UPDATES

It sounds like i am very busy with assignments, but actually i am not. LOL. I have time wandering in FB but i just forgot to update my blog. LOL. But there is a possibility due to i have actually nothing to write or there is something that i cant express out through words. 

My these two weeks are filled with happiness. I am happy that i actually learnt something through the incident. I can't quantify how much i've learnt, and how well i've absorbed them, but at lease i know i don't need to care so much for certain things. And all these will keep on repeating in my life, and i am going to face it optimistically. 

And i've passed a happy weekend. =DD You know sometimes some people can just sway your mood so easily by a word or an action, but you are too willing to let them do so, and you will be hoping that you can actually sway his/hers as well. Well, of course it's the best to pursue for certainty, but uncertainty like this can be a kind of happiness as well. =) I don't not want to force, as it will only stay if it comes naturally. ^^

Sleep tight. ^^

Oct 27, 2011

11.43PM

IT'S OKAY

I keep on repeating : it's okay, i will endure everything myself.

You know this feeling is extraordinary. It's even more painful than being lost in love. And the most unbelievable point is - i thought it's alright, but finally now i know it's not so.

When you trusted a person so well that you never think he/she will stab you in behind, and when you know he/she actually did, you will feel your heart is empty. Like being betrayed, but it's not a betrayal.

Anyway, it's okay, i will make through it. I will pick up the pieces and reshape my heart. I will endure everything and finally walk out of it.

After all, i've never done anything for her since i joined. Perhaps this is the only thing i can do for her.

Or perhaps, i should say, i never have done anything for them. I am sorry for being causing such many trouble.

ALL THE BEST.

October 15, 2011

3.59PM

PRETENDING

You know, pretending is an extremely hard job for me.


Especially when you are so sure and certain that you miss someone but you still have to pretend as if you don't care..
Because you are afraid that person does not feel the same.


So you're convincing yourself that you can't take this feeling of yours seriously, because if you do so, you'll be hurt badly.


And


When things seem so confusing, you'll have to pretend as if it is nothing to you. HARD!


Now i am done with it - i admit it is SOMETHING to me, and


yeah, I MISS YOU.

October 14, 2011

11.33AM

PISSED!

I really want to tell those idiots that "don't ever think you can show your temper in front of me just because i seem to be close to you". Please bear in mind, it is just "SEEM TO BE CLOSE" only okay? Which means in reality NOT CLOSE AT ALL okay! Now what you expect?

I am already doing my best and i already feel myself being extremely good to you in entertaining you.

Don't expect anything from me!
Don't ever dare to show me your temper when you feel i will care but actually i don't at all!
Don't ever think that i will repeat what i did for you in coincidence!
Don't ever hope that i will follow your heart and treat you as how you like!

I am not your mom, bear in mind!

October 11, 2011

10.10PM

BEING SENTIMENTAL

I dunno but i really hate those people that are acting to be sentimental. Chinese says this is 感性, and they say gan xing ladies are very attractive. 0.o LOL I really dunno how to appreciate lo.

For me, being sentimental is something rather annoying. It's very fine if you are experiencing something sad, or you feel this once in a blue moon. But can some people just ask themselves why are they so blue all the time? Don't come and post a series of stupid quotes or pictures on the facebook showing others that you are very sentimental who will get hurt easily? If you want to attract guys then do it in front of the guys!

You know sometimes these all are pretending! I really hate pretending people. Chinese says 虛僞. If you want to pretend, might as well don't be human.

ANNOYED, ANNOYED! TOTALLY ANNOYED!


Don't show me your tearing face if you are not as innocent as her!

October 09, 2011

2.34PM

TAKING CARE OF A "BABY"

It's true about what mom and primary school teachers taught us - we must take care of other's feelings when you  talk or do something. It's true that towards certain extent, we cannot do as we like 'cause we will hurt others.

However, this doesn't mean that in EVERY sentence and EVERY action i have to consider other persons. Some people are just too sensitive that they care about every joke you made and every single word coming out from your mouth. So you don't even realize that you've hurt them sometimes, in some ways that you don't know. And they will remember it forever, deep inside their heart, until one day they burst and blame you for something that you've said/done that you don't even know when.

Come on. Sometimes joke means joke. Joke is something we make now and forget now. Joke is something that shouldn't have existed in memory.

Then people will say: Beware of limit. Of course, there is a limit of making joke. But if your limit is too low, it's very hard to converse with you. I dunno, maybe i am blunt, so i cannot accept people saying a little joke will hurt them.

To whom it may concern, be strong in this world or you will be eliminated. Accept criticism and try to change yourself. Don't blame others for hurting you, instead thank them for giving you a chance to learn.

AND FINALLY


DON'T EXPECT US TO TREAT YOU AS BABIES, CAUSE WE ARE NOT YOUR MOM.

October 09, 2011

2.16PM

NOT BEING TOGETHER

I think most people will have the same feeling before, that when you hang out as a group, you will realize some people don't really look happy. Well, i admit that i do feel it, in the past, now and maybe in the future, among every group of friends. You know when you hang out as a group, happily, you keep on chitchatting until you forget yourself, and when you glance through you will realize some people tend to do their own stuff.

I dunno how others feel about this, but personally i feel this is rather annoying.

For example, we start a topic and share to everyone, but suddenly you realize two or three persons are talking to one another about other things, and when you try to find out, they will like "No, nothing. It's just a small matter."
OR
We start a topic, everyone is listening, but some never voice any opinion and just smile, but in fact they are very talkative and can talk freely with other friends.
OR
We start a topic, everyone is sharing opinions except one or two who are playing his/her phone or ipad.

Well, it's not that i force everyone to join, but doing own stuff when hanging out with others will give me a feeling that "foolish people talking foolishly, i might as well do something else" . So if it's me, i won't ask the same person out for the next time.

The worst is, these people are not really into your group, yet they will get mad when you hang out without them. And some of them will start to complain that you didn't invite them, as if you're the one who is wrong for not considering them as friends.

But i thought you are not happy with us?? So why do you care?

Silly.

October 09, 2011

2.05PM

DIFFERENT CHANNEL

Recently i really have strong feeling about this - if two persons are not of the same thought, there is really no point to continue conversing.

When you have different thought on the same matter, the more you discuss the more likely you will end up fighting. It's just that sometimes we will still insist that we are right, and people don't see things from the other angle like us.

However, i just suddenly realize that if i keep on arguing with you, i might be as foolish as you. And furthermore, i need not influence you to follow my thought. So, now, i choose to keep quiet. No point, really no point to fight, as you won't know what i am thinking, forever.

A chinese saying quotes : 話不投機半句多 - now i finally completely understand what this means.
 It is just like a chicken talking with a duck. They will never know each other, never.

So it's hard to find someone that will really understand me. And now i've met some and i feel really grateful that they appear in my life. I dunno how long this will last, but i can guarantee that i will remember the moment i be with them. Need not mention, they will know who they are. AND they won't come and ask me who i mean. ^^

October 09, 2011

1.43PM