IT'S TIME TO REST

Well, i just realised that i have given too much pressure for myself. I always wanted to get things accurate & on time. I mean, i planned my schedule tightly and now it is so packed that i can't even bear the consequence of delaying any jobs. I tried to do what we call in Chinese "finish today's work by today", but i just realised i ended up everything with mess and stress. It should not be in this way...

However, i am having a dilemma now - i can't give up everything and restructure my schedule though i realise my stress! I mean, my mind doesn't allow me to do that. It stills want me to follow up everything. So i decided to accept this invitation - vacation to Taiping!

Really looking forward to this short vacation, as an excuse to run away from hectic life, temporary. Who knows? This 'temporary break' might change everything. =)

November 16, 2010

10.09PM

LEARNING TO SURVIVE...

There are many humans in this world, which none of us can meet every single human in this earth. However, though we are not even meeting 1/10000....000 of those humans, we will still have some problems regarding how to interact with different people. I mean, the people we meet, although not even exceeding 1/10000...000 of humans population in the whole world, are already enough for us to have various feelings resulting from interaction.

Well, i discover that the feelings is actually a cycle, and it will happen whenever we meet new friends. It starts when we meet new faces, and that's when we will feel excited and curious. Getting know better, we feel happy and thankful and we will feel that they are the world, teasing one another about the new target/relationship, updating one another with latest gossip in the class, complaining about those hated, and many more.

And after that, things will change. Same concept about couples applies, we get to know them in real. Just like nominal income and real income, after revealing the mask of inflation, we approach real income. After revealing all the doubt, we get to see the real friends. Logically, we should be more familiar with one another; but it really depends. This is the time we can get closer to one another, and if we do, this is forever; but this is also the time to feel disgusted and annoyed to one another, when we finally get to know the real attitude and realize that we can't interact with one another in the previous way anymore.

In my world, the latter always applies.  If things are repeating, the problem must be coming from me myself. This is the theory. So is it really my problem? I guess it's my problem. Well, i admit that i am very emotional and protective to myself. Some people call this selfish. I will get very irritated if i do not agree with something and often overreact. I will not trust people easily, and always think for the worst when people try to do something like praising. I always demand for the best. I always believe in my principles. These are my problem.

Changes have to be made. It takes time, certainly. I will go for the emotional and overreact. After analysis, i get the reason for this attitude. Although i really dislike PCGHS, but i am very thankful that i actually chose this school because it teaches me what is DISCIPLINE. So i will get very irritated when some people react in the way that i cannot agree with. So, i develop statements that will prevent me from overreacting and being emotional:
1. How people react is their business, none of your business. 
2. They are of that kind, and you are not, so don't "count" with them. 
3. It is meaningless for you to get so angry, because you're not their mums, and you should be glad that they are not your kids. 
4. It is of no use for you to get so angry, because they will never feel that, and it even worsen your health, risking your health for this kind of people is really worthless.
I hope these can help.

Some people said, don't always think that what you believe is correct. You might get some principles wrong and you don't know yourself. Well, i also develop some statements for this issue:
1. You don't need to share and spread your principles to others. Just keep it to yourself and make yourself strong. 
2. You don't need to accept others' theories and believes as well. Don't agree? Say it to your heart, and just smile to the people. 
3. Don't "count" with those who doesn't even know who is correct in the real situation. 
4. Maybe you are always wrong, try to look things differently. 
5. Empathy - think why people react like this. If still cannot accept, stick to your own and forget about what people say. 

A Chinese saying is really true - 忍一時風平浪靜(dunno how to translate). We need to "tahan" for not causing trouble.


It's a way to survive - don't let others influence you or you'll fall into their traps! 

November 7, 2010

10.53PM

SHOULD IT BE IN THIS WAY?

You know, my current life is like this - i manage to keep my phrase the same as the lectures, i mean, i do revise everything taught in every lecture during the week. It makes me feel good whenever i understand what lecturers are talking about in the tutorial classes and also when i manage to answer the tutorial questions. However, this plan gives me great pressure. I'll only feel good when i finish all the revision that you've planned. If i can't finish, i'll feel great pressure on Sunday.

I am wondering is this a good way of studying? Must i sacrify my leisure to impose study plan like this? Should i keep on giving pressure to myself?

Well, the thing "pressure" depends on how you look at it. Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is not. So i guess, my solution will be - keep on imposing this plan, since it brings benefits, but also take into consideration the leisure and rest time.

