REIGN OF ASSASSINS

" 我願化作石橋，為你受五百年風吹、五百年日曬、五百年雨淋，只願你從橋上走過…… "

I seldom like a movie and want to watch it very much. I think basically, if we separate movies in seasons, i might want to watch only one in a season, and maybe not at all if those movies do not attract me. Be honest, i don't like Hong Kong movies, which i think is ridiculous and meaningless in the sense of content. If i were to watch Hong Kong movies, it must be an action movie with Dynasty background. I seldom like Hong Kong comedies but i do like Western comedies. It seems to be totally opposite because i don't like Western action movies, as well as scientific and fantasy one, like Transformer. Total objection towards those types. 

Taiwan seldom has movies. Malaysian movies i like 'Red Bean' the most (haha, short form of the actual name). Singapore movies... hmmm... i am not really into those. 

Okay, during this season, i like this. I admit that i started to notice this because of Jung Woo-Sung. Oh my, he is once the best actor winner! I can't cover all i know about him - a best actor, man and handsome. So i classified it as my Must-Watch. After such a long wait, i got to watch it today. 

It may not be nice to most of the people, but to me it is VERY nice. Humans are driven by feeling, the fact is i like it, so no matter how it appears to be a good movie to me. Anyway, i like how they play the sword. Nice action.

Michelle Yeoh is a pride of Malaysia, i must admit this. I feel that i rather like her movie.

Jung Woo-Sung, i never have comments, he is just way too perfect!

Shawn Yu, always professional though he is not the main actor.

Barbie Hsu, sexy and hot in the movie, she is pretty somehow.

Dai Li Ren, i just love the outfit and character of his. Cool and interesting! He is once best actor also and proven again in this movie. 

The conclusion is - i like it. It is a happy ending, and this is one of the reasons for my conclusion as well. =) 

My sis said they are nice to be together, how do you think? =D

October 15, 2010

9.53PM

IT IS ALL ABOUT SURROUNDING

Wow, just a word 'finance', and it covers too much knowledge, much more than what we are able to learn! You know, the lecture notes now really mean NOTHING when you see the finance questions. I mean, it is based on general knowledge, and what you have to acquire is the 'general knowledge'. Sometimes, this type of knowledge is difficult to learn because it is too GENERAL!

Many people said lecturer doesn't teach in effective way. Well, for me, she is really not so good but somehow we shouldn't depend much on lecturer, generally. Lecturers are just guiding us to acquire necessary knowledge, and the acquisition is merely based on our own effort - which this actually distinguishes humans through results.

So, i told my friend that lecturer doesn't affect me a lot and i actually meant this. But i was reluctant to explain because some people will think you are proud as if you are the best for getting good result. Explanation sometimes doesn't bring good effect. =)

Anyway, i really discovered that people growing up in different surrounding will result in different thinking and perceptions. Sometimes i will say i couldn't understand some people do this do that, and i regularly see my secondary schoolmates write something like this in facebook, now i know why - because of different thinking. We are brought up in that environment, so we couldn't accept some actions or thoughts of those who do not come from the same environment as us.

So, arguments and conflicts are just all about SURROUNDING - where we are brought up. =)


I won't force people accepting me, but i hope others won't force me to accept them as well,
if i really CANNOT DO SO.

October 8, 2010

2.48PM

CHILDISH 20TH

I met some 'children' in my lecture hall. Actually i hate them for already a long time, but now i really cannot tahan what they are doing!

I didn't really feel disrupted when they silently talk my bad things behind, and rapidly notice my actions and use me as laughter, making their attitude look foolish. I don't mind if i can make their life happier.

I just couldn't understand, somehow in my opinion they are not pretty, they are not in good attitude, they are not smart, but the worst is THEY ARE NOT TAKING THEIR PRECIOUS TIME SERIOUSLY to do whatever they should be doing (like studying, as students). And one more serious thing is THEY ARE VERY DISTURBING IN LECTURE HALL.

Please! If you don't want to listen, just go out! There is no point for you to sit in lecture hall, talking and laughing loudly and 'down' in your exam. You are wasting your time, and this is not important at all because it's your own business, but the problem is you are wasting your family's money, paper resources for all those textbook, lecturers' extra effort of teaching you, and you are DISTURBING on the expense of other students who want to concentrate in lecture! Hello, if you are really not interested, please get out of college!

They are childish in the sense that they are playful, wasting time, look stupid for talking others bad things yet they thought they are very excellent, and not taking studies seriously but still forcing themselves to be in college.

I want to show some pride, i don't care if you will feel annoying:

"Come on, you really think you are so excellent? I am very bad, but i am never worse than you! In terms of result and attitude!" 

PROUD! RIGHT? Yes, in front of them, I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF!

July 10, 2010

4.31PM

HOPE THIS STAYS...

What is 'this'? If you're constantly reading my blog, you'll discover that i am also rapidly changing my background. Well, i dunno how to do with the HTML things so i have to choose and pick from templates but i couldn't get one that i really like and am satisfied. But this one, the current one, i found that i quite like it, and i hope my feeling will stay, tiring of designing all over again.

Lights. It's good because it shows us the right path. Just that lights need not come from surrounding, it is somehow from the heart, you own expectation and desire that shine your future path. =D

Without knowing what nonsense i was typing, just hope this stays... =D

July 10, 2010

4.14PM

GOODBYE? NO, I CAN'T.

Before you start reading this, please take a look on this video.



It touched me deeply. I just love the lyrics.

"I should forget, but i can't." 

Yeah, "should" and "can" are two very different things, it reminds me. 

"Goodbye my love, i will send you off now.

The memories and remembrances, i will forget them all.

I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love.

From my heart. "

"No, my love, i can't send you off.

You, you, i should forget you.

Even if i erase and erase, i think you are the only one for me.

I am sorry. "

My god, it is so heartbreaking. You are the only one for me.

