2012 --> 2013

Okay, since everyone is talking about the end of 2012, i am going to share mine too. =D Well, i didn't set goal at the beginning of the year so i guess i have not much thing to write, but i still have some embedded goals which i have really accomplished in this year:

1. Graduating from TARC Advanced Diploma
2. Successfully completed all ACCA professional level papers in 2012

I thought for a moment but i guess these are the two main one. Basically i only think of studying in 2012 as i wish to finish everything in the year. I have already felt myself too old for employment.

I just discovered that working part time during study isn't really a bad thing. Besides gaining account-related experience to compliment ACCA, it is a good way to fill up idle time and to earn money! HAHAZm Now that i step into workforce, i start to recognize the importance of "accumulating" money. =D

Well, if i were to say regrets in 2013, i guess the above would be the major regret of mine for the year. But positive thinking is needed - to fully study ACCA is a good way to ensure full commitment and thus increase the possibility of passing the papers. So after all it is still not that bad. =)

In addition, i am so glad to receive a good news just before i enter into 2013 - I've got a job offer! So officially i would be employed in the year of 2013 (if no changes) and become a fresh employee among the workforce! As for my 2013 wishes, i sincerely hope to

1. Earn and accumulate money (as much as possible =D)
2. Help babe in completing his ACCA (no matter how long it takes =D).

I am a dull and boring person. I only concern about my study/work and my family (including future husband xD). So my goals will all about these. =D

Wish myself all the best!

Found some quotes to encourage myself (and also you - the readers) xD: 










And the most is to believe:


PS:


=)))

Dec 31, 2012

6.01PM

Life during the gap of graduating and working

Such a weird title huh? LOL. Its okay i feel weird too. xD Anyway, here to update my recent life as i realized my last post is about graduation. Wow! That has been almost two months ago! Okay, what have i done in these two months? First of all, i have finished my ACCA exams. Bear in mind that i have COMPLETED exams and not PASSED the exams. Though i still hope for the best that i can just pass by this sitting, i am still leaving a space under certainty to express my worry towards the exams. Its really tough, man!

So, after my exams, i have official become an unemployed. xD So this is the time i actively search for a job. Well, probably because i never search for jobs before, i feel very depressed when i see companies rejecting me, and that really adds pressure to me. It makes me feel i am not wanted. So i face a hard time and accelerate my job applications that i apply for all jobs that i feel i can handle the task requirements and that i feel i have a great chance to be selected. Anyway, i am still unemployed now. xD Sigh.

Well, my friends told me that i should actually enjoy my sweet holiday and never get too worry. But i am too unlucky. I am a person who never get satisfied to only sit at home without doing anything. I feel myself get rotten if i am in that situation. Some said this is called unlucky to have no chance to enjoy relaxing life! Hahaz. But seriously, i feel happier if my time is filled with things to do. So what to do? Find job. xD

Okay, update until here. See ya!

Companies have so many applicants! How should i make myself outstanding? 

PS: Anyway, as i start attending interviews, i will get less and less pressured. Perhaps interview experience is also a good thing. xD

December 29, 2012

11.36AM

It's TARC Graduation Season!

Finally, after waiting for 10 months, the day has arrived! Starting from the day before (2 Nov 2012) we were busy especially for my family because we were going for family photo shooting. And because the gown must be returned at the same day at which the graduation ceremony was held, we have to squeeze our photo shooting into Friday afternoon. So this made us to start busy since Friday morning until Saturday night, and i have to attend class on Sunday, making myself having not enough sleep for 3 days consecutively. This was a true tiring event that i ended up sleep until 9 am on Monday morning. 

I was late to collect gown on Friday and ended up taking S size with large cutting because there were no difference between my sis' M size and my S size. How ridiculous! And we headed to studio for photo shooting at around 3.30pm allowing time for makeup and hairdo. The makeup was very nice and i tried to observe so that i could create similar effect with my own makeup on the graduation day though i still have a lot to learn. The photo shooting was fine and the photos were nice. We went back home at around 7pm and settled down everything by almost 9pm. So we had not much time for Facebook and rest. The most pity person was my beloved sister who still need to do revision for next week test! 

So i woke up at 6.30am for makeup and breakfast. I spent about one hour for makeup and i felt this is really ridiculous! I didn't even have time to properly eat breakfast. Arriving at college, i dashed to registration point and was then busy helping each other to wear gown. Mom was busy choosing the bouquets for us. 

We entered the hall at about 920am and the ceremony started. There were no VIP this year except the principal of Tunku Abdul Rahman so the ceremony start punctually at 10am.

