of "need to go through pass year". So if i didn't go though it, i would feel my study and revision not completed. SIGH SIGH. So i go though, mind goes blank, and memorizing.....? Stay away from me, i would never keep everything in mind. =D =D
What else can i say?
ALL THE BEST TO YOU LAH, SHIYEE.
August 14, 2011
2.25PM
INTERESTING ARTICLE
Sometimes i like articles because it can really describe you in such detail that you will get a shock that you didn't know yourself at all before reading. And i like to read articles describing males because they are arrogant species and would never let you know what is actually in their minds.
So i flipped through this article called "In where are men hiding his unsecured feeling?" and 5 types of males have been identified.
And i read through one: When they are facing insecurity, they would just "freeze" you - acting as if they didn't care at all.
HMMMMMMMMMM???????? =D
So i flipped through this article called "In where are men hiding his unsecured feeling?" and 5 types of males have been identified.
And i read through one: When they are facing insecurity, they would just "freeze" you - acting as if they didn't care at all.
HMMMMMMMMMM???????? =D
July 25, 2011
11.06PM
C:
Do you know?
Sometimes a simple word can enlighten my whole week,
because that word is from you.
July 24, 2011
10.46PM
WHY HAR???
Sometimes i just don't understand why some people will do something.
Why you must be so care of some events? I know that is a big one but still without it your life won't be ruined! I mean sometimes you concern that much will just make your life more pity and helpless and because you care too much you'll just end up in sadness. And you'll start blaming others because you think they caused your sadness. Huhz? As long as you know what you're living for, everyday is still a very happy day!
And, why some people refuse to let go when it is time for letting go? I mean, there's already meaningless for holding that 'thing' yet some people would rather be hurt and killed by that 'thing' instead of letting it go and lead a brand new life! Isn't this called "lying others and the worst, lying yourself"? I know you can feel it, i know you are hurt, but i just don't know why you're still holding on! You can see the blue sky just after you open up the door! Why must you lock yourself inside?
Okay, i've been moody today. Shall return to my tax assignment.
Why you must be so care of some events? I know that is a big one but still without it your life won't be ruined! I mean sometimes you concern that much will just make your life more pity and helpless and because you care too much you'll just end up in sadness. And you'll start blaming others because you think they caused your sadness. Huhz? As long as you know what you're living for, everyday is still a very happy day!
And, why some people refuse to let go when it is time for letting go? I mean, there's already meaningless for holding that 'thing' yet some people would rather be hurt and killed by that 'thing' instead of letting it go and lead a brand new life! Isn't this called "lying others and the worst, lying yourself"? I know you can feel it, i know you are hurt, but i just don't know why you're still holding on! You can see the blue sky just after you open up the door! Why must you lock yourself inside?
Okay, i've been moody today. Shall return to my tax assignment.
July 20, 2011
10.46PM
Ma 21st Buffday!
Hey, i just realized that i didn't talk about my big day - 21st freedom birthday! =D So let's see how i passed my memorable time!
Sometimes pictures explain better than words! =D
1. 030611 - Ocean Green Dinner with Family
2. 040611 - A Surprise from Pretties and Handsomes
The main thing was, i received a call on that day. Someone told me something and i was like: huh? LOL that's a surprise as well.
Thanks uncle (for the call at lease) ! ^^
Sometimes pictures explain better than words! =D
1. 030611 - Ocean Green Dinner with Family
Delicious? See my action and you'll know it. =P
2. 040611 - A Surprise from Pretties and Handsomes
SURPRISE! And then only i realize - wow, it's for me!
A bunch of pretties! =D
And the best ever - the only pic with my dearest senior! ^^
Thanks KP, thanks daddy. ^^
3. 060611 - Surprise Cake from Classmates
I thought it was a normal sunny afternoon and as usual, we were heading to somewhere for lunch to fill up our two-hours break.
But i saw candles...
Awwww.... SWEET!
And here's my cute classmates!
Thanks TARCians! ^^
4. 060611 - Another Dinner with Family
The main thing was, i received a call on that day. Someone told me something and i was like: huh? LOL that's a surprise as well.
