WHAT I WANT

Recently, because of internship, i started to ask myself what i want, actually. I realised that i am not preparing to work in audit firm for the rest of life, struggling for more rest time, and abandoning my lovely family and kids. Hence, i started to question myself, is it really important for me to get ACCA qualification? I mean, why am i studying so hard? For what?

Basically, i chose accounting is not merely because of interest. If i were to say interest, i have most interest in multimedia design field. However, due to the job prospect, i decided to choose accounting. Accountants are always needed, but multimedia things subject to seasons (perhaps, like the rise of IT will create more jobs for this, and we dunno when IT world will come to the end). Nevertheless, i still have some interest in accounting, as i won't force myself to study something that i don't like (that's why i didn't choose science stream =D). Anyway, i've chosen this career.

And now, things are getting harder when it comes to papers like F5-F9, which is our advance diploma. Please be noted that these are only fundamental papers but not professional papers yet. Then, as internship purpose, i am going to work in real firm. After collecting info, i discovered that working in an audit firm will make my life miserable. I mean, you go at 8 or 9, and only back at 11. This is too much for me, so i am not going to work in audit firm. But if i am not going to work in audit firm, is obtaining ACCA qualification as important as before?

Anyway, i guess it helps no matter what i am going to become - lecturer, internal accountant, or even in finance field. Cert is now very important in society nowadays. Obtaining a degree seems not enough since plenty of graduates are now competing for the limited jobs. ACCA professional qualification will be an enhancement and powerful credential for me to obtain jobs with good benefits. Besides, i take this as challenge - to challenge something that i am interested and get the satisfaction (lame reason). =D So, i am continuing with ACCA. =D

October 28, 2010

4.25PM

A RELAXATION FROM THE RUSH HOURS

Well, i joined my classmates for badminton. It was a really relaxing match! I felt glad joining because i almost wanted to just go back. Luckily i didn't! I sweat-ed a lot, and i felt relaxing! Nice!

Feel to invite more friends for such recreation, maybe next time in Bukit Dumbar? XD

October 19, 2010

10.46PM 

REIGN OF ASSASSINS

" 我願化作石橋，為你受五百年風吹、五百年日曬、五百年雨淋，只願你從橋上走過…… "

I seldom like a movie and want to watch it very much. I think basically, if we separate movies in seasons, i might want to watch only one in a season, and maybe not at all if those movies do not attract me. Be honest, i don't like Hong Kong movies, which i think is ridiculous and meaningless in the sense of content. If i were to watch Hong Kong movies, it must be an action movie with Dynasty background. I seldom like Hong Kong comedies but i do like Western comedies. It seems to be totally opposite because i don't like Western action movies, as well as scientific and fantasy one, like Transformer. Total objection towards those types. 

Taiwan seldom has movies. Malaysian movies i like 'Red Bean' the most (haha, short form of the actual name). Singapore movies... hmmm... i am not really into those. 

Okay, during this season, i like this. I admit that i started to notice this because of Jung Woo-Sung. Oh my, he is once the best actor winner! I can't cover all i know about him - a best actor, man and handsome. So i classified it as my Must-Watch. After such a long wait, i got to watch it today. 

It may not be nice to most of the people, but to me it is VERY nice. Humans are driven by feeling, the fact is i like it, so no matter how it appears to be a good movie to me. Anyway, i like how they play the sword. Nice action.

Michelle Yeoh is a pride of Malaysia, i must admit this. I feel that i rather like her movie.

Jung Woo-Sung, i never have comments, he is just way too perfect!

Shawn Yu, always professional though he is not the main actor.

Barbie Hsu, sexy and hot in the movie, she is pretty somehow.

Dai Li Ren, i just love the outfit and character of his. Cool and interesting! He is once best actor also and proven again in this movie. 

The conclusion is - i like it. It is a happy ending, and this is one of the reasons for my conclusion as well. =) 

My sis said they are nice to be together, how do you think? =D

October 15, 2010

9.53PM

IT IS ALL ABOUT SURROUNDING

Wow, just a word 'finance', and it covers too much knowledge, much more than what we are able to learn! You know, the lecture notes now really mean NOTHING when you see the finance questions. I mean, it is based on general knowledge, and what you have to acquire is the 'general knowledge'. Sometimes, this type of knowledge is difficult to learn because it is too GENERAL!

Many people said lecturer doesn't teach in effective way. Well, for me, she is really not so good but somehow we shouldn't depend much on lecturer, generally. Lecturers are just guiding us to acquire necessary knowledge, and the acquisition is merely based on our own effort - which this actually distinguishes humans through results.