I feel my plan is quite healthy in the weekdays, just that i didn't account for leisure during weekends. I have movie time and perhaps exercise time during weekdays, but i've just jogging time during the weekend. Besides, i think i should have arranged my plan according to my own ability and the difficulties as well as the quantity of the learning materials. The case was, i planned to finish my tax "business expenses" on Thursday, but it didn't work, instead it is finished only on Friday. Cases like this will add on to my pressure.

I always want to finish my things as early as possible, but i should also learn that rushing make things even worst. It should be time for me and my sister to be chatting and surfing net in the donut, someday. =D

Just like this. =D

November 1, 2010

8.09AM

WHAT I WANT

Recently, because of internship, i started to ask myself what i want, actually. I realised that i am not preparing to work in audit firm for the rest of life, struggling for more rest time, and abandoning my lovely family and kids. Hence, i started to question myself, is it really important for me to get ACCA qualification? I mean, why am i studying so hard? For what?

Basically, i chose accounting is not merely because of interest. If i were to say interest, i have most interest in multimedia design field. However, due to the job prospect, i decided to choose accounting. Accountants are always needed, but multimedia things subject to seasons (perhaps, like the rise of IT will create more jobs for this, and we dunno when IT world will come to the end). Nevertheless, i still have some interest in accounting, as i won't force myself to study something that i don't like (that's why i didn't choose science stream =D). Anyway, i've chosen this career.

And now, things are getting harder when it comes to papers like F5-F9, which is our advance diploma. Please be noted that these are only fundamental papers but not professional papers yet. Then, as internship purpose, i am going to work in real firm. After collecting info, i discovered that working in an audit firm will make my life miserable. I mean, you go at 8 or 9, and only back at 11. This is too much for me, so i am not going to work in audit firm. But if i am not going to work in audit firm, is obtaining ACCA qualification as important as before?

Anyway, i guess it helps no matter what i am going to become - lecturer, internal accountant, or even in finance field. Cert is now very important in society nowadays. Obtaining a degree seems not enough since plenty of graduates are now competing for the limited jobs. ACCA professional qualification will be an enhancement and powerful credential for me to obtain jobs with good benefits. Besides, i take this as challenge - to challenge something that i am interested and get the satisfaction (lame reason). =D So, i am continuing with ACCA. =D

October 28, 2010

4.25PM

A RELAXATION FROM THE RUSH HOURS

Well, i joined my classmates for badminton. It was a really relaxing match! I felt glad joining because i almost wanted to just go back. Luckily i didn't! I sweat-ed a lot, and i felt relaxing! Nice!

Feel to invite more friends for such recreation, maybe next time in Bukit Dumbar? XD

October 19, 2010

10.46PM 

REIGN OF ASSASSINS

" 我願化作石橋，為你受五百年風吹、五百年日曬、五百年雨淋，只願你從橋上走過…… "

I seldom like a movie and want to watch it very much. I think basically, if we separate movies in seasons, i might want to watch only one in a season, and maybe not at all if those movies do not attract me. Be honest, i don't like Hong Kong movies, which i think is ridiculous and meaningless in the sense of content. If i were to watch Hong Kong movies, it must be an action movie with Dynasty background. I seldom like Hong Kong comedies but i do like Western comedies. It seems to be totally opposite because i don't like Western action movies, as well as scientific and fantasy one, like Transformer. Total objection towards those types. 

Taiwan seldom has movies. Malaysian movies i like 'Red Bean' the most (haha, short form of the actual name). Singapore movies... hmmm... i am not really into those. 

Okay, during this season, i like this. I admit that i started to notice this because of Jung Woo-Sung. Oh my, he is once the best actor winner! I can't cover all i know about him - a best actor, man and handsome. So i classified it as my Must-Watch. After such a long wait, i got to watch it today. 

It may not be nice to most of the people, but to me it is VERY nice. Humans are driven by feeling, the fact is i like it, so no matter how it appears to be a good movie to me. Anyway, i like how they play the sword. Nice action.

Michelle Yeoh is a pride of Malaysia, i must admit this. I feel that i rather like her movie.

Jung Woo-Sung, i never have comments, he is just way too perfect!

Shawn Yu, always professional though he is not the main actor.

Barbie Hsu, sexy and hot in the movie, she is pretty somehow.

Dai Li Ren, i just love the outfit and character of his. Cool and interesting! He is once best actor also and proven again in this movie. 