Thanks uncle (for the call at lease) ! ^^
Thanks to 100++ over people who left birthday wishes on my wall! ^^
Don't be jealous, my birthday will be the sweetest! =P =P
=D
July 08, 2011
11.32AM
HEY, I AM HERE.
Well, long time didnt pay a visit. Actually i have test in the following week, but still i decided to close the book and come here. I have no mood to study, perhaps because of my messy thought that i have had these few weeks. I don't have one, and i don't want one, to be at my side to listen to all my silly thought, because i have decided to keep everything private to myself. I never have done this as i used to pour out everything to make myself feel better. But this time, i decided to keep this in myself, forever.
My messy thought started sometime after internship, i don't know when it started actually. I become lazy, i realized, and i m not that determined anymore. This is somehow good in the sense that i didn't feel any pressure anymore, the pressure that i used to feel it every weekends during two sems in year one. However, i scared this is to make everything worse. Everything is getting tougher and i am not sure whether i can cope with it with this attitude. But somehow, i restructured my thought and i discovered i didn't waste my time. I fought with time everyday for my assignments. Hey, this is meaningful as well. I have enough leisure also, just sometimes not enough sleep, perhaps. Haha. But i just realized (also) that i am actually used to sleep late now. I now prefer to finish everything, not being stubborn on the sleeping time. Mom said this will make me become older, and i said, just let it be la. =P
I finally decided to become single. This is a big decision for me actually. I am too used to rely on someone and now i have to work out everything by myself. A challenge, really, but it helps me to learn. I now even know how to fetch people from airport, this is really cool. I never thought i can. =) But somehow, it is quite empty when you are so tired that you need someone to be at your side to listen to your grumble. Hmm, i think now that person is my mom, ha. My mom has become a really great friend of me, listening to me and analyzing with me. She gave me answers for unknown questions in my mind, though i don't know whether what she said and predicted will become true.
And she said something about "something", which until now i still can't believe "something" actually exists in my life. I didn't know how i am connected with "something", and sometimes i rather i am not connected with "something". "something" is now driving my emotion, i realized, i JUST realized. Haiz, this is a painful reality. Somehow this might be one of the reasons that cause the change of my attitude? Perhaps. My mom said something that made me quite... errr.... should i say, happy to hear that? But happiness brings hope, and hope causes disappointment, disappointment will cut my heart. Sometimes i cried because "something" is just too nice until it makes me wondering. And i dislike this wondering because it creates hope, again. I don't want hope, i rather others' hand is held. But the environment just tells me there is some possibilities. I hate the jokes, the laughter, the eye sight, everything from that "something". And, again, I REALLY HATE HOPE NOW.
But i have decided to keep everything deep in my heart. I don't think i will ever tell. If the case goes as what i expect. You know, sometimes we hope for miracle, and we hope tale will become truth, but it is just too optimistic. Besides, i don't want to cause any trouble to "something". So just let me bear everything myself. I don't know how long this would last but i foresee it to be very very very very long. But it's okay, let me bear everything.
Hmm... besides there is some "flies" i have met. It's not that i look down on someone or what, but they are giving me such feeling. I finally know what is meant by kids. Hmm, when he is, he really talks like a kid. I now really get what mom means. And ermm, somehow, i really dislike those guys who always desire pretty girls. You know some guys they have thousands of friends on fb and when you glance through, goodness, all are pretty girls. God, guys like this please don't approach me, i really dislike you. You don't expect after knowing your stupid hobby i will be holding your hands sometimes in the future. Argh! Useless!
Wow, seem emotional. Okay, cooling down. Haha. Haiz, a good guy is hard to find. Ha, if daddy sees this, he will say: "dun think too much la! study la!" Yeah, i have to study now. Really have to. So after this post, let's put down everything, take a deep breath, and begin my study life. Too much assignment to be done! SIGH! But i will be able to handle it! No worries! Add oil Shi Yee! You can do it! Yeah.
To that "something", i'll still keep it in my heart, in fact, it's really good to have came across it during my life. ^^
Oh yeah, i have had the most unbelievable and unforgettable bday in this year. A total shock and surprise! Really thanks a lot to you guys who was in RB! I love you! Muackz!
