IDEAL TYPE?

Since i was very young until now, i've been asked several times about my ideal type. What kind of man do i actually like? I was quite puzzle at first as i never thought about this before. After several repeats, i told people "see feel lo, got feel mah can d lo." Then later on i discovered feel is not everything. So i told others "personality must match lo." Then i started to question myself - what kind of personality do i mean???

I think its quite essential to first address mine. I am a blunt, rational people. I am definitely not the one who is romantic. Spending money to book the whole cinema in order to propose appeared to be very thoughtless and foolish to me as i think the money spent can be just deposited in banks to earn interest - the most secure return. I know, i am super dull, i am scolded by my mom too for being too bored and not aware of the importance of "being romantic occasionally". Well, i wouldn't say i won't change, as for me, when a person is in love, he/she might probably become more romantic than he/she thought would be, right? So as i am single now, i wouldn't comment much about this.

But i am very certain that i am rather rational. Things are wrong when they are, regardless of who did those. So i am quite careless about the relationship effect, and i guess this makes me to have less friends. Well, it's okay because i am not so afraid of lonely. Of course that's really good to have someone share my thoughts with, but it's still not bothering me much. And being blunt, yes, rather. But i guess i've turned my way. In earlier days, i am blunt for the sake of blunt - thoughtless that type. Now, i am blunt for the sake of.... errr.... shooting people? LOL. I am evil, i know.

So i am this type of person and some people commented to me that i am over mature for my age. So my ideal type is also quite... (should i say) different from ordinary 22 years old girls. I care 0% of the look, seriously. Look isn't important at all for me, as someone will just appear to be handsome because of his attitude - this is truly happening on me. So are you thinking that i care about the attitude? Yeah, it comprises like 70%? Around that. How about the past? Well, seriously, only 20%. I actually cared about the past, but then i realized, if a person who had a terrible history now appears to be much better than other ordinary people, what's wrong? This means that he had set his mind to endure changes and he has successful! This gives him much higher value! So past isn't really something important for me already. How about the family background? Okay let's make history=15% and family background=15%, although people say love is between two persons, this is extremely wrong. I hope my relationship can be approved and accepted by every party concern, my family and his family. So, this is rather important.

So do you think i am very picky? Starting to? LOL i won't blame you, because i am. I just realized that no one ever possesses all the characteristics demanded. JUST NO ONE. There will definitely be something lacking, which makes me rather upset and *sigh*. I wouldn't say i have much experience, but those i have met, there must be something lacking. So i just realize - there won't be ideal type of husband appearing in our life. Even my mom is still complaining my dad!

So i start thinking, should i just prioritize? LOL. Then i would say i go for attitude the most. I would say, a mature guy who is caring, responsible and motivated, and loves me as me myself will be the person i want to meet the most. He can make mistakes in the past, because he will be more handsome when he learnt from mistakes. =)

Pray? LOL.

Feb-24, 2012

3.58PM

Commencement of ACCA class

So i've attended my ACCA revision class. 6 hours of studying is not a joke - it's really tiring. On the first day, i think i still concentrate quite well till the end, which i am very glad, 'cause i thought i might have lost during P2 (account practices) lesson. But towards the third day, i don't really think i can concentrate very well at the second half of the afternoon lesson. Sigh, it is tiring.

We have 6 hours of tuition per subject per week but it is still far not enough. We have to do our own studies and read newspaper and magazine to update ourselves. Well, i am rather at the "updating myself with current issues" part, as i will tend to forget everything after i read. So i was thinking to somehow jot down important points but it will consume plenty of time and end up i couldn't do other things. So i've decided to go college, maybe, every Thursday to read business magazines. I hope this at lease help. I rather agree with Miss Low who mentioned that if you read everyday, you don't even need to memorize it to remember certain things. Yeah, i believe on that too.

So from now onward, we will need to clench our teeth to study smart for our three professional papers. Add oil la everyone. =)

Feb-24, 2012

12.13 PM

Don't Judge the Book by Its Cover

WOW! I can't believe i just used IDIOM! I am so "char" in languages, even my sis laughing at my awkward Chinese, so it's kind of impressive that i used idiom. LOL. Anyway, the idiom just expresses exactly what i feel recently.

Actually i have two incidents regarding to this topic.