So, i told my friend that lecturer doesn't affect me a lot and i actually meant this. But i was reluctant to explain because some people will think you are proud as if you are the best for getting good result. Explanation sometimes doesn't bring good effect. =)

Anyway, i really discovered that people growing up in different surrounding will result in different thinking and perceptions. Sometimes i will say i couldn't understand some people do this do that, and i regularly see my secondary schoolmates write something like this in facebook, now i know why - because of different thinking. We are brought up in that environment, so we couldn't accept some actions or thoughts of those who do not come from the same environment as us.

So, arguments and conflicts are just all about SURROUNDING - where we are brought up. =)


I won't force people accepting me, but i hope others won't force me to accept them as well,
if i really CANNOT DO SO.

October 8, 2010

2.48PM

CHILDISH 20TH

I met some 'children' in my lecture hall. Actually i hate them for already a long time, but now i really cannot tahan what they are doing!

I didn't really feel disrupted when they silently talk my bad things behind, and rapidly notice my actions and use me as laughter, making their attitude look foolish. I don't mind if i can make their life happier.

I just couldn't understand, somehow in my opinion they are not pretty, they are not in good attitude, they are not smart, but the worst is THEY ARE NOT TAKING THEIR PRECIOUS TIME SERIOUSLY to do whatever they should be doing (like studying, as students). And one more serious thing is THEY ARE VERY DISTURBING IN LECTURE HALL.

Please! If you don't want to listen, just go out! There is no point for you to sit in lecture hall, talking and laughing loudly and 'down' in your exam. You are wasting your time, and this is not important at all because it's your own business, but the problem is you are wasting your family's money, paper resources for all those textbook, lecturers' extra effort of teaching you, and you are DISTURBING on the expense of other students who want to concentrate in lecture! Hello, if you are really not interested, please get out of college!

They are childish in the sense that they are playful, wasting time, look stupid for talking others bad things yet they thought they are very excellent, and not taking studies seriously but still forcing themselves to be in college.

I want to show some pride, i don't care if you will feel annoying:

"Come on, you really think you are so excellent? I am very bad, but i am never worse than you! In terms of result and attitude!" 

PROUD! RIGHT? Yes, in front of them, I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF!

July 10, 2010

4.31PM

HOPE THIS STAYS...

What is 'this'? If you're constantly reading my blog, you'll discover that i am also rapidly changing my background. Well, i dunno how to do with the HTML things so i have to choose and pick from templates but i couldn't get one that i really like and am satisfied. But this one, the current one, i found that i quite like it, and i hope my feeling will stay, tiring of designing all over again.

Lights. It's good because it shows us the right path. Just that lights need not come from surrounding, it is somehow from the heart, you own expectation and desire that shine your future path. =D

Without knowing what nonsense i was typing, just hope this stays... =D

July 10, 2010

4.14PM

GOODBYE? NO, I CAN'T.

Before you start reading this, please take a look on this video.



It touched me deeply. I just love the lyrics.

"I should forget, but i can't." 

Yeah, "should" and "can" are two very different things, it reminds me. 

"Goodbye my love, i will send you off now.

The memories and remembrances, i will forget them all.

I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love.

From my heart. "

"No, my love, i can't send you off.

You, you, i should forget you.

Even if i erase and erase, i think you are the only one for me.

I am sorry. "

My god, it is so heartbreaking. You are the only one for me.

October 2, 2010

10.28PM

BEAUTY

What's the real beauty? Is it inborn? Or is it something that can be human-made?

I was once attracted to this Singapore Drama. If you know me well, you'll know that i don't like Singapore dramas. But i was addicted to this very different Singapore drama. Instead of family matters, it presents something like ethical dilemma about beauty. 





There are two doctors, plastic surgeon and psychologist. Plastic surgeon believes that beauty can be "made", as there is no ugly people but only poor people (who are not willing to achieve beauty using money). He believes that he has helped a lot of people achieving what so called "Beauty" through his knife. So he is very proud of himself. However, his thought starts to twist when he meets this psychologist, who believes only inner beauty is the true beauty, beauty cannot be "made". This two people with different thought manage to get together finally. How? Haha you can't know unless you watch it. 

" 學會接受自己的不完美，就是一切完美。" 

Perhaps i should learn this as well. 

