This title is enough to show that I miss my novel a lot, i believe. Usually, somewhere in a novel, there is a space introducing the author. Well, i suddenly thought of this and i think i should write something describing myself at my novel blog.
So, i thought and planned the words describing myself (actually from long time ago) but i always don’t have much ideas and can’t find words that represent me well. But now, something came into my mind. However, it is in Chinese. That “something” sounds this way:
表裏不一的傢伙，總是裝出一副很豪放的態度，倔強背後卻獨自躲在角落拭淚；
她，多愁善感，常把朋友無心的舉動和家人的言語給複雜化，獨自傷心；
擁有理性頭腦和感性心臟，所以特別重視角色的情感描寫；
認爲人既然擁有頭腦和心臟，情緒就是理所當然；
而每個人，都有權利和機會被聆聽。
English Translation (roughly): A person who pretends to be strong but secretly wipe her tears behind.
She tends to think too much, twisting the meanings of others’ unintended actions and words, being upset herself.
Having a rational brain and emotional heart, she emphasizes on describing the feeling and emotions of every single character.
She thinks that being emotional is something inherent and everyone has the right and chance to be heard.
[Sorry for my bad English and Chinese]I think i should have accepted myself as someone who cares a lot . I am really sensitive. Just a little action will be enough to make me cry for the whole day.
I remember how i felt when that “someone” hugged another girl in from of me.
This is a really painful experience.
Anyway, I have to also admit that i like to pretend to be very strong in front of my friends. I don’t know whether this is something inherent in my personal characteristics. Whatever, i don’t care. =) I will think a lot. I can’t be like my sister, laughing and forgetting everything. I guess, that’s why my mom is not encouraging me to become a teacher but instead lecturer.
But i guess i should be letting go some unwanted emotions and be happy. There is not really a good way to live with all the sad things filling my mind. Yeah, i should be doing this, because no matter how sad and angry you are, that person can’t feel it anyway.
“So, the best way of revenge is to feel HAPPY, winning the sad and angry devils in your heart!” =D
September 9, 2010.
4.50PM