And to those in LC - i really really really really.... LOVE YOU GUYS! Hahahaha. French-kiss!!! =D
And i wonder, where is all those photos taken... =P
My messy thought started sometime after internship, i don't know when it started actually. I become lazy, i realized, and i m not that determined anymore. This is somehow good in the sense that i didn't feel any pressure anymore, the pressure that i used to feel it every weekends during two sems in year one. However, i scared this is to make everything worse. Everything is getting tougher and i am not sure whether i can cope with it with this attitude. But somehow, i restructured my thought and i discovered i didn't waste my time. I fought with time everyday for my assignments. Hey, this is meaningful as well. I have enough leisure also, just sometimes not enough sleep, perhaps. Haha. But i just realized (also) that i am actually used to sleep late now. I now prefer to finish everything, not being stubborn on the sleeping time. Mom said this will make me become older, and i said, just let it be la. =P
I finally decided to become single. This is a big decision for me actually. I am too used to rely on someone and now i have to work out everything by myself. A challenge, really, but it helps me to learn. I now even know how to fetch people from airport, this is really cool. I never thought i can. =) But somehow, it is quite empty when you are so tired that you need someone to be at your side to listen to your grumble. Hmm, i think now that person is my mom, ha. My mom has become a really great friend of me, listening to me and analyzing with me. She gave me answers for unknown questions in my mind, though i don't know whether what she said and predicted will become true.
And she said something about "something", which until now i still can't believe "something" actually exists in my life. I didn't know how i am connected with "something", and sometimes i rather i am not connected with "something". "something" is now driving my emotion, i realized, i JUST realized. Haiz, this is a painful reality. Somehow this might be one of the reasons that cause the change of my attitude? Perhaps. My mom said something that made me quite... errr.... should i say, happy to hear that? But happiness brings hope, and hope causes disappointment, disappointment will cut my heart. Sometimes i cried because "something" is just too nice until it makes me wondering. And i dislike this wondering because it creates hope, again. I don't want hope, i rather others' hand is held. But the environment just tells me there is some possibilities. I hate the jokes, the laughter, the eye sight, everything from that "something". And, again, I REALLY HATE HOPE NOW.
But i have decided to keep everything deep in my heart. I don't think i will ever tell. If the case goes as what i expect. You know, sometimes we hope for miracle, and we hope tale will become truth, but it is just too optimistic. Besides, i don't want to cause any trouble to "something". So just let me bear everything myself. I don't know how long this would last but i foresee it to be very very very very long. But it's okay, let me bear everything.
Hmm... besides there is some "flies" i have met. It's not that i look down on someone or what, but they are giving me such feeling. I finally know what is meant by kids. Hmm, when he is, he really talks like a kid. I now really get what mom means. And ermm, somehow, i really dislike those guys who always desire pretty girls. You know some guys they have thousands of friends on fb and when you glance through, goodness, all are pretty girls. God, guys like this please don't approach me, i really dislike you. You don't expect after knowing your stupid hobby i will be holding your hands sometimes in the future. Argh! Useless!
Wow, seem emotional. Okay, cooling down. Haha. Haiz, a good guy is hard to find. Ha, if daddy sees this, he will say: "dun think too much la! study la!" Yeah, i have to study now. Really have to. So after this post, let's put down everything, take a deep breath, and begin my study life. Too much assignment to be done! SIGH! But i will be able to handle it! No worries! Add oil Shi Yee! You can do it! Yeah.
To that "something", i'll still keep it in my heart, in fact, it's really good to have came across it during my life. ^^
Oh yeah, i have had the most unbelievable and unforgettable bday in this year. A total shock and surprise! Really thanks a lot to you guys who was in RB! I love you! Muackz!