The conclusion is - i like it. It is a happy ending, and this is one of the reasons for my conclusion as well. =) 

My sis said they are nice to be together, how do you think? =D

October 15, 2010

9.53PM

IT IS ALL ABOUT SURROUNDING

Wow, just a word 'finance', and it covers too much knowledge, much more than what we are able to learn! You know, the lecture notes now really mean NOTHING when you see the finance questions. I mean, it is based on general knowledge, and what you have to acquire is the 'general knowledge'. Sometimes, this type of knowledge is difficult to learn because it is too GENERAL!

Many people said lecturer doesn't teach in effective way. Well, for me, she is really not so good but somehow we shouldn't depend much on lecturer, generally. Lecturers are just guiding us to acquire necessary knowledge, and the acquisition is merely based on our own effort - which this actually distinguishes humans through results.

So, i told my friend that lecturer doesn't affect me a lot and i actually meant this. But i was reluctant to explain because some people will think you are proud as if you are the best for getting good result. Explanation sometimes doesn't bring good effect. =)

Anyway, i really discovered that people growing up in different surrounding will result in different thinking and perceptions. Sometimes i will say i couldn't understand some people do this do that, and i regularly see my secondary schoolmates write something like this in facebook, now i know why - because of different thinking. We are brought up in that environment, so we couldn't accept some actions or thoughts of those who do not come from the same environment as us.

So, arguments and conflicts are just all about SURROUNDING - where we are brought up. =)


I won't force people accepting me, but i hope others won't force me to accept them as well,
if i really CANNOT DO SO.

October 8, 2010

2.48PM

CHILDISH 20TH

I met some 'children' in my lecture hall. Actually i hate them for already a long time, but now i really cannot tahan what they are doing!

I didn't really feel disrupted when they silently talk my bad things behind, and rapidly notice my actions and use me as laughter, making their attitude look foolish. I don't mind if i can make their life happier.

I just couldn't understand, somehow in my opinion they are not pretty, they are not in good attitude, they are not smart, but the worst is THEY ARE NOT TAKING THEIR PRECIOUS TIME SERIOUSLY to do whatever they should be doing (like studying, as students). And one more serious thing is THEY ARE VERY DISTURBING IN LECTURE HALL.

Please! If you don't want to listen, just go out! There is no point for you to sit in lecture hall, talking and laughing loudly and 'down' in your exam. You are wasting your time, and this is not important at all because it's your own business, but the problem is you are wasting your family's money, paper resources for all those textbook, lecturers' extra effort of teaching you, and you are DISTURBING on the expense of other students who want to concentrate in lecture! Hello, if you are really not interested, please get out of college!

They are childish in the sense that they are playful, wasting time, look stupid for talking others bad things yet they thought they are very excellent, and not taking studies seriously but still forcing themselves to be in college.

I want to show some pride, i don't care if you will feel annoying:

"Come on, you really think you are so excellent? I am very bad, but i am never worse than you! In terms of result and attitude!" 

PROUD! RIGHT? Yes, in front of them, I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF!

July 10, 2010

4.31PM

HOPE THIS STAYS...

What is 'this'? If you're constantly reading my blog, you'll discover that i am also rapidly changing my background. Well, i dunno how to do with the HTML things so i have to choose and pick from templates but i couldn't get one that i really like and am satisfied. But this one, the current one, i found that i quite like it, and i hope my feeling will stay, tiring of designing all over again.

Lights. It's good because it shows us the right path. Just that lights need not come from surrounding, it is somehow from the heart, you own expectation and desire that shine your future path. =D

Without knowing what nonsense i was typing, just hope this stays... =D

July 10, 2010

4.14PM

GOODBYE? NO, I CAN'T.

Before you start reading this, please take a look on this video.



It touched me deeply. I just love the lyrics.

"I should forget, but i can't." 

Yeah, "should" and "can" are two very different things, it reminds me. 

"Goodbye my love, i will send you off now.

The memories and remembrances, i will forget them all.

I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love.

From my heart. "

"No, my love, i can't send you off.

You, you, i should forget you.

Even if i erase and erase, i think you are the only one for me.

I am sorry. "

My god, it is so heartbreaking. You are the only one for me.

October 2, 2010

10.28PM

BEAUTY

What's the real beauty? Is it inborn? Or is it something that can be human-made?