After the ceremony, we were busy taking photos around the college. The surrounding was packed with graduates and it's quite hard for us to move around with such huge and heavy gown. And one fact mustn't be ignored - IT'S REALLY HOT!!! 

I didn't capture much, only these: 

Babe

Sister

Family

Assignment team members

Lecturer - Dr. Janice

So after the ceremony we headed for food and home later. Babe was too tired that he fell deeply asleep until the dinner time and we dashed to Queensbay for a dinner with friends. 

Thanks to Ting Ern for all the UK funny stories! It made up our night. 

At last, i slept at 12.30am. LOL. On Sunday, i took the photos. 

And that's it. The end of TARC life. Doubt i will miss it, but it is certain that i will miss TARC more than Sum Sun and PCGHS - more things to learn, more people to interact, more challenging life and more excitement.

Nov 05, 2012

6.15PM 

Nature of human

Well, let's make a quick summary on some of my thoughts and discussions tonight.

1. Humans often look and listen to matters from one sided. 
This is absolutely true because i have experienced it not long ago. When people start to avoid you and show their annoyance on you, you will know something has happened, without giving you any chance on clarifying the situation. The most upset fact is the one who often influences people in this way is the one "SEEM" to be very pity and being bullied by the one who "DOESN'T EVEN HAVE CHANCE TO CLARIFY", and due to sympathy people often believe the one "SEEM TO BE BULLIED". Most of those people are intelligent people and those who think themselves intelligent and correct. I was once people like this that i made conclusion very quick and thoughtless. And i would say my babe who is not this type of people helps a lot in triggering my thought from different sides.

Nevertheless this situation can't be helped as this is human nature. Less people will view things from two sides, rationally and objectively. So we have this called “潛意識”.

2. Humans often can't differentiate between discussing and criticizing. 
For instance, a friend posts a status that will trigger discussion. You go and comment something against that status stance because you do not agree with the view and so you share out your thoughts. However most of the time people will think you purposely object and make him/her "faceless", or that you hate that so much that you have to mess up the comments of their status. Well, in reality, most of the times these are just discussion. People will definitely have different stances and this is completely fine. Discussion often triggers thoughts to view things from different side and we learn from that. Sadly most of the people do not know how to LEARN.

Nevertheless humans are emotional animals. People will often facts with emotions without realizing they allow their emotions to overtake the brain cells in interpreting things.

3. Humans often think themselves deserves a lot of things. 
Okay, we can view this from guys' point-of-view and girls'. Very sorry but i have to say girls nowadays are very, or perhaps too, dominant in relationship. I often see quotes like "girls who are helping guys to save money shouldn't be treated badly by guys", which sounds very correct, but in contrast the post titled "the function of boyfriends" lists down 18 "functions" of boyfriends, as if bfs must have these "functionality" to be qualified as bfs. I mean, hello girls, you think helping in saving is a great job and should be appreciated, but the 18 jobs bfs have done for you are like granted? Then i tell you you don't even WORTH to have that bf.
And guys often think they deserve pretty girls at their side. Should you be gifted a mirror for self clarification? I wouldn't want to say much d as this sickness of guys are already too common that AGAIN emotions have overtaken the objectivity of guys in viewing themselves and how much they deserve.

Nevertheless, no people is obligated to treat anyone good and no people is obligated to be treated good as well. I always believe this sentence that i appreciate everything people have done for me and i hope people will do the same to me. No one deserves anything until the one has done something.

Kind of disagree with my points? Always feel free to comment as i can differentiate between discussing and criticizing, at lease. xD

Nov 1, 2012

11.27PM

Graduation, finally

Finally, the day that i have been waiting for since January has almost arrived. Although i have experienced it before it still brings excitement to me. It is kind of a symbol or representation to me and a ceremony after which i can finally get my graduation certificate (because of this cert i almost couldn't claim my ACCA exemption!). Anyway, i am still very looking forward to the moment of walking towards the center of the stage.

Many changes occurred between this period (Jan-Nov). People have been choosing their own separated path and we are no longer moving as a group or class like before. Some go for degree, some go for ACCA, some go for both and some choose to work. No matter which path is chosen, i still sincerely hope everyone is doing good in anywhere they belong.

And of course, the one big thing is i have found the one. I think until my marriage only i will confirm with you whether he is the one in the rest of my life, but by now i am happy with it. It's already near 7 months ad i still didn't see conflict in our thought. Okay look carefully, it is THOUGHT. Now i feel the thing that holds on a relationship is THOUGHT. When two