And to those in LC - i really really really really.... LOVE YOU GUYS! Hahahaha. French-kiss!!! =D
And i wonder, where is all those photos taken... =P
June 12, 2011
11.53PM
THE RETURN
Finally, i've ended my internship and would be returning to college in this week. What's my feeling? Hmm, i am not sure about the reason, but i just enjoy working so much that i don't want to go back to college. Well, you might be thinking 'cause i am just a trainee, no burden, no rushing accounts, no calls from client, no pressure from managers, that's why i enjoy. I never become a permanent employee so this might be true, who knows? But to be honest to my feeling, i don't want to leave. The people there are nice. Then maybe you will say again - you never met those who are not nice YET. Maybe, who knows? But be certain, i will return to this field after one and a half year. =D
Starting to miss everyone i've worked with. =(
Starting to miss everyone i've worked with. =(
May 9, 2011
4.21PM
BIGGEST DECISION
I'll make it short for this one. I've made a big decision, probably biggest during these few years, in my life. Actually i am not so sure whether it is correct or wrong, but i guess for the current condition this would be the best way. Well, what will happen in the future remains unknown. I don't know how people is going to talk badly behind me, but i will just smile and let it go. In fact, i can't control. Well, i guess i will just accept everything and have a brand new start. Wish myself all the best!
May 7, 2011
11.51PM
LIVING IN HEAVEN
I was living in heaven for these two weeks! Actually one of the reasons, which is commonly known, is not really good to be disclosed here, so i just keep it to myself. Haha. And another reason, i bet no one will know about this. Well, i will also just keep to myself since it will cause some unnecessary misunderstanding, i guess.
So why am i writing this? Haha, i am now asking myself as well. I initially wish to appreciate all i have now but it seems very sensitive to be discussed here. Hmm... Perhaps, let me take a bathe first and think about it.
I really feel lucky for having the chance to enjoy all i have gone through. I would take everything as a joy because i enjoy learning new things. I am very glad that i didn't reject KPMG or i wouldn't be me as in today. I've met lots of nice seniors who are always willing to share with me their knowledge and experience. I'll never never forget the moment i spent in KP and with all my beloved colleagues. Because of this meaningful internship, i've been to SP for the very first time, spent 3 weeks over there. I've been following 3 seniors, learning different things from them. As a short conclusion, i am very happy in these 3 months until i don't want to go back to my college.
But, i still have to be back and work hard for my ACCA qualification. I bet i will be back, though almost 100% people that i've met are not encouraging this. We will see how after 1 and a half year. =D
I still left one week living in heaven. And i'll be back to reality.
April 30, 2011
11.31PM
AN UPDATE AGAIN - BUT NOT ABOUT INTERN =D
Woah, i just realized that all my recent posts are about internship! So i decided to write something out of internship. I think it might be very short 'cause somehow some "matters" i can't share here.
I discovered that i like to fill up my time with work. One A1 told me that auditor in China actually died because of too much workload. It sounds scary, but i still prefer life with work rather than life without work. I mean, maybe i was born like this, or i was trained to be like this, i can't stand the days without work. I will feel this is a waste of my time. I want to fill my time meaningfully. So i guess i will become an auditor next time. But i have a problem here. I might be very busy until i don't have time for others. So... I don't know how to write here, but this is really a big concern for me. A BIG ONE. I mean, the concern is about, how i deal with the "others", i will still carry on my wish to become an auditor. =D See la, if i really can't stand, i might quit someday. =D But i think i can. LOL.
Someone said my mind changed after internship. I guess this is very normal. I've heard others saying that becoming an auditor isn't really an easy job because you need to work until very late. Now i really experienced how the life of an auditor is. So it's very natural for me to change my thinking. I start to look into future and consider all the factors if my future life is way like this.
On last Thursday, i reached at about 11++, almost 12. My dad sms-ed me and asked why i am so late. I guess if next time i go back to KPMG, my dad might be asking this same question everyday, will he? LOL. My mom is still fine, she understands this is work. And i have a hard time dealing this with BIG PIG at my home. He said he can understand when i really come out to work, but i really didn't know how much he can understand... If i really become permanent employee, i will be even worse than now, because my style is, if i am working, i won't bother about others. My mom really knows my pattern well, she knows. But i don't think BIG PIG can stand. How??? Let thing becomes what it should be la. =D
Okay, just a small part for internship. I learnt a lot this week handling the roll forward of the inventory. Finally my job is done and i want to thank the A2 that guided me for all these. I can't imagine if he is not around how i could finish my job. I kept on pouring questions to him although he is not so free to answer me. So sorry yet so thankful to him.