I was once attracted to this Singapore Drama. If you know me well, you'll know that i don't like Singapore dramas. But i was addicted to this very different Singapore drama. Instead of family matters, it presents something like ethical dilemma about beauty. 





There are two doctors, plastic surgeon and psychologist. Plastic surgeon believes that beauty can be "made", as there is no ugly people but only poor people (who are not willing to achieve beauty using money). He believes that he has helped a lot of people achieving what so called "Beauty" through his knife. So he is very proud of himself. However, his thought starts to twist when he meets this psychologist, who believes only inner beauty is the true beauty, beauty cannot be "made". This two people with different thought manage to get together finally. How? Haha you can't know unless you watch it. 

" 學會接受自己的不完美，就是一切完美。" 

Perhaps i should learn this as well. 

Thanks to this drama and ntv7 for introducing "completeness" to me. =D

October 1, 2010

8.11PM

YIDA

I wonder how many people still remember this name. His passion, his courage and his strong attitude melted me when i first time know his name. Unlike others, he proves that he is not an artist, but a singer, he doesn't do what everyone wants him to do, but he always does what he wants to do the most. He keeps his music to his own style, he keeps his attitude to his very original one. I just like who he is, YIDA.

He is just an ordinary guy from Singapore who loves music very much. He gave up everything - his band, his gf and went to Taiwan without being understood by his own family. Being a singer, he felt extreme pressure which almost dragged him towards the end, and then he decided to give himself a good rest and headed to Thailand. He is now clear of what he wants and is coming back to music! (Well, this is just based on the brief knowledge of myself towards this guy. =D) 

Tell you why i like him so much. I liked Nicholas Teo and Kenji Wu before also, similar to the feeling of liking him. However, the feeling does not sustain for Nicholas and Kenji but towards him, i realized that i will still search for his news and MVs as soon as i remember him. What i like about him is his attitude - i do not, and will not feel tired repeating this - he lives in the way that he wants himself to be living in, but not living in the way that other people wants him to be living in. He does what he wants, producing the music that represents him the best; and does not composing music for the sake of getting more and more famous in the entertainment world. He shows us that he is a SINGER, not an ENTERTAINER.

In Chinese, 他不是一直做Show討好別人的藝人，他是堅持自己夢想與風格的歌手。
在複雜的娛樂圈裏，他選擇做自己，讓我看到一個真實的義達。
我深深被他真誠的態度吸引，喜歡就喜歡，不愛就不愛，這就是他，從不掩飾的義達。

(Later, his hair will be short one. =D)

寫給自己的歌 - this is the song that he expressed how hard the situation he was in when he is so lonely that noone was supporting him. Quoted - "「寫給自己的歌」是黃義達19歲時所寫的。當時的他，剛剛被經紀公司發掘，還只是一個玩Band的小夥子；原本他只想當個幕後的音樂創作人，但經紀公司覺得他條件不錯，適合往幕前發展，準備送他到台灣來接受進一步的訓練。在寫下這首歌的時候，正是義達離開了合組4年的樂團，離開了當時的女友，在家人也不太了解他在做什麼的狀況下，一個人告別熟悉的環境來到陌生的台灣，一個人、一把吉他，寫下了這首孤獨追夢人的心聲。" However, he did not give up, and i am glad that he did not. Otherwise i would not know such wonderful singer. 


Particularly, i like this mv. " 愛了才懂 ". I just love the story, it was so touching.

"此時此刻 想把心情告訴你
在這裡 [想起你的吻]
心中一陣熱
我是幸福的[被你愛著]
如果沒有你
[海浪聲]只剩單調的音
吹著風 只感覺刺骨
喝著水也難以吞嚥
[愛你的心情]
快滿出我的胸口
[因爲有你]
[我的回憶] 被你的愛慢慢包覆著
[相愛的事實] 留在無聲的回憶裏"

Without much things to say - This MV is a MUST-WATCH. ^^

I know he won't see this, but i still want to say - ADD OIL! YOU HAVE A FOREVER SUPPORTER HERE, RIGHT IN PENANG, MALAYSIA!!! KEEP GOING!!! And, can i not say "I LOVE YOU" although i do? I don't think you want to hear this as well. Haha. 