October 2, 2010

10.28PM

BEAUTY

What's the real beauty? Is it inborn? Or is it something that can be human-made?

I was once attracted to this Singapore Drama. If you know me well, you'll know that i don't like Singapore dramas. But i was addicted to this very different Singapore drama. Instead of family matters, it presents something like ethical dilemma about beauty. 





There are two doctors, plastic surgeon and psychologist. Plastic surgeon believes that beauty can be "made", as there is no ugly people but only poor people (who are not willing to achieve beauty using money). He believes that he has helped a lot of people achieving what so called "Beauty" through his knife. So he is very proud of himself. However, his thought starts to twist when he meets this psychologist, who believes only inner beauty is the true beauty, beauty cannot be "made". This two people with different thought manage to get together finally. How? Haha you can't know unless you watch it. 

" 學會接受自己的不完美，就是一切完美。" 

Perhaps i should learn this as well. 

Thanks to this drama and ntv7 for introducing "completeness" to me. =D

October 1, 2010

8.11PM

YIDA

I wonder how many people still remember this name. His passion, his courage and his strong attitude melted me when i first time know his name. Unlike others, he proves that he is not an artist, but a singer, he doesn't do what everyone wants him to do, but he always does what he wants to do the most. He keeps his music to his own style, he keeps his attitude to his very original one. I just like who he is, YIDA.

He is just an ordinary guy from Singapore who loves music very much. He gave up everything - his band, his gf and went to Taiwan without being understood by his own family. Being a singer, he felt extreme pressure which almost dragged him towards the end, and then he decided to give himself a good rest and headed to Thailand. He is now clear of what he wants and is coming back to music! (Well, this is just based on the brief knowledge of myself towards this guy. =D) 

Tell you why i like him so much. I liked Nicholas Teo and Kenji Wu before also, similar to the feeling of liking him. However, the feeling does not sustain for Nicholas and Kenji but towards him, i realized that i will still search for his news and MVs as soon as i remember him. What i like about him is his attitude - i do not, and will not feel tired repeating this - he lives in the way that he wants himself to be living in, but not living in the way that other people wants him to be living in. He does what he wants, producing the music that represents him the best; and does not composing music for the sake of getting more and more famous in the entertainment world. He shows us that he is a SINGER, not an ENTERTAINER.

In Chinese, 他不是一直做Show討好別人的藝人，他是堅持自己夢想與風格的歌手。
在複雜的娛樂圈裏，他選擇做自己，讓我看到一個真實的義達。
我深深被他真誠的態度吸引，喜歡就喜歡，不愛就不愛，這就是他，從不掩飾的義達。

(Later, his hair will be short one. =D)

寫給自己的歌 - this is the song that he expressed how hard the situation he was in when he is so lonely that noone was supporting him. Quoted - "「寫給自己的歌」是黃義達19歲時所寫的。當時的他，剛剛被經紀公司發掘，還只是一個玩Band的小夥子；原本他只想當個幕後的音樂創作人，但經紀公司覺得他條件不錯，適合往幕前發展，準備送他到台灣來接受進一步的訓練。在寫下這首歌的時候，正是義達離開了合組4年的樂團，離開了當時的女友，在家人也不太了解他在做什麼的狀況下，一個人告別熟悉的環境來到陌生的台灣，一個人、一把吉他，寫下了這首孤獨追夢人的心聲。" However, he did not give up, and i am glad that he did not. Otherwise i would not know such wonderful singer. 


Particularly, i like this mv. " 愛了才懂 ". I just love the story, it was so touching.

"此時此刻 想把心情告訴你
在這裡 [想起你的吻]
心中一陣熱
我是幸福的[被你愛著]
如果沒有你
[海浪聲]只剩單調的音
吹著風 只感覺刺骨
喝著水也難以吞嚥
[愛你的心情]
快滿出我的胸口
[因爲有你]
[我的回憶] 被你的愛慢慢包覆著
[相愛的事實] 留在無聲的回憶裏"

Without much things to say - This MV is a MUST-WATCH. ^^

I know he won't see this, but i still want to say - ADD OIL! YOU HAVE A FOREVER SUPPORTER HERE, RIGHT IN PENANG, MALAYSIA!!! KEEP GOING!!! And, can i not say "I LOVE YOU" although i do? I don't think you want to hear this as well. Haha. 

Just smile like this, forever. =D

October 1, 2010

7.49PM

I AM HAPPY

I don't care if you say me proud, i don't care if you say me showing off, i just want to tell everyone that I AM HAPPY. =D

I am happy because my effort DID pay off! I got a really good result which i did not expect myself getting it. I am happy that it is not only a dream in my life. However, it somehow turns up to be a rather bad influence on my attitude towards studies. Now that i know getting such result is not just a dream, i keep on reminding myself to work harder to maintain it. Hence, i started my studies from the very first week of Sem 2 and yesterday, i suddenly felt that i was pressing too much on myself until i couldn't even breathe as normal. I didn't let myself to be away of books for even a moment! I don't want such life!

Now, still, I AM HAPPY, because yesterday i found the reason of my pressure and i decided to take everything easy. It doesn't really important whether to maintain the cgpa, because as long as we have put in enough effort, no matter how good or how bad the result is, we have no regret as we have done our best. Quoted from my pig - "Something we have to let something go." Yeah, letting the hope of maintaining the result will make myself better, i believe it.

So, after i have solved my conflict, I AM HAPPY. =D

October 1, 2010

6.10PM

FIRST MONDAY IN SEMESTER 2

First monday, my alarm rang exactly at 7am, though, i took my own sweet time to lay on bed until 7.30am. Don't worry, i don't have lecture this morning. =D

Brand new start, brand new challenge. I will face everything bravely. I will take criticism easily, learning that it is not always true. I will improve according to the constructive advice, and will ignore those made in purpose. Some people criticize for the sake of criticism and i have to learn how to take these people easily.