This week is still a happy one, though i have to work until very late, even after i am back to home. I guess i am used to it? No, i am still very "young" to talk about this. We will see how. =D
I am ending my internship soon, feeling not going back to college, wanna stay here~~~~~ haha.
I discovered that i like to fill up my time with work. One A1 told me that auditor in China actually died because of too much workload. It sounds scary, but i still prefer life with work rather than life without work. I mean, maybe i was born like this, or i was trained to be like this, i can't stand the days without work. I will feel this is a waste of my time. I want to fill my time meaningfully. So i guess i will become an auditor next time. But i have a problem here. I might be very busy until i don't have time for others. So... I don't know how to write here, but this is really a big concern for me. A BIG ONE. I mean, the concern is about, how i deal with the "others", i will still carry on my wish to become an auditor. =D See la, if i really can't stand, i might quit someday. =D But i think i can. LOL.
Someone said my mind changed after internship. I guess this is very normal. I've heard others saying that becoming an auditor isn't really an easy job because you need to work until very late. Now i really experienced how the life of an auditor is. So it's very natural for me to change my thinking. I start to look into future and consider all the factors if my future life is way like this.
On last Thursday, i reached at about 11++, almost 12. My dad sms-ed me and asked why i am so late. I guess if next time i go back to KPMG, my dad might be asking this same question everyday, will he? LOL. My mom is still fine, she understands this is work. And i have a hard time dealing this with BIG PIG at my home. He said he can understand when i really come out to work, but i really didn't know how much he can understand... If i really become permanent employee, i will be even worse than now, because my style is, if i am working, i won't bother about others. My mom really knows my pattern well, she knows. But i don't think BIG PIG can stand. How??? Let thing becomes what it should be la. =D
Okay, just a small part for internship. I learnt a lot this week handling the roll forward of the inventory. Finally my job is done and i want to thank the A2 that guided me for all these. I can't imagine if he is not around how i could finish my job. I kept on pouring questions to him although he is not so free to answer me. So sorry yet so thankful to him.
This week is still a happy one, though i have to work until very late, even after i am back to home. I guess i am used to it? No, i am still very "young" to talk about this. We will see how. =D
I am ending my internship soon, feeling not going back to college, wanna stay here~~~~~ haha.
April 16, 2011
10.21AM
AN UPDATE
This post is just an update for my recent life. I really don't know what title i should put, seriously... ><
Well, i was back to office for two days and i am glad that i actually happened to meet a few TARC trainees and have lunch with them. I thought i would be alone at first, not knowing some of them would actually go back. We were very happy chatting and sharing our experience of dealing with clients. Some clients are really nice, and one of my friends actually met those nice one, which she now thinks herself is very lucky compared to us. LOL. Whereas for us, actually still fine lah, it's just that either we got some difficult jobs or we met some troublesome clients. It's, anyway, a great experience, and a great chance for us to learn what's patience. Like my senior said, we will be very "thick-face" after becoming an auditor. LOL.
Hmm... The past week i was still going to Prai, for three days. Guess what time i was back to home? Around 11pm+. Serious. The first day was a terrible one, with everyone not knowing until when we would be working. So everyone did not prepare for dinner, ending up being hungry for the whole night. That's a really bad day. So, the next day, we headed to bakery and kedai runcit for bread and biscuit. The situation was just like we would actually be camping at client's office! LOL. Everyone was so scared to be hungry again at night. Some people even proposed to buy mattress and pillow, without forgetting tooth paste and brush. LOL. I said this is more like "outstation".