I've met a few friends in this week, and because there were just two of us every time, we got to chat a lot, and know each other a lot. Sometimes people do not think like what their appearances tell - now i really believe this. I remember another friend commented about other's characteristics and in reality, it is an exact opposite. Another friend that i've met yesterday told me that she holds back some words because of some reasons that she thought it's true but in reality it's not. So we opened up our minds and exchanged opinions. So this is the power of communication. I am glad that she is still someone that i can really pour out everything. =))))

And i realized that something was wrong among my friend circle. Well this actually happened long time ago, and i always knew it, it's just that i feel to write something about this now. So i think (i can't exactly be sure because i have no evidences, but i think it goes this way), i guess, comments about me are flying all over my classmates. Well, people who know will understand what i actually mean here. And i also think some people, judging me based on opinions from a single side, already stamped me to be a certain kind of person. Anyway, i don't mind losing contact with people that don't even judge the quality of the so called "opinions" and don't even bother to make effort to seek my explanation. It's just that i feel ridiculous for people to believe entirely what others have told you about ANOTHER person. Are those commenting on me my father or my mother? How much do they know me, and how objective they are? Don't you even think about this?

Anyway, I am fine with that, just feeling funny for the foolishness. For those who at lease choose to talk to me (you know who you are), i wanna tell you that i appreciate a lot and i hope you get to know me more after the talk. And i will ignore those that choose to leave.

=))))).

Feb-16, 2012

12.49PM

Dad's Birthday

아빠, 생일 축하해요!! 사랑합니다~!!

Sigh, i don't know about the spacing... 

Feb-07, 2012

3.03PM

Regretful

Haiz, i am constantly having problem with my lil stomach. I think i've treated it very well yet problems always come without anticipation.

Okay i think i will start with the history of myself for the reason of getting such a problem. I used to be very innocent and very foolish to believe that we can cut down our fat on thigh by cutting our meals. So i used to skip my teatime when i was in Form 2 and ended up being very hungry when i reached home at 8pm. Imagine you just don't eat between 11am till 8pm. WTH. I still can't believe i actually did this and ruin my health. Within a short fortnight time, my body took revenge. I visited doctors quite a few times (but only a few times) and ate some medicine as well. But it didn't really recover, because it is already impossible to be fully recovered. What a shock to hear this from my mom! I at first thought it was alright as long as i took good care of my body. But at later time i got to realize it didn't really go in the same way as you thought even though you really took great care. It will constantly come to visit you.

So i experienced my worst moment of having gastric in Form 3. I ate really less and annoyed my parents. But somehow i feel grateful that i actually ate less instead of not eating at all. That will make things worse. The problem got worse whenever i had exam, especially my SPM. I still remember i cried due to Sejarah. Stupid Sejarah.

So after entering college, things finally got better but it still came from time to time though lesser. I felt grateful as college didn't really give me much pressure compared to secondary school. (So i always say i hate secondary-school time, unlike others) And thing really reached the best when i was having my internship - i realized that i ate a lot during that! This is definitely a goodsign - i never eat so much in my lifetime! (So sometimes i feel i wanna go back to work) So i have also reached a conclusion, whenever i am busy, this problem doesn't really bother me - which means the problems majority come from my mental!

I take things too serious??? I should just eat without caring much??? Hmp.. I really hope i can do this. Hope la.

HWAITING!

Sentence to end: i realize everyone has at lease one worry in their life, well mine is not studies, monies, friends, men, family, but will be this i guess. =)))) Mom, will try my best and won't let you worry, kayzz? 사랑합니다!!

Feb-06, 2012

4.08PM

Why is KPop so successful?

I attended class yesterday about Critical Success Factors and lecturer posted this comment. He said this was the question asked during last P3 sitting. My first response was like "What? I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THAT SITTING, I CAN PROVIDE WONDERFUL ANSWER FOR THIS!"

Then he made a small discussion about the CSF. Well, of course i wouldn't be able to list all here but it's something about "catchy songs regardless vocal ability", "beautiful looks", "acting in drama regardless acting ablitities", "appear in variety shows for 4 times + a week", "perfect sync dance", and more. Basically, I AGREE. LOL. Korean idols have a full package of this. Okay maybe i shall discuss my opinion, but i am not going to answer the question.

Korean idol groups have a formula. Let's take an example - INFINITE (a rising trend in 2011).



First of all, Kpop idols have to have a visual representative in the group, so that people will easily remember the group when they make their debut. The guy with light blue trousers and white shoes is the visual of Infinite. Next, whenever there are songs, main vocals cannot be ignored. The guy with light blue trousers and black shoes, and also the guy with violet trousers are the main vocal. Followed by dance representative, the guy with bright blue trousers, as they have to undergo intensive dance practice. Idol songs usually have raps, so they need someone like the guy with red trousers. And they need more exploration to introduce themselves to the nation, so they will need variety shows representatives like the other two guys - the one in pink and the one in white. Of course they have people that can act also, the visual and the one in white.