There are only 4 subjects but the subjects are getting more difficult. Luckily, our timetable is nice enough for us to avoid traffic jam and wasting time. =D Hence, i guess i will make the best use of my time to do sufficient revision. I hope my pig will do the same with me. =D

GO AHEAD, SHIYEE. GO AHEAD TO FACE THE MONSTER THAT YOU WILL BE FACING LATER ON. =D


Do they look like this? EUUUU!

September 27, 2010

8.43AM

PRIDE OF MALAYSIA

看世界，獎實力。This is a wonderful event. It really represents Malaysia, and it shows everyone there are talented actors and actresses in Malaysia. Great.

The winners list: (credit to Ntv7 Official Website)

电视剧奖  / Drama Categories
最佳男配角 Best Supporting Actor	张顺源 - 独家追缉 Ernest
最佳电视剧主题曲 Best Drama Theme Song	女头家 - 发花 (友弟) The Iron Lady
最佳新晋演员 Best Newcomer	罗忆诗 - 声空感应 Yise
最佳男主角 Best Actor	谢佳见 - 美食厨师男 Melvin
最佳女主角 Best Actress	杨雁雁 - 女头家 Yann Yann
最佳女配角 Best Supporting Actress	释福如 - 女头家 Shi Fu Ru
最佳电视剧 Best Drama	女头家 The Iron Lady
非电视剧奖 / Non Drama Categories
最佳时事节目 Best Current Affairs Program	追踪档案 - 贩卖难民 Siasat Mandarin
最佳时事节目主播/主持人 Best Current Affairs Presenter / Host	叶剑锋 Owen Yap
最佳杂志性节目 Best Magazine Program	伍拾忆 My Home
最佳杂志性节目主持人 Best Magazine Program - Host	寻找天使 - 陈薇薇 Wei Wei
最佳真人秀 Best Reality Program	终极天团 Ultimate Power Group
最佳真人秀主持人 Best Reality Program Host	绝对Superstar 3 - 李欣怡 Cheryl
最佳综艺娱乐节目 Best Variety & Entertainment Program	贰叁零之役 Double Triple Or Nothing
最佳综艺娱乐节目主持人 Best Variety & Entertainment Program - Host	叶剑锋 - 一掷千金 Owen
观众票选奖 / Viewer's Choice Categories
最受欢迎电视剧 Most Popular Drama	女头家 The Iron Lady
最受欢迎电视主持人/主播 Most Popular Host	叶俊岑 Gary
最受欢迎男演员 Most Popular Actor	谢佳见 Melvin
最受欢迎女演员 Most Popular Actress	吴天瑜 Debbie

Some people said Melvin should not be getting the awards. Well, i am going to say something to support him.
You see. Melvin was nominated because of "Romantic Delicacies", which this drama is very obvious that he is the main actor. Okay, let's talk about others.
1. Zeng Hong Hui. He acted great, he is a very good actor. But please, he was only involved in Goodnight DJ for a single episode. I mean, no matter how good he is, he cannot be treated as a main actor with only appearance in a single episode right?
2. Steve. Though he is also a good actor, the drama associated is about a family, and he is one of the members which is very important. So the focus is not as clear as Melvin in "Romantic Delicacies", which Melvin truthfully represents the drama even we only look at the title itself.
3. Ming. The drama is also about a family, which he is the only son, so he is considered important. However, i think this is so called quite unlucky in the sense that there are two more guys to fight for audience's focus, so again, compared to Melvin, he is not so appealing too.
4. Zzen. WOW! I like Zzen. He is perfect actor. But the same problem. He was not appealing in the drama (which is the same as Ming's) so he failed to receive the award.
I didn't look down at others. 5 of them are really great. I just hope that people stop questioning the winner (Melvin). He is really good. =D

The hottest in red carpet:
Pretty and Handsome
They have been voted as the hottest in ntv7 website. And i think, yeah, they are. =D

Well, this event is great in the sense that everything is so true. From the expression of the winners, we can see that the winners didn't know they will be receiving awards until their names are announced. I am so happy that Malaysia successfully organized such "clean" events, compared to a lot of big similar events. Congratulations to Malaysia. This is the stage of the talented. =)

Add oil. =)

September 26, 2010

4.35PM

CONFUSION

Somehow and rather, some people like to express his/her feeling towards others through writing, other than complaining verbally. Well, there is nothing wrong because i am that kind of person too. I like to criticize whoever i don't like through my blog. And i think people don't have to right to ask my stop doing so, as long as i am telling the truth.

But somehow, some people have their blog filled up by criticism. They keep on complaining the people around them, as if those people are so bad compared to them. They said they have met TYPES OF BAD PEOPLE during their lives, and they seem so PROUD of themselves that THEY ARE NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. I mean, a real perfect person doesn't need to show that he/she is so perfect. They want everyone feels that they are perfect but they didn't realize that this attitude is already creating the imperfections in their characteristics.

I understand how they feel when the people around them annoyed them. It, however, doesn't create permit for them to look down on others. No matter how bad a person, he/she will still have strengths. And no matter how GOOD they are, they will still have weaknesses.

Well, i like to criticize people as well. But i believe that i didn't fill my blog with criticism and create an impression to people as if i am very PERFECT. Well, i only can say, maybe they are vain. =D



Maybe mirror will help them to reflect also themselves. =)

September 26, 2010 

2.20PM

CELEBRATION!

Excuse me, i wanna scream. HOORAY! I FINALLY FINISHED MY FIRST NOVEL! It was not really something worth to be celebrated, though, 'cause it is just simply my hobby and the story is not published as a novel. Anyway, i am still happy because this is what i want to do, and i manage to keep it going! I feel really glad that i didn't give up!