Thanks to this drama and ntv7 for introducing "completeness" to me. =D

October 1, 2010

8.11PM

YIDA

I wonder how many people still remember this name. His passion, his courage and his strong attitude melted me when i first time know his name. Unlike others, he proves that he is not an artist, but a singer, he doesn't do what everyone wants him to do, but he always does what he wants to do the most. He keeps his music to his own style, he keeps his attitude to his very original one. I just like who he is, YIDA.

He is just an ordinary guy from Singapore who loves music very much. He gave up everything - his band, his gf and went to Taiwan without being understood by his own family. Being a singer, he felt extreme pressure which almost dragged him towards the end, and then he decided to give himself a good rest and headed to Thailand. He is now clear of what he wants and is coming back to music! (Well, this is just based on the brief knowledge of myself towards this guy. =D) 

Tell you why i like him so much. I liked Nicholas Teo and Kenji Wu before also, similar to the feeling of liking him. However, the feeling does not sustain for Nicholas and Kenji but towards him, i realized that i will still search for his news and MVs as soon as i remember him. What i like about him is his attitude - i do not, and will not feel tired repeating this - he lives in the way that he wants himself to be living in, but not living in the way that other people wants him to be living in. He does what he wants, producing the music that represents him the best; and does not composing music for the sake of getting more and more famous in the entertainment world. He shows us that he is a SINGER, not an ENTERTAINER.

In Chinese, 他不是一直做Show討好別人的藝人，他是堅持自己夢想與風格的歌手。
在複雜的娛樂圈裏，他選擇做自己，讓我看到一個真實的義達。
我深深被他真誠的態度吸引，喜歡就喜歡，不愛就不愛，這就是他，從不掩飾的義達。

(Later, his hair will be short one. =D)

寫給自己的歌 - this is the song that he expressed how hard the situation he was in when he is so lonely that noone was supporting him. Quoted - "「寫給自己的歌」是黃義達19歲時所寫的。當時的他，剛剛被經紀公司發掘，還只是一個玩Band的小夥子；原本他只想當個幕後的音樂創作人，但經紀公司覺得他條件不錯，適合往幕前發展，準備送他到台灣來接受進一步的訓練。在寫下這首歌的時候，正是義達離開了合組4年的樂團，離開了當時的女友，在家人也不太了解他在做什麼的狀況下，一個人告別熟悉的環境來到陌生的台灣，一個人、一把吉他，寫下了這首孤獨追夢人的心聲。" However, he did not give up, and i am glad that he did not. Otherwise i would not know such wonderful singer. 


Particularly, i like this mv. " 愛了才懂 ". I just love the story, it was so touching.

"此時此刻 想把心情告訴你
在這裡 [想起你的吻]
心中一陣熱
我是幸福的[被你愛著]
如果沒有你
[海浪聲]只剩單調的音
吹著風 只感覺刺骨
喝著水也難以吞嚥
[愛你的心情]
快滿出我的胸口
[因爲有你]
[我的回憶] 被你的愛慢慢包覆著
[相愛的事實] 留在無聲的回憶裏"

Without much things to say - This MV is a MUST-WATCH. ^^

I know he won't see this, but i still want to say - ADD OIL! YOU HAVE A FOREVER SUPPORTER HERE, RIGHT IN PENANG, MALAYSIA!!! KEEP GOING!!! And, can i not say "I LOVE YOU" although i do? I don't think you want to hear this as well. Haha. 

Just smile like this, forever. =D

October 1, 2010

7.49PM

I AM HAPPY

I don't care if you say me proud, i don't care if you say me showing off, i just want to tell everyone that I AM HAPPY. =D

I am happy because my effort DID pay off! I got a really good result which i did not expect myself getting it. I am happy that it is not only a dream in my life. However, it somehow turns up to be a rather bad influence on my attitude towards studies. Now that i know getting such result is not just a dream, i keep on reminding myself to work harder to maintain it. Hence, i started my studies from the very first week of Sem 2 and yesterday, i suddenly felt that i was pressing too much on myself until i couldn't even breathe as normal. I didn't let myself to be away of books for even a moment! I don't want such life!

Now, still, I AM HAPPY, because yesterday i found the reason of my pressure and i decided to take everything easy. It doesn't really important whether to maintain the cgpa, because as long as we have put in enough effort, no matter how good or how bad the result is, we have no regret as we have done our best. Quoted from my pig - "Something we have to let something go." Yeah, letting the hope of maintaining the result will make myself better, i believe it.

So, after i have solved my conflict, I AM HAPPY. =D

October 1, 2010

6.10PM