Just smile like this, forever. =D

October 1, 2010

7.49PM

I AM HAPPY

I don't care if you say me proud, i don't care if you say me showing off, i just want to tell everyone that I AM HAPPY. =D

I am happy because my effort DID pay off! I got a really good result which i did not expect myself getting it. I am happy that it is not only a dream in my life. However, it somehow turns up to be a rather bad influence on my attitude towards studies. Now that i know getting such result is not just a dream, i keep on reminding myself to work harder to maintain it. Hence, i started my studies from the very first week of Sem 2 and yesterday, i suddenly felt that i was pressing too much on myself until i couldn't even breathe as normal. I didn't let myself to be away of books for even a moment! I don't want such life!

Now, still, I AM HAPPY, because yesterday i found the reason of my pressure and i decided to take everything easy. It doesn't really important whether to maintain the cgpa, because as long as we have put in enough effort, no matter how good or how bad the result is, we have no regret as we have done our best. Quoted from my pig - "Something we have to let something go." Yeah, letting the hope of maintaining the result will make myself better, i believe it.

So, after i have solved my conflict, I AM HAPPY. =D

October 1, 2010

6.10PM

FIRST MONDAY IN SEMESTER 2

First monday, my alarm rang exactly at 7am, though, i took my own sweet time to lay on bed until 7.30am. Don't worry, i don't have lecture this morning. =D

Brand new start, brand new challenge. I will face everything bravely. I will take criticism easily, learning that it is not always true. I will improve according to the constructive advice, and will ignore those made in purpose. Some people criticize for the sake of criticism and i have to learn how to take these people easily.

There are only 4 subjects but the subjects are getting more difficult. Luckily, our timetable is nice enough for us to avoid traffic jam and wasting time. =D Hence, i guess i will make the best use of my time to do sufficient revision. I hope my pig will do the same with me. =D

GO AHEAD, SHIYEE. GO AHEAD TO FACE THE MONSTER THAT YOU WILL BE FACING LATER ON. =D


Do they look like this? EUUUU!

September 27, 2010

8.43AM

PRIDE OF MALAYSIA

看世界，獎實力。This is a wonderful event. It really represents Malaysia, and it shows everyone there are talented actors and actresses in Malaysia. Great.

The winners list: (credit to Ntv7 Official Website)

电视剧奖  / Drama Categories
最佳男配角 Best Supporting Actor	张顺源 - 独家追缉 Ernest
最佳电视剧主题曲 Best Drama Theme Song	女头家 - 发花 (友弟) The Iron Lady
最佳新晋演员 Best Newcomer	罗忆诗 - 声空感应 Yise
最佳男主角 Best Actor	谢佳见 - 美食厨师男 Melvin
最佳女主角 Best Actress	杨雁雁 - 女头家 Yann Yann
最佳女配角 Best Supporting Actress	释福如 - 女头家 Shi Fu Ru
最佳电视剧 Best Drama	女头家 The Iron Lady
非电视剧奖 / Non Drama Categories
最佳时事节目 Best Current Affairs Program	追踪档案 - 贩卖难民 Siasat Mandarin
最佳时事节目主播/主持人 Best Current Affairs Presenter / Host	叶剑锋 Owen Yap
最佳杂志性节目 Best Magazine Program	伍拾忆 My Home
最佳杂志性节目主持人 Best Magazine Program - Host	寻找天使 - 陈薇薇 Wei Wei
最佳真人秀 Best Reality Program	终极天团 Ultimate Power Group
最佳真人秀主持人 Best Reality Program Host	绝对Superstar 3 - 李欣怡 Cheryl
最佳综艺娱乐节目 Best Variety & Entertainment Program	贰叁零之役 Double Triple Or Nothing
最佳综艺娱乐节目主持人 Best Variety & Entertainment Program - Host	叶剑锋 - 一掷千金 Owen
观众票选奖 / Viewer's Choice Categories
最受欢迎电视剧 Most Popular Drama	女头家 The Iron Lady
最受欢迎电视主持人/主播 Most Popular Host	叶俊岑 Gary
最受欢迎男演员 Most Popular Actor	谢佳见 Melvin
最受欢迎女演员 Most Popular Actress	吴天瑜 Debbie