I shall start a new story in the next sem break. But at this moment, let me just

CELEBRATE!!! HAHA

September 26, 2010

2.09PM

FIRST HOLIDAY IN ADVANCE

XD XD HAPPY! HAHA Mostly because exam days have passed! Anyway it's holiday's time, but the holiday is SO SHORT! My plan is to write novel, and currently helping mom to type her exam paper. The paper could be finished typing by maybe 2 days time, but i have dragged it until today (and i have not yet finished typing), because of one word - FACEBOOK. =D I have been busy and hardworking in playing FB games. I wonder how i can handle when college reopen, but i have decided to leave this problem until two weeks later. =)

Okay, i have started my plan to write my novel, but i foresee that i can't finish in this holiday. This is not because of laziness. Two weeks' time is too short to complete such many chapters. I dunno how long i will take to finish my first story. Sigh.
Anyway, i will still be writing. =D

Recently i searched for some talented singing competition participants. All have been included in my current playlist (except Abin who is actually a PK-er). They are too talented until i have to introduce to my readers. There are not much talented singers in Chinese Entertainment World, and the quality seems to be affected by those "good-looking" singers without any talent (such as... i wont say here, i guess everyone knows =D). So they appear to be very precious and good. It's hard to find singers like these. You must have a look, because these are what we call - REAL TALENT!

Many think that it's bored during holiday, but i personally still feel that i have NOT ENOUGH TIME TO USE! Haiz... I hope it won't pass too fast and i won't be lazy writing novel. =D

方炯鑌（PK-er）

何維健（新加坡 絕對Superstar第一屆 男季軍）

李煒（中國 快樂男生2010 冠軍）

FRIENDZ（馬來西亞 終極天團第一屆 冠軍）

謝俊奇（臺灣 超級偶像第二屆 殿軍）

September 12, 2010

4.05PM

ABOUT THE AUTHOR…

This title is enough to show that I miss my novel a lot, i believe. Usually, somewhere in a novel, there is a space introducing the author. Well, i suddenly thought of this and i think i should write something describing myself at my novel blog.

So, i thought and planned the words describing myself (actually from long time ago) but i always don’t have much ideas and can’t find words that represent me well. But now, something came into my mind. However, it is in Chinese. That “something” sounds this way:

表裏不一的傢伙，總是裝出一副很豪放的態度，倔強背後卻獨自躲在角落拭淚；

她，多愁善感，常把朋友無心的舉動和家人的言語給複雜化，獨自傷心；

擁有理性頭腦和感性心臟，所以特別重視角色的情感描寫；

認爲人既然擁有頭腦和心臟，情緒就是理所當然；

而每個人，都有權利和機會被聆聽。

English Translation (roughly):

A person who pretends to be strong but secretly wipe her tears behind.

She tends to think too much, twisting the meanings of others’ unintended actions and words, being upset herself.

Having a rational brain and emotional heart, she emphasizes on describing the feeling and emotions of every single character.

She thinks that being emotional is something inherent and everyone has the right and chance to be heard.

[Sorry for my bad English and Chinese]

I think i should have accepted myself as someone who cares a lot . I am really sensitive. Just a little action will be enough to make me cry for the whole day.

I remember how i felt when that “someone” hugged another girl in from of me.

This is a really painful experience.

Anyway, I have to also admit that i like to pretend to be very strong in front of my friends. I don’t know whether this is something inherent in my personal characteristics. Whatever, i don’t care. =) I will think a lot. I can’t be like my sister, laughing and forgetting everything. I guess, that’s why my mom is not encouraging me to become a teacher but instead lecturer.

But i guess i should be letting go some unwanted emotions and be happy. There is not really a good way to live with all the sad things filling my mind. Yeah, i should be doing this, because no matter how sad and angry you are, that person can’t feel it anyway.

“So, the best way of revenge is to feel HAPPY, winning the sad and angry devils in your heart!” =D

September 9, 2010.

4.50PM

IS “HANDSOME” RESTRICTED ACCORDING RACES??

I mean, handsome means handsome, there is nothing to do with races, right? Chinese must always use “pretty” and “handsome” for only Chinese? Western people are not Chinese but to most Asians (like me), they appear to be “prettier”and “more handsome”. It’s very normal that we as Chinese always say Americans and those Western people are pretty and handsome.

So, “handsome” this adjective is also not restricted to certain races only, correct?
So is there anything wrong when i say some Malays and Thais are handsome? Nothing wrong also right?

Well, this issue came into my mind when i went Tesco last night. If you have gone before, there are some stores selling bags, shoes, clothes, etc. outside Tesco, just outside the Pelita nasi kandar. So i went there. By the way, the stores are managed by a group of Thais, around 3-4 persons. So, i shopped there for a while and i saw a Thai, one of the store owners. Handsome? Yeah, i would consider him as handsome because i would consider guys with similar style as handsome. So he appears to be handsome to me, just like the way Golf and Mike made me feel they are handsome. Anyway, he is not as attractive as Golf and Mike because of absence of make-up, clothing, styling, etc. He is just very natural guy, and that’s the style i would consider guys as handsome – no styling, no putting wax and gel on the hair; just be as natural as possible. (That’s why sometimes i would like artists without extensive investment on their look, like Yida =D)

So my point is, Thais can be handsome too, right? Sometimes i tell my family someone is handsome, and just because their “skin colour” is different, my mom would just stare at me and scream “What? So dark wor?”
I thought, what’s wrong? Handsome means handsome, nothing to do with colour. Thais, Malays, and even Indians can be handsome too, right? Just like Japanese, Koreans, Americans, etc.

(I just discover this WONDERFUL picture - two handsome from different countries! 

Credit to http://schizofragile.tumblr.com/post/257780239/ohkaaye-via-fuckyeahukiss-wait-wait-who-is)

(As quoted from the photo) If a Korean artist can appear to be handsome to you, why not a Thai artist?

It is possible, right?

Handsome is a word in dictionary – widely used. 

So as a conclusion, handsome is never restricted to races. =D

September 5, 2010

10.57AM

TORTURING AUDIT!