If you analyze carefully, you will find all the idols are in this formula. Sometimes you may wonder why are there so many members in a group (take Super Junior and ZE:A) but the companies have their own reasons to arrange the group in this way. Of course they will try their best not to change the members, however the members always face the risk of being kicked out due to their mistakes and some other reasons (only president will know).

They always have the whole package of singing catchy songs, dancing in sync, acting in drama, being in variety shows, and more. The company will make sure they have this in order for the artists to gain popularity. However, i personally think we shouldn't have ignored the hardwork of these idols. I've watched some clips of idols' daily life (like maybe Ta-dah, Sesame Player (especially Infinite's), more). I am not sure whether it is scripted but i personally think even if it is, it can't be scripted much (you will know when you watch). I can see how much effort they put in in order to present a perfect show to their fans. And i can see the determination of quitting their schools (not college btw, is ELEMENTARY SCHOOL) and become the top stars. Also i am very impressed with their ability of enduring stress (this is what Malaysian should learn!).

So i personally think somehow towards some extent, they deserve the attention they are getting. So KPop is successful not only with those packages, but also with hard work. ^^ =)

Feb 03, 2012

9.55AM

How I Treat You Depends on How You Treat People

Okay some people are just too arrogant at every moment that they think they are always the best and always criticizing people. I have met some in my life. When i know this fellow i was still okay 'cause i still felt this fellow somehow blunt and straight, not pretending, which is something i actually value. But as time went by, i felt annoyed with it.

This fellow is acting arrogant as if this fellow is always the best, criticizing others and demanding something that this fellow felt very normal but it's actually very difficult to others. This fellow said he didn't talk bad things behind, he talked in front, but in fact he talked the most at the back. Well, started to feel contradict about himself. But okay, this is none of my business anyway.

However, when things stepped into my life, this is my business, already. I felt the dominance when we were working together. And still, according to this fellow, this fellow changed a lot as time goes by, but it doesn't really mean that i have to suit this fellow in every moment. After all i felt this fellow is not my boss, this fellow is somehow just my colleagues, and this fellow criticized in a very irrational way of perfectionist. I felt very disturbed with the high demand. And for my character, i won't let someone to say something not true or irrational for me, so i started shoot this fellow back. And there i guess this fellow has some feeling.

Well, i didn't really need you to teach me how to grow up. I know very well that what myself is doing. You must be thinking that i treat people in this way all the times, but it actually depends on how people treat me, and how you treat people. I won't be one of your friends that always listen to you.

(PS: I guess this fellow must be already spreading my bad words around. Think I care?)

Feb 01, 2012

11.59AM

Annoyed on 1st day of CNY

Annoyed at the moment i opened facebook. What you mean after writing the stuff on Facebook (as if you are so innocent and the girl is so bad that hurt you so much) and now you're asking me out again? Since i am being so bad that hurt you so much, just get rid of me! Kick me out of your life! Don't bother me anymore!

You know, you are such a childish and a fool in front of me. Just stop it.

Jan 23, 2012

12.42PM

Just Leave

I don't really know about others, but i never start any of my friendship due to a certain purpose. I make friends sincerely, and of course i wouldn't deny that sometimes i do "make use" of their presence, but i NEVER EVER start a relationship because i want to obtain something. I treat friends as friends, and i actually don't mind to get closer with all friends even with guys, and i can accept the action of this closeness to be "hitting butts" (even to that extent of skinship). For all of these, i am sincere.

So i cannot accept people approaching me for any kind of reason other than just being friends. Even if the reason is not bad, i just couldn't understand why people make friends for the sake of other things, and stop being friends when they found out they couldn't really reach the thing they want. I didn't promise for anything except my true heart. I just couldn't believe that they are exploiting my sincerity to achieve their purposes or aims. The worst thing was when i'm trying to maintain this (what is meant for me - true) friendship, they are blaming you for the failure of getting the thing that they aimed. What is this all about?

"If you come with a purpose, and only for that purpose, please just leave. It's always better that this friendship is ended than it is continued insincerely. If you seek for any promised return from me other than my sincerity of being friends, please stop hoping starting from now. Leave, if you're not comfortable with me. "



A confession to make: I might be flirty but i NEVER play with feelings. I am clear and honest in my relationship and i never promise something that i can never achieve. If i have promised i'll just try my best to achieve. That's much for me. I NEVER EVER cheat in relationship. So if you're here for "something", and ONLY for that "something", very obviously,  your option will be, just, leave.