I finally have work to do, have a thing to be busy with. I am happy with life like this, though some issues i have to think and think and think. This client is a big one so sometimes i might not be able to get what i want. So i was really busy searching for what so called audit evidence (finally i know what's that! =D) and verifying client's statement. But i really learnt a lot. I must thank my senior for trusting me and let me handle the whole EE5.1 section. LOL though i know she allocated me for this job is not because she trusts me. I sometimes feel that i am very stupid because my thinking is very straight. If i am asked to finish a task, i must be explained clearly only i will know what i should do. And if i don't understand, i will keep on pouring questions to seniors. I guess they will feel very troublesome and annoyed for having a trainee like me. But nvm, we have to learn. I did many things wrongly but i learnt from that. Maybe i am born to learn new things in this way and i accept it. I need to be grateful for all the chance i have for me to explore the world. This is what life is, it doesn't come in the way you wish, instead it enriches you with obstacles and provide you a learning path. So after you have gone through it, you will be a great person with enriched knowledge and experience. Nice. =D I couldn't believe i wrote this. =)
I just happened to browse through one of my friends' blog and she said, she thinks she falls in love with someone. I don't know who that is but i have feeling to share my opinion. If who she means is a senior in the firm, i think she might be just "admire" him but not falling in love.
If you admire a person, you'll sure be happy to see him or even work with him. When you don't see him (maybe in office) you might be wondering where he is. Is he out to client's office? I think all these are very normal for "admiring".
Also, she said one of her friends said admiring for more than two weeks might be falling in love, which i don't really agree lah. There must be reasons for you to admire a person, and if you work with him for more than two weeks, it's quite impossible for you to stop admiring someone after two weeks right? The reasons will always be there, because he is he himself.
If you ask me will i have the same experience? I will say of course. Everyone will meet someone they really admire when first join a community (not only firm but also a community like new friends group and new classmates). As for me, KPMG has a lot of seniors who are really capable and nice. They might not know they are really awesome, but a person will shine when he/she is confident, capable and nice to person around him/her. I hope in future i might be someone like this. =D I am always imagining if i have a trainee... LOL You might be laughing as i have not even ended my internship, that's still long way from here. But it will arrive soon, someday. i will be treating him/her very nice i guess, if my temper is in control. =D
Well, i was back to office for two days and i am glad that i actually happened to meet a few TARC trainees and have lunch with them. I thought i would be alone at first, not knowing some of them would actually go back. We were very happy chatting and sharing our experience of dealing with clients. Some clients are really nice, and one of my friends actually met those nice one, which she now thinks herself is very lucky compared to us. LOL. Whereas for us, actually still fine lah, it's just that either we got some difficult jobs or we met some troublesome clients. It's, anyway, a great experience, and a great chance for us to learn what's patience. Like my senior said, we will be very "thick-face" after becoming an auditor. LOL.
Hmm... The past week i was still going to Prai, for three days. Guess what time i was back to home? Around 11pm+. Serious. The first day was a terrible one, with everyone not knowing until when we would be working. So everyone did not prepare for dinner, ending up being hungry for the whole night. That's a really bad day. So, the next day, we headed to bakery and kedai runcit for bread and biscuit. The situation was just like we would actually be camping at client's office! LOL. Everyone was so scared to be hungry again at night. Some people even proposed to buy mattress and pillow, without forgetting tooth paste and brush. LOL. I said this is more like "outstation".
I finally have work to do, have a thing to be busy with. I am happy with life like this, though some issues i have to think and think and think. This client is a big one so sometimes i might not be able to get what i want. So i was really busy searching for what so called audit evidence (finally i know what's that! =D) and verifying client's statement. But i really learnt a lot. I must thank my senior for trusting me and let me handle the whole EE5.1 section. LOL though i know she allocated me for this job is not because she trusts me. I sometimes feel that i am very stupid because my thinking is very straight. If i am asked to finish a task, i must be explained clearly only i will know what i should do. And if i don't understand, i will keep on pouring questions to seniors. I guess they will feel very troublesome and annoyed for having a trainee like me. But nvm, we have to learn. I did many things wrongly but i learnt from that. Maybe i am born to learn new things in this way and i accept it. I need to be grateful for all the chance i have for me to explore the world. This is what life is, it doesn't come in the way you wish, instead it enriches you with obstacles and provide you a learning path. So after you have gone through it, you will be a great person with enriched knowledge and experience. Nice. =D I couldn't believe i wrote this. =)
I just happened to browse through one of my friends' blog and she said, she thinks she falls in love with someone. I don't know who that is but i have feeling to share my opinion. If who she means is a senior in the firm, i think she might be just "admire" him but not falling in love.