This subject is really torturing! Well, the main problem is it is hard for us to visualize the whole audit process of how it is actually being done and what auditors actually do during the process. So it is also hard for us to understand the facts related to audit. So we left no choice but to memorize everything that we feel those are important. And you know, i really hate memorizing! Even Gino who is very good in “photocopy” also feels very pressure and stressed while studying audit. I am very upset to see him become like this, but i don’t know what to do to help him, because the fact is – AUDIT IS REALLY TORTURING!

Anyway, i will try my very best to study for it but i know after memorizing everything, i will still end up writing my own words and explanation during the real exam. So i choose not to memorize everything, but instead study the questions more to identify the pattern and what should be tackled when answering the questions. I feel that this is quite an effective way because after studying, when i start looking at the questions, i don’t know what it wants, and if we are not sure what is wanted, how can we write the answer even we fill our mind fully with all the facts? So, look at the questions, search for keywords, identify what is wanted, and pour facts, thoughts, knowledge and common sense out – this is what i am going to do! HAHA.

Hope audit nightmare will pass very soon (in fact, it will) and the exam will also pass very soon. And after that, we are free! For two weeks. =) I miss my novel. =( I am going to complete the one i am writing and gonna start a new one – short one. It is an interesting topic (for me) and i believe it is quite new (you will never see it in movies or dramas =D), which i insist to follow my own style – only create stories with brand new topics. =D

LOL. Just funny cartoon related to auditing. =D

September 4, 2010

4.58PM

A DAY BEFORE FIRST FINAL IN ADVANCE

Okay, notice the title? First final in advance! It seems scary, huh? In fact, IT IS SCARY. However, as usual, today i should not let myself facing much pressure. This is my study style. Usually, i won't be studying one day before the exam, but this time, it's really hard to do because i haven't finished what i am supposed to revise! So i still have to work on it even one day before final. Tomorrow is English paper, so i started revising for job application, meeting skills and presentation skill this morning, being effectively finished by 3pm. This is a shock, i didn't expect myself to finish such early. So, yeah, now should be my happy hour. =D

Okay, one day before first final, it makes me quite tension yet excited. I don't like the environment in CA and for me CA is sometimes too cold to sit for exam comfortably. So i look forward to sitting exam in CP, though based on usual experience, the air-con always breaks down. But at lease it should be more comfortable than CA, maybe? And i am very curious about the time management things. Most lecturers are telling us that we should properly and efficiently manage our time well to answer the questions. They mentioned until as if we will definitely be rushing for time towards the end. This is really scary for me. I start to be doubtful because i am not really used to plan the time though i did do some time calculation in the exam before. I hope this small little thing will actually help me in sitting advance diploma exam. I will take this final as experience for the time management part.

Now, what am i supposed to do? I plan to rest for the whole day! =D But this is clearly just a stupid DREAM! I need to cover my MIS Tutorial 5 & 6 today, hopefully i can finish those. And at night only i will take a good rest, sleep early and wake up early. I really need to be early tomorrow! T.T


 The most important thing before exam is definitely... 
SLEEP!

August 27, 2010

3.57PM

STUDY DAYS

I am at home studying now because all my friends are not gathering together for revision. So i started my life on revision plus facebook, and perhaps blog. =) Well, it is quite expected that i switch on my laptop every morning as soon as i wake up and sit in front for a while (perhaps 1 hour, which is actually NOT A WHILE), and have my breakfast plus reading newspaper, another one hour passed. The problem is before these, i lay on bed for another hour, just because of lazy. =( I am such not motivated nowadays, i feel that just a few days before, i still manage to wake up at 7 because of appointment with friends. So my conclusion is, i really need someone to push me. =D

Anyway, don't think that i have wasted my time, i do study. =) The thing is, i realized that i can't memorize everything in advance syllabus. I mean, it is really crazy to memorize EVERYTHING because it is A LOT. Besides, the questions, based on pass year, are not really direct questions that you can answer by pouring out what you have memorized. So this fact actually motivates me to persuade myself NOT TO MEMORIZE. So i don't really memorize AFA except for some important facts. On these three days, hence, i have not realized much improvement in my "knowledge" tank. There is uncertainty in my mind and i am quite doubtful whether i can really answer the questions. But it's alright, since i have decided not to memorize and there is insufficiency of time for me to regret for my decision, i shall just let it go. =D

Tomorrow i shall start my MIS revision, and i don't really know what to revise because the syllabus is so wide! MIS is the one giving me most headaches besides Audit. I now feel that i really like English subjects as i can study on Friday and take the exam on Saturday!

Went to some blogs motivating my friends to study smart and wishing them the best. I also hope for the best for myself. Someone did ask me whether i want to get another flat in my advance life. I mean, wow, this is such a great dream and i did dream before, but i dare not even think and plan about it. I mean, it's surely nice to get results with flying colours right? So this is what i dream. But it surely has its difficulties too! You must give up something like facebook, movies, redbox, chit-chat, blogging, lazy time, etc. which i can't make it, and even if i can, it still doesn't guarantee the flat. So this is what i dare not even think and plan. 'Cause i've learnt one thing - if you put high hope, and if you don't get it, you'll be in great depress. So i won't hope for anything higher than my own ability. By now, i guess my ability is, perhaps, 3.75??

But actually i don't really have any aim, be honest, from UPSR until now. People said no aim no pressure, but actually it's wrong. My pressure come from myself. I don't have aim but i have a characteristics that i will force myself to study if i think i am ABLE to STUDY it. This was what i did when i was taking SPM Sejarah. It made me cry almost everyday for a certain period. Anyway, this nightmare is over, and i am really happy in college.