Jan 17, 2012

3.03PM

Mobile Blog Updated

Back to College

Back to College

People must be thinking how crazy this person is to attend classes when the holiday just started. Well, for me, since i've ntg much to do, i might as well equip myself with some basic knowledge of P3 which for me is a scary subject in ACCA. So i've finally attended the class. =)

Officially in Holiday

유후!! I am officially having my holiday, yeah! So should i start with...

Nice Lolipop =P

So let's talk about the 3 papers first. It's still fine, at lease i was still able to crap something inside. Financial Reporting and Current Issue paper, as usual, still has defeats but finally rectified. And ermmm, Corporate Governance, as usual, predictable questions were out, and this was, i think, perhaps, the most confident paper of all of us; Strategic Planning & Management, as usual, 20 big marks for each question, but it was within the tips, so i guess most of us were still able to answer. So overall, it's an "오키", as what commented by Mr Khor also. LOL.

After 6-Jan, we have officially completed our 2-years advance diploma student life (with the hope that we can pass the exams =D)! Can't really believe time flies so fast but indeed, we are now left with only ACCA! Waiting for graduation ceremony.. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I want sunflower this time. =PP

So during the holiday, what am i supposed to be doing??? 흠.... During this weekend, i've already cleared my folders and docs in my laptop and also my pendrive, and also updated my facebook profile, photos and likes. So i am only left with tasks like cleaning my desk and watching vids in my Youtube "Watch Later" List. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I have a lot of videos to watch! 후후후후! My "Watch Later" List is filled with Mblaq, Infinite, Shinhwa, Big Bang, and The Boss vids. I guess i need to spend quite a long time to finish watching these 50+ videos. (And for your info, these 50+ videos are only the FIRST part of the show. @@)

Okay, i guess at later time my blog will be filled with the feeling of me finish watching the vids. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ I now have had a great thought about WooGyu 우규 love referred by Inspirits. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ Will update about this later. =P

지금까지, that's what i've done so far. About other updates, 기대 주새요! 후후!

Jan 09, 2012

3.04PM

Mobile blog shock

Wootss i never know there is such a thing called mobile blog... I was thinking to make a post to my ORIGINAL blog using my SE Vivaz but ended up to be in mobile blog - it created a new blog for me! LOL. And i decided to change the blog name as it is very hard for me to remember but ended up "The Page Not Found" so i guess i will try after exam? Hmm, anyway the link is already at below "Knowing Her More" section. 

Anyway, this is the link: 

My mobile blog

PS: It should be clockwise rotated. =P

Anyway, i am glad that my mobile phone can help in such way. ^^

Jan 5, 2012

10.33AM

The morning before freedom

So i was up but very lazy for bath and study. So i stared at my laptop on my coffee table and that the sun shone on my face through the reflection of the mirror... And that i discovered - taking photo through reflection! That might not be something exciting to you but the unique point is my mirror is round. Kekezz. See the effect. Kekezzz. Kk, bathe and study. =P

Jan 5, 2012
10.13AM

Lil Corrections

I would like to comment about me stating YG is not my favourite anymore. Well, erm, i guess no entertainment company is my favourite, anyhow, i still like YG the most, if i am going to choose one. YG produces real quality, as we can see, Bigbang and 2NE1 are symbols. Though these girls and boys might have been formulated into "idols" but they still possess what we call skill and talent that are to be found from artists. Unlike other "idols", they are REAL idols. So, hmmm, i still prefer YG. Kekekezz

Shiyee's Little World: THE RETURN: What return is that? That is the return of KPop into my life. It has been a long time since those days that i used to get the latest updates...

Last 2 Papers

Should i just start my post with happy new year?


ㅎㅎ

So we as TARC students couldn't enjoy much in these festivals (together with Christmas) as we have to prepare for our final exam, and especially for AAC Y2 students, we are going to end our college life with this very important and final sem exam! Now i realize i am really old, as compared to the start of year 2 life, i still can joke around and tell people "hey i am the oldest batch in this college, i am your senior!". LOL, guess now we have to say "hey i am going to leave the college, i am really old!". 하하

So today i'll be taking my 2nd paper out of 3 papers in this final sem exam. And now i dunno what to do, so i am here. ㅋㅋ Studying at this moment is not my habit, and being lazy is what i will experience during exam LOL so i just leave my mood as what it should be. This somehow symbolizes good sign as i still remember how i felt during my Sejarah exam - almost cry. So my mood now means - i am not THAT pressure. Good thing, huh. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

So let's end this thing up by counting days:



I should change the red circle to 6 - MY FORTUNE NUMBER! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

The day will come, soon.