Some people said Melvin should not be getting the awards. Well, i am going to say something to support him.
You see. Melvin was nominated because of "Romantic Delicacies", which this drama is very obvious that he is the main actor. Okay, let's talk about others.
1. Zeng Hong Hui. He acted great, he is a very good actor. But please, he was only involved in Goodnight DJ for a single episode. I mean, no matter how good he is, he cannot be treated as a main actor with only appearance in a single episode right?
2. Steve. Though he is also a good actor, the drama associated is about a family, and he is one of the members which is very important. So the focus is not as clear as Melvin in "Romantic Delicacies", which Melvin truthfully represents the drama even we only look at the title itself.
3. Ming. The drama is also about a family, which he is the only son, so he is considered important. However, i think this is so called quite unlucky in the sense that there are two more guys to fight for audience's focus, so again, compared to Melvin, he is not so appealing too.
4. Zzen. WOW! I like Zzen. He is perfect actor. But the same problem. He was not appealing in the drama (which is the same as Ming's) so he failed to receive the award.
I didn't look down at others. 5 of them are really great. I just hope that people stop questioning the winner (Melvin). He is really good. =D

The hottest in red carpet:
Pretty and Handsome
They have been voted as the hottest in ntv7 website. And i think, yeah, they are. =D

Well, this event is great in the sense that everything is so true. From the expression of the winners, we can see that the winners didn't know they will be receiving awards until their names are announced. I am so happy that Malaysia successfully organized such "clean" events, compared to a lot of big similar events. Congratulations to Malaysia. This is the stage of the talented. =)

Add oil. =)

September 26, 2010

4.35PM

CONFUSION

Somehow and rather, some people like to express his/her feeling towards others through writing, other than complaining verbally. Well, there is nothing wrong because i am that kind of person too. I like to criticize whoever i don't like through my blog. And i think people don't have to right to ask my stop doing so, as long as i am telling the truth.

But somehow, some people have their blog filled up by criticism. They keep on complaining the people around them, as if those people are so bad compared to them. They said they have met TYPES OF BAD PEOPLE during their lives, and they seem so PROUD of themselves that THEY ARE NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. I mean, a real perfect person doesn't need to show that he/she is so perfect. They want everyone feels that they are perfect but they didn't realize that this attitude is already creating the imperfections in their characteristics.

I understand how they feel when the people around them annoyed them. It, however, doesn't create permit for them to look down on others. No matter how bad a person, he/she will still have strengths. And no matter how GOOD they are, they will still have weaknesses.

Well, i like to criticize people as well. But i believe that i didn't fill my blog with criticism and create an impression to people as if i am very PERFECT. Well, i only can say, maybe they are vain. =D



Maybe mirror will help them to reflect also themselves. =)

September 26, 2010 

2.20PM

CELEBRATION!

Excuse me, i wanna scream. HOORAY! I FINALLY FINISHED MY FIRST NOVEL! It was not really something worth to be celebrated, though, 'cause it is just simply my hobby and the story is not published as a novel. Anyway, i am still happy because this is what i want to do, and i manage to keep it going! I feel really glad that i didn't give up!

I shall start a new story in the next sem break. But at this moment, let me just

CELEBRATE!!! HAHA

September 26, 2010

2.09PM

FIRST HOLIDAY IN ADVANCE

XD XD HAPPY! HAHA Mostly because exam days have passed! Anyway it's holiday's time, but the holiday is SO SHORT! My plan is to write novel, and currently helping mom to type her exam paper. The paper could be finished typing by maybe 2 days time, but i have dragged it until today (and i have not yet finished typing), because of one word - FACEBOOK. =D I have been busy and hardworking in playing FB games. I wonder how i can handle when college reopen, but i have decided to leave this problem until two weeks later. =)

Okay, i have started my plan to write my novel, but i foresee that i can't finish in this holiday. This is not because of laziness. Two weeks' time is too short to complete such many chapters. I dunno how long i will take to finish my first story. Sigh.
Anyway, i will still be writing. =D

Recently i searched for some talented singing competition participants. All have been included in my current playlist (except Abin who is actually a PK-er). They are too talented until i have to introduce to my readers. There are not much talented singers in Chinese Entertainment World, and the quality seems to be affected by those "good-looking" singers without any talent (such as... i wont say here, i guess everyone knows =D). So they appear to be very precious and good. It's hard to find singers like these. You must have a look, because these are what we call - REAL TALENT!