So i don;'t have aim, be serious, but i plan my study according to my ability, so there is pressure as well. It was even worse last time until Gino told me "Don't be too stubborn and ask for everything to be perfect. You should sometimes give up something to make your life easier". This is nice. Until now i still wanna thank him "Muacks Muacks Muacks" =D

So i wanna say - I AM NOT PERFECT, so my result need not be perfect; but if it is, then will be the best. =D (persuading myself and finding excuses for not getting good results.=D)


Phew! Luckily my books aren't that much! =D

August 25, 2010

10.28PM

PREFERENCE

Sometimes people will have own preference. So it's not that i don't want to study at home, but the attractions are too much. My dad is on night shift this week, so there is no problem in the morning. But in the afternoon, the tv will be switched on. And there is no study environment, be honest. So that's why i like to go over my friend's place because there is a study environment which everyone is studying together. However, my mom seems not to be too willing to let me go. I understand, she will think that i might not study but talk instead, or i busy teaching others instead of studying myself. But i am concern about my result much more than other people. So i won't let myself ruin my own revision plan. Hmm, anyway, just see how things go lo.. =D

August 23, 2010

7.05PM

CAN I STOP THIS??

Just one day apart from the study group, i spent the whole morning facing the computer. Why? Why? I just can't get my eyes off the computer. I mean, even if there is nothing important to do, i will find thing to do, and it made me spending my whole morning on the net. How can i stop this? I think i gonna leave my house again starting tomorrow. If not, i dunno when i can finish studying audit.
Okay now, i shall start my revision. =)

Bye, comp.

August 22, 2010

12.15PM

REALITY

Actually i want to write this for a long time, but i just keep quiet because i don't want to cause trouble and arguments again. But patient has its own limitation. Beyond certain extent, i really cannot stand.
I make this RESTRICTED is because, i admit, i really scared people quoting my blog again. I let some people seeing this, but i dunno how they will respond or what they will do... But just, i really want to express my feeling.
Recently, something happened, and people are separated into two parts. Actually i have not much comments on who is right and who is wrong, because after all, argument is always caused by two sides. But now i get the meaning of this separate - because of different point-of-view. I mean, everyone views things in different ways, and i finally discover that i am more towards THIS way.
Actually everything started here. I admit to some extent, it is really my fault. And then everything just came. I also wish everything is not the way i thought but it is just so obvious. Is there really no purpose of leaving a gap between, physically and mentally? And is it really meant to be the best arrangement when we are left as if we are outsiders? Is it really because of avoiding to interrupt my schedule when we are not included? Are those signs? To me, yes, and i was once very angry. But now, i just let it go.
Anyway, this might just be my own opinion and feeling, but consideration should also be taken on the reasons making me feel this way. But it is really useless and unnecessary to blame people. I mean, privacy and right still stand, we can't interrupt. So i just take it easy.
Then a THING causes comments. Actually i understand the feeling. But be honest there is nothing wrong. Even this is done in purpose, no one can be blamed bcoz of RIGHTS. But i want to say a reality - THE THING HAS NO OTHER PURPOSES! If the truth is going to be twisted, i have nothing to say also.
And the leakage is getting bigger and bigger becoz of this. The biggest surprise is really a shock to us. I don't understand why this is happening. Even if something wrong has been done, people do not deserve to be treated like this. I get rather irritated that day, though thing is not happening on me. I just can't believe this to happen. This is rather obvious about who is wrong, well, it should be, who is in the greater disadvantage. Yet no sorry at all but telling the victim not to make the things worst. In another words, it's like "okay lah, just forget about it lah!" What? Oh i really cannot accept and so i really don't talk since that.
And now, things have become the worst. I think people with eyes will all know about this. But i won't want to comment much. Just let it be.

August 11, 2010
11.17PM

THE DAY IN QUEENSBAY

At first we planned to ask classmates for movie, but thing turned up to watching movie with dearest pig and sis. We spent our day in Queensbay, starting from 4pm, eating at the food court (economic feasible =D).

Shot by sis.. I was trying to finish everything on the table =D

Then, we watched “Love In Disguise”.

It was nice, in the sense that there is a STORYLINE (or i should say the content is good) and there are nice actors and actresses. Lee Hom directed the movie for the first time, and i personally think it is really a good job from him. There is enough humour, and though it is a love story, it doesn’t seem to be really sad and romantic. Things just happened naturally and that is what i like – natural. As a conclusion, it is more to my style, so i just like it. =D

After movie. Strolling in mall. My sis and i were in Moliform just a few mins ago and this guy stayed outside.

After that, we met my dad and mom and had dinner in Dragon-i. Mom was complaining about the service – it’s getting worse nowadays. Well, i personally felt that they should hire more waiters because from what i saw, they couldn’t provide service as prompt as before. Anyway, i was still satisfied with the food, though mom was complaining as well. =D

Finally…

August 13, 2010

11.23PM

POOR HER!

She didn’t do anything wrong, so she doesn’t deserve this. I don’t know about others, but for me, she is not that bad at lease. I mean, and i understand, everyone will face the first experience in life. This is her first experience of lecturing advance diploma students, it’s quite normal that her performance didn’t meet our expectation. Her teaching method is not the best for us maybe, and she maybe didn’t consider the overall level of everyone. But is this her problem? I mean, is this all her problem? Sometimes i don’t want to say this but as advance diploma students, we must know how to be self-motivated – to study for ourselves. I mean, there is no way people providing everything for you and you just swallow everything and vomit out in the exam. Study and revision are own effort. TARC is already so good that materials are provided for us. So, my opinion is, we should work for ourselves and lecturers are there for us to clear our doubt, that’s all. Also, I received complaints about her aggressive attitude. Maybe this is her problem and it really irritates some people. I understand that different people have different attitude, like me, i don’t think people can bear with me as well. However, for me, if you are good to a person, that person will be good to you as well, though this is not the case for everytime.