화이팅!!!

Jan 04, 2012

10.54AM

DAMN!

You know when i see someone's status keeps on updating and all are about something that will trigger my anger, i really want to slap that person. Maybe that person doesn't really mean what i thought that person might mean, but my intuition told me IT IS OF THAT MEANING. And i admit that i am very angry with it. 

Why are people so stubborn that they still crave for something that very obviously does not belong to them?? Acting sentimental and write and share all those stupid love posts in Facebook bring credential to you? Come on, you are acting really disgustingly! 

I know i shouldn't be angry as i am very obviously better than that person so so much (though being arrogant here =D), and if i have been dropped out, it simply means people didn't appreciate me. So i shouldn't be angry, as usual, i have always recognized my own value. 

And the innocent person, i want to say sorry, though you did nothing but i am still angry towards you because all these mean you. Those all come out because you didn't make things clear. So hey, i SHOULD be angry towards you. Hng!

But finally, i realize i shouldn't be angry at all. Who the hell are they? Should i kill my brain cell just because of these two JERKS? One acting sentimental and innocent jerk and one blur and stubborn jerk? Shouldn't! Shouldn't! Let's forget about it and start revision now! HMMMM....

December 30, 2011

2.46PM

Mom is irreplaceable!

This morning i started to do homework as soon as i forced myself up from the bed - cooking and washing. But with just these two jobs, it nearly killed me! Now i realize that how hard and tired to prepare everything for a family. I got difficulty in breathing after i have completed my washing. And thereafter i didn't have any leftover strength to even bathe and eat.

Finally i understand why mom will just choose to lay down and sleep after cooking. It's really tiring! Today, until now, i haven't touched my books. I just need some rest before restoring my energy.

For a mom who works and takes care of family simultaneously, I RESPECT YOU GUYS! And to my only mom, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. =))))

Yeah, gotta fetch her back tonight!

December 16, 2011

4.23PM

Half Dead

Damn, the chapter financial instruments is killing! It's not actually the lecturers problem, but its the nature of the chapter itself. It is complex and hard to understand! I at first thought i can finish it by today, as in using the whole day (just like what i did for foreign currency translation, share-based payments and employees benefits), but now it looks like i have to amend my timetable and allocate two more days for this chapter.

Start to feel the stress. Nevertheless, i have no choice but to understand the whole thing. So it is not about can or cannot, but it is already a MUST! So keep going! I keep on telling myself. HWAITING. =)



YEAH!

December 11, 2011

5.04PM

THE RETURN

What return is that? That is the return of KPop into my life. It has been a long time since those days that i used to get the latest updates for everything of KPop. I still remember how TVXQ first caught my attention, how i was impressed with FT Island, how Big Bang drove my fashion sense, and more, and it diminished as time goes. I've left this life quite a long time, busying with my assignments and tests (and of course FINAL). But now, these people made me crazy over KPop again. Who are they? =)



I was first attracted by these boys with their MV "Lady".



What made me so impressed was that "OH MY GOD, HOW OLD ARE THEY???" It's the first time in recent days that i actually see a korean boy band with such a mature image. And their voices melted me. I never know there is a group which is so different from others that they actually emphasize on great voices. Every single member can sing! Don't believe? Catch up their lives.




WATCH IT YOURSELF! PLEASE WATCH IT YOURSELF! It's a pure MR! No background voices! My god! IMPRESSED IMPRESSED HEHEHEHE

http://www.youtube.com/user/OPENWORLDent

And another one, with dance emphasis, it's them.



These boys seem normal, it's just an ordinary boy band, but it just caught my attention, guess it's the different culture compared to bands from SM and DSP, perhaps. Also, YG is now not my favourite anymore and i have no comment for JYP. And they are from Woollim. This small entertainment company is going to do well with these boys.

I particularly like this song. I think it should be this song who intro me to them.



Doubting their live? Perhaps not as good as The Boss, but it shows their effort.

Oops, first of all, let's see their dance practice.




And their lives:


Watch their impressive tidiness! The fans said they even close their fingers all at the same time! HAHA.



I wonder in later days they will become more and more commercialized just like those other idols boybands in Korean, but right now, they are impressive.

http://www.youtube.com/user/woolliment#p/u

November 28, 2011 

10.06AM