Many think that it's bored during holiday, but i personally still feel that i have NOT ENOUGH TIME TO USE! Haiz... I hope it won't pass too fast and i won't be lazy writing novel. =D

方炯鑌（PK-er）

何維健（新加坡 絕對Superstar第一屆 男季軍）

李煒（中國 快樂男生2010 冠軍）

FRIENDZ（馬來西亞 終極天團第一屆 冠軍）

謝俊奇（臺灣 超級偶像第二屆 殿軍）

September 12, 2010

4.05PM

ABOUT THE AUTHOR…

This title is enough to show that I miss my novel a lot, i believe. Usually, somewhere in a novel, there is a space introducing the author. Well, i suddenly thought of this and i think i should write something describing myself at my novel blog.

So, i thought and planned the words describing myself (actually from long time ago) but i always don’t have much ideas and can’t find words that represent me well. But now, something came into my mind. However, it is in Chinese. That “something” sounds this way:

表裏不一的傢伙，總是裝出一副很豪放的態度，倔強背後卻獨自躲在角落拭淚；

她，多愁善感，常把朋友無心的舉動和家人的言語給複雜化，獨自傷心；

擁有理性頭腦和感性心臟，所以特別重視角色的情感描寫；

認爲人既然擁有頭腦和心臟，情緒就是理所當然；

而每個人，都有權利和機會被聆聽。

English Translation (roughly):

A person who pretends to be strong but secretly wipe her tears behind.

She tends to think too much, twisting the meanings of others’ unintended actions and words, being upset herself.

Having a rational brain and emotional heart, she emphasizes on describing the feeling and emotions of every single character.

She thinks that being emotional is something inherent and everyone has the right and chance to be heard.

[Sorry for my bad English and Chinese]

I think i should have accepted myself as someone who cares a lot . I am really sensitive. Just a little action will be enough to make me cry for the whole day.

I remember how i felt when that “someone” hugged another girl in from of me.

This is a really painful experience.

Anyway, I have to also admit that i like to pretend to be very strong in front of my friends. I don’t know whether this is something inherent in my personal characteristics. Whatever, i don’t care. =) I will think a lot. I can’t be like my sister, laughing and forgetting everything. I guess, that’s why my mom is not encouraging me to become a teacher but instead lecturer.

But i guess i should be letting go some unwanted emotions and be happy. There is not really a good way to live with all the sad things filling my mind. Yeah, i should be doing this, because no matter how sad and angry you are, that person can’t feel it anyway.

“So, the best way of revenge is to feel HAPPY, winning the sad and angry devils in your heart!” =D

September 9, 2010.

4.50PM

IS “HANDSOME” RESTRICTED ACCORDING RACES??

I mean, handsome means handsome, there is nothing to do with races, right? Chinese must always use “pretty” and “handsome” for only Chinese? Western people are not Chinese but to most Asians (like me), they appear to be “prettier”and “more handsome”. It’s very normal that we as Chinese always say Americans and those Western people are pretty and handsome.

So, “handsome” this adjective is also not restricted to certain races only, correct?
So is there anything wrong when i say some Malays and Thais are handsome? Nothing wrong also right?

Well, this issue came into my mind when i went Tesco last night. If you have gone before, there are some stores selling bags, shoes, clothes, etc. outside Tesco, just outside the Pelita nasi kandar. So i went there. By the way, the stores are managed by a group of Thais, around 3-4 persons. So, i shopped there for a while and i saw a Thai, one of the store owners. Handsome? Yeah, i would consider him as handsome because i would consider guys with similar style as handsome. So he appears to be handsome to me, just like the way Golf and Mike made me feel they are handsome. Anyway, he is not as attractive as Golf and Mike because of absence of make-up, clothing, styling, etc. He is just very natural guy, and that’s the style i would consider guys as handsome – no styling, no putting wax and gel on the hair; just be as natural as possible. (That’s why sometimes i would like artists without extensive investment on their look, like Yida =D)

So my point is, Thais can be handsome too, right? Sometimes i tell my family someone is handsome, and just because their “skin colour” is different, my mom would just stare at me and scream “What? So dark wor?”
I thought, what’s wrong? Handsome means handsome, nothing to do with colour. Thais, Malays, and even Indians can be handsome too, right? Just like Japanese, Koreans, Americans, etc.

(I just discover this WONDERFUL picture - two handsome from different countries! 

Credit to http://schizofragile.tumblr.com/post/257780239/ohkaaye-via-fuckyeahukiss-wait-wait-who-is)

(As quoted from the photo) If a Korean artist can appear to be handsome to you, why not a Thai artist?

It is possible, right?

Handsome is a word in dictionary – widely used. 

So as a conclusion, handsome is never restricted to races. =D

September 5, 2010

10.57AM