If you admire a person, you'll sure be happy to see him or even work with him. When you don't see him (maybe in office) you might be wondering where he is. Is he out to client's office? I think all these are very normal for "admiring".
Also, she said one of her friends said admiring for more than two weeks might be falling in love, which i don't really agree lah. There must be reasons for you to admire a person, and if you work with him for more than two weeks, it's quite impossible for you to stop admiring someone after two weeks right? The reasons will always be there, because he is he himself.
If you ask me will i have the same experience? I will say of course. Everyone will meet someone they really admire when first join a community (not only firm but also a community like new friends group and new classmates). As for me, KPMG has a lot of seniors who are really capable and nice. They might not know they are really awesome, but a person will shine when he/she is confident, capable and nice to person around him/her. I hope in future i might be someone like this. =D I am always imagining if i have a trainee... LOL You might be laughing as i have not even ended my internship, that's still long way from here. But it will arrive soon, someday. i will be treating him/her very nice i guess, if my temper is in control. =D
April 9, 2011
4.16PM
LIKE A BOMB
It was a shock when i got to know my senior is going to 'abandon' me starting from Thursday! I mean i like her so much and i wish to end my internship with her! I was quite shocked when i was told about this, and started to worry who i will be following for the next 5 weeks.
So on Thursday, i was told by manager to assist one S3 whose trainee had left on Thursday. I followed her to Prai on Friday. It's not that i don't like her, but she is way too serious for me. I don't like working in a very serious environment, at lease with some laughters, like previously. But i should be glad that she is not that kind who likes to marah-marah and make things hard for trainees.
I hope things will get better in the next 5 weeks. I am going to the same co for weeks. Will i be bored? Not sure. I still hope to end this internship with best memory. =D
So on Thursday, i was told by manager to assist one S3 whose trainee had left on Thursday. I followed her to Prai on Friday. It's not that i don't like her, but she is way too serious for me. I don't like working in a very serious environment, at lease with some laughters, like previously. But i should be glad that she is not that kind who likes to marah-marah and make things hard for trainees.
I hope things will get better in the next 5 weeks. I am going to the same co for weeks. Will i be bored? Not sure. I still hope to end this internship with best memory. =D
March 27, 2011
9.14PM
END OF OUTSTATION WORK
I have officially ended my outstation engagement. I have asked a few of my friends who also work in KPMG, it seems that they don't go outstation. No wonder i only meet USM trainees while in outstation. LOL
So, i also enjoyed the last week with a movie on Wednesday. The funniest thing was my SIC slept in the cinema! He gave me my very first experience of watching movie with one of my friends actually slept in the cinema! Goodness. He said the movie is dull and he only saw bombing and gay sense. Then we said he has unique 'interest'. LOL
This sat, i believe our dearest Luke has had his memorable 21st birthday which he'll remember forever! We celebrated his birthday in Redbox. The unique one was that his senior actually told him that he has to go back office for OT. I didn't know how they brought him to 1st Avenue, but he was stunned in Redbox, saying that he couldn't believe he was there. LOL That's really funny, and i've had wonderful time enjoying his duet with Kai Huey. =D
Then, i went to Bee Sean's birthday at night. Meeting my old classmates, Hock Heng, though i never know him when i was in primary. Haha. Bee Sean was so beautiful that night, JJ must be stunning. =D I didn't make it for the apartment. Hope there will be next day for meeting up!
I'll be meeting Ying Chia in the office next week (i mean this coming Mon)! I really miss her so so much and feel very badly for rejecting her appointment. But we're actually thinking to go for a short vacation after intern. I'll also be meeting up Pei San in the office. Planned to spend the night time with Ying Chia also, will ask her and see how.