For me, i will still consider her as a good lecturer ‘cause i saw her effort of guiding and teaching us, using the best way of her, preparing notes and study materials for us, and yet there is still people not appreciating. I start to worry and wonder, will i face the same situation as what she is facing now? ‘Cause i feel that my attitude and characteristics are quite the same as hers. Sometimes i do care too much for certain things, and i will also get very emotional for the things that i really care about. And from the way i talk and i react, i do receive complaints that sometimes i tend to look down on people. Though i never mean that, but people interpret in that way. So i totally can understand her feeling. I wish to talk to her and comfort her actually – empathy – i can feel what she is feeling.

Hmm, if one day i become a lecturer, i will most probably face the same situation as hers. Though i am trying to control, but it really needs time. I believe that she also needs time to rearrange her mood and thinking – not to care too much and not to be too aggressive and emotional. I think we should definitely give her a chance – because after all, she is good.

Poor her, it is really not her problem! Cheer up, miss! ^^ We will be by your side. ^^

August 9, 2010

6.47PM

Messy AFA Test!!!

Okay, this time, we messed up AFA test again! My god, test 2 i did careless mistakes and test 1 (which i took for fun) i didn’t even know how to do the whole question! My god.

Okay, for test 2, i am still quite satisfied since i did a small mistake about the final dividend, which i carelessly omitted the date. I hated myself, but i couldn’t change the reality, so i decided to just let it be. For other parts, i think i got it correct, at lease i was happy that i could balance up the accounts. Now, here came the MESSIEST test 1 where i actually regretted to take it! It was so messy and made me actually smash my calculator in the exam hall! I mean, i didn’t know how to do question3 and question4 at all! Okay, when i first looked at the questions, i decided to leave it first and jumped to question5. When i actually finished question5, Ms Low just announced, “For question5, in advance changes to in arrear”. I was like, “WHAT???? I JUST FINISHED IT!!!!” So immediately i shouted, “Who said cannot!” Then i was like a mad person searching for errors in my answer script, and finally i decided to ask, “Why cannot do??” Though Ms Low said she will mark me correct, i just left my answer and was not willing to think anymore. I mean, this was so unfair to me that i just spent my time on the question and FINISHED it and suddenly the requirement was changed! So, i decided to give up, whether correct or wrong, it didn’t matter anymore.

And maybe because of this, it spoilt my beautiful and joyful mood of taking the paper. I started to be blank in my mind, couldn’t even think of how to start for question4. I mean, I NEVER SEE IT BEFORE and it was so different from what i expected. But this was my fault because as a student, i should do my studies before taking the test. I admitted that i DID NOT STUDY. =P Okay, this is not really shameful to me ‘cause the main intention of taking the test, for me personally, is to test how much i can do without doing revision. And i finally know that i can’t do the test without revising. So this is something call alert to me perhaps, to force me to do revision no matter how. Anyway, back to the topic, so i gave up question4 and looked at question3. This was an angry one, when i at first did it correct and finally I CHANGED MY ANSWER! I can’t believe that i actually changed my answer! I mean, at firstly i did it PERFECTLY CORRECT, but because of the ruined mood, i couldn’t decide for myself whether what i did was correct. So i decided to follow others. However, this is my fault as well because i changed the answer myself. But be honest, i couldn’t say that i didn’t blame others, i just blamed myself more. Anyway, now i’ve learnt another lesson, which is DECIDING EVERYTHING BY MYSELF WHEN I AM SITTING FOR EXAM. Okay, my fault, the main mistake is – I DIDN’T DO MY REVISION!

So this is the messy AFA Test. I hope i can get good marks for test 2. For test 1, i wanna quote a famous Cantonese saying - NO EYES TO SEE!

Really no eyes to see…

July 7, 2010

10.03PM

I'VE ALREADY GET THE MEANING! ^^

I really meant it, for everything. There is something happening recently and it gets me to see myself and my surrounding clearer. I get to know my weaknesses and bad attitude, though different people have different opinion. I am really committed now, and i am going to change whatever i don't like. I mean, if you don't like people to do these to you, you should also not to do these to people. Yeah, this is so right and i am going to change all my bad attitude. Though i don't really know whether i can do it, i will still try my best.

Sometimes, i do believe that if your heart is already broken/hurt, it will never recover. It's true, so i didn't blame or angry on anyone. Just that i still hope for the best, because i still take them as my friends, good friends. But i also understand that i cannot force people to think and act as the same with me, this is rather unfair for everyone. Let the time tells us everything, if there is still a hope, things will definitely get better as time goes by.

Anyway, i don't really hope for perfect - i don't expect everyone to like me. This is impossible - TOTALLY. So my friends told me i am really fine, but i will still make myself better, at lease, be a person that i like, at lease, i am satisfied with who i am. So i will just be me - Tan Shi Yee, and with a little changes in the future (maybe).


Anyway, everything is totally fine. I have thought of it and i won't be so sensitive and so emotional anymore. Just take everything easy - this is my conclusion.

Today is a happy night. ^^

July 30, 2010

10.20PM

BUSY X10000000

For your information, we are really BUSY! We are very busy in the way that we think we should not be. Everyone is complaining that there is TOO MUCH for us! Just TOO MUCH! You know what, i will count for you, starting from English.

Actually i do think that English coursework is quite necessary - meeting, proposal writing and individual presentation - in fact the coursework of this subject looks like normally what we should have for language subjects. Furthermore, the coursework weighs 60%. 

Next, we talk about MIS. Well, it is a bit too much, for the sense that we are not studying IT subject right? But we have to come out with a report analyzing those IT and IS. I just don't understand but for the sake that i really learn a lot and it was announced really early, i accept this coursework although it only weighs 40%. 

Then, we proceed to AFA. The coursework does not contain assignments but 2 tests and presentation on tutorial questions. It was quite tough because unlike other assignments, it never ends! Anyhow, it successfully forces us to study in order to present our answer. This is a very good method because until now, the subject that i am really following is this. I can follow during tutorial and during lecture as well. So, i also accept this and i think it is quite reasonable to weigh only 40%. 