I've had a nice chat with Ee Leng who is working in KL KPMG. Now i really believe that KPMG employees are really nice. I hope my SIC won't be annoyed and become frustrated with me teasing him all the time last week. =D
So, i also enjoyed the last week with a movie on Wednesday. The funniest thing was my SIC slept in the cinema! He gave me my very first experience of watching movie with one of my friends actually slept in the cinema! Goodness. He said the movie is dull and he only saw bombing and gay sense. Then we said he has unique 'interest'. LOL
This sat, i believe our dearest Luke has had his memorable 21st birthday which he'll remember forever! We celebrated his birthday in Redbox. The unique one was that his senior actually told him that he has to go back office for OT. I didn't know how they brought him to 1st Avenue, but he was stunned in Redbox, saying that he couldn't believe he was there. LOL That's really funny, and i've had wonderful time enjoying his duet with Kai Huey. =D
Then, i went to Bee Sean's birthday at night. Meeting my old classmates, Hock Heng, though i never know him when i was in primary. Haha. Bee Sean was so beautiful that night, JJ must be stunning. =D I didn't make it for the apartment. Hope there will be next day for meeting up!
I'll be meeting Ying Chia in the office next week (i mean this coming Mon)! I really miss her so so much and feel very badly for rejecting her appointment. But we're actually thinking to go for a short vacation after intern. I'll also be meeting up Pei San in the office. Planned to spend the night time with Ying Chia also, will ask her and see how.
I've had a nice chat with Ee Leng who is working in KL KPMG. Now i really believe that KPMG employees are really nice. I hope my SIC won't be annoyed and become frustrated with me teasing him all the time last week. =D
March 20, 2011
9.21PM
BACK FROM SP!
Woah this week was a total enjoy! I just rushed for finishing my work on sat and the next day i started heading to SP. Yes you get it right, i worked OT on sat, but luckily half day lah, i still had some time to pack my things for SP one-week "trip". LOL
So i arrived at penang church at 7.50am PUNCTUALLY and finally saw my SIC's car arriving. That SIC freaked my dad up because he arrived at 8.15am. LOL. At that time i still didn't know him, if not i guess i should have asked him to treat me to compensate my time wasted for waiting. HAHAHA. A Virgo guy.
As what i expected, i held the file of a dormant company. Anyway, a dormant is easy to handle, i guess it's specially for trainees, if trainees are available. LOL. So from knowing nothing until completing current year CAF, i realised i've learnt a lot. Hopefully all the knowledge and experience have been absorbed and will be applied in future.
I couldn't really believe that we still could watch movie after work. From last 2 weeks experience, i thought it would be like 8am-9pm. But this job was really enjoying with less issues and clean record. We took our sweet time to finish up everything. Maybe in future weeks this sweet moment will not exist anymore but let me just sweetly finish these two weeks. One week left, and i am going to make best use of it! Haha.
The colleagues are nice! I realized that auditors are usually pretty and handsome, maybe because auditors are usually young (i mean those working one, not reviewing files one =D). Well, i might not be pretty but i think i am going to be one of them, soon. =D
So i arrived at penang church at 7.50am PUNCTUALLY and finally saw my SIC's car arriving. That SIC freaked my dad up because he arrived at 8.15am. LOL. At that time i still didn't know him, if not i guess i should have asked him to treat me to compensate my time wasted for waiting. HAHAHA. A Virgo guy.
As what i expected, i held the file of a dormant company. Anyway, a dormant is easy to handle, i guess it's specially for trainees, if trainees are available. LOL. So from knowing nothing until completing current year CAF, i realised i've learnt a lot. Hopefully all the knowledge and experience have been absorbed and will be applied in future.
I couldn't really believe that we still could watch movie after work. From last 2 weeks experience, i thought it would be like 8am-9pm. But this job was really enjoying with less issues and clean record. We took our sweet time to finish up everything. Maybe in future weeks this sweet moment will not exist anymore but let me just sweetly finish these two weeks. One week left, and i am going to make best use of it! Haha.
The colleagues are nice! I realized that auditors are usually pretty and handsome, maybe because auditors are usually young (i mean those working one, not reviewing files one =D). Well, i might not be pretty but i think i am going to be one of them, soon. =D
March 11, 2011
5.30PM