Now, let's talk about DM. Its assignment seems very deep and difficult but after knowing what it wants us to do, it is not that hard. Anyway it needs a lot of works since we have to establish the linkage in Excel. However, what we are afraid of the most is the final exam and test! Why? Because we can never predict the questions! The questions can vary in form! This is what i am scared of the most! I am really doubtful for my coming test - i hope i can do well, but i don't know whether i can do it. The coursework is quite reasonable to weigh only 40%, because it only comprises of test, assignments and participation. 

The last and also the most ridiculous, our Audit. This is very ridiculous because the coursework is driving us crazy! Why? Because we have to complete one role-play, simulating how the audit team carries out preliminary audit work! OMG, don't you think it is very RIDICULOUS??? I mean how can we get to know the way they do preliminary audit?? We are not experienced enough! We are only exposed to PRINCIPAL OF AUDIT just in the second semester of Diploma year 2! I can't accept this - it is too RIDICULOUS and CRAZY to me. Anyway, what we can do is just express our anger, opinions and suggestions on the evaluation form and we can't do anything else. So, we still need to perform the role-play next Wednesday. I hope it runs well on that day, if not, i might get crazy! Moreover, we have to complete our assignment using AXP software. This is okay for me though i still think that we are just exposed for this software for the first time and unlike MYOB - we use one short semester to learn it continuously, we are only exposed to that software for just one day. Can you expect us to learn EVERYTHING in just ONE DAY! This is ridiculous as well, but it is much better than the role-play i guess. Anyway, the heartbreaking one is THIS WHOLE THING ONLY WEIGHS 40%! WHAT! I mean you keep us so busy and yet this is what we get for messing up our weeks??? I really cannot accept it but i have to - no choice. Anyway, everyone is complaining why there is NO TEST for audit?? The test is so important that it forces us to study. And now we have no test, this is the subject that we are really behind - besides attending lectures and tutorials we really didn't touch our audit books! Okay, let's see how we die in Final. 

Okay, finish complaining, now let's back to study for DM test next week. 

GIRL, YOU ARE CRAZY! Yeah, i am getting crazy!

July 17, 2010

10:01AM

AFA TEST = GOOD OR BAD??

Well, i guess it wasn't that bad, though i only lost 5 marks in total. Though the mistakes are not supposed to be made, i am quite satisfied with my result. Maybe it might be bad to Ms Low, haha i am so sorry to her. Anyway, those mistakes are not exactly mistakes, the fact is i really dunno the concept behind "fair value increased by". Even though i focus on these words during the test, i might get wrong as well. So i admit this. Besides, i just forgot how cost model should be done - well, i am silly to think that there is no depreciation for investment property in cost model. So i also admit this - i just forget about this! Okay and next mistake is i think too much - about the revenue part. If i didn't cancel off that sentence, i will get one more mark.

Anyway, it was a great disappointment for Ms Low. You can imagine that - She scolded us at CP (lecture hall)! "You know how heartbreaking i am ar??" "You all think advance diploma is easy ar??" "You all never study or what??"


And that's why i felt very sorry to her. But i was very happy to know that she doesn't really mean that much to M103. Anyway, I shall get higher marks for the next test - wish me luck. =)

July 17, 2010

9.26AM

Messed up in AFA Test

It's just so unclear, both the questions and our mind. We got messed up, just the extend was different between people. Anyway it's over, but what i was sad was i was told the same thing again. I felt very disappointed and heart breaking when he said like that. "I will quit after helping you guys to complete your assignment." This sentence just broke my heart. Although now everything is solved, but i don't know when i will hear this again! I am afraid. I don't know what happens - is it my fault? I can change. But the problem is I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING! 

3 July, 2010

5.08PM

THE IMPORTANCE OF PLANNING

Well, i basically feel planning is just too important for me to put in words. I mean, as a normal human, you should have known that right? Sometimes i just can't stand someone doing things without planning, but i know it is not my business to comment so much. So what i can do is expressing my feeling here - DEAREST BLOG.

Anyway, back to the topic, i just feel that you should know yourself very well and you should know which area you are strong in and weak in and so which area you should make enhancements. Hence, this information will assist you in planning your studies and revision, being to emphasize on the weakest area of oneself. Don't tell people that you don't know how to PLAN, or something like "I am so weak in planning!" "I can't follow my plan even though i plan it so well!" These are the most stupid and foolish excuses in the world. No matter what, the reality is "YOU MUST KNOW HOW TO PLAN!".

Some people like to do things in the last minute, and finally get messed up. This is the best situation of consequences of NOT PLANNING. Though some people's style is last-minute, the work done will not be as good as the work done not in last minute - I GUARANTEE YOU. So, don't get yourself tensed up at the last minute before assignment due date or exam and finally achieve nothing. This is so not worth, it is just NOT WORTH.

1 July, 2010

9.46PM

NATION-WIDE FRIENDSHIP

I never even dare to dream that i can know some people like them. When Ms. Monica first announced the English Problem, i was very doubtful, instead of excited, because she said we can actually meet someone from US, UK or Canada. And after i've seen them in the study room, i finally believed it but i started to worry i couldn't understand their English, i mean, it is still very different from Malaysian English. So i tried my best to communicate with them, and sometimes it made me feel very tired because we were trying to figure out words by words what they were trying to say to us, so that we could reply.
At first, it's really hard for me to cope with it, but as time passed, i started to be used to their way of speaking, catching their words faster and easier. I must thank them greatly, because they've given me a chance to explore to the conversation with Western people. At lease i've made some preparation for the UK study trip, and i am more ready to go. I found that i am more ready to speak in English, and will not afraid anymore to interact with others in English. This friendship between us (my classmates and me) and them is really unique. I am so glad that i joined this class.
Now, let's enjoy some memorable pictures.

Anna

Louren

Words are too less to describe the precious memory. So let me keep in deep in my heart. =)

Will remember and miss you guys... Early farewell to Anna, Jeremy, Lauren, Caleb, and more..  

1 July, 2010

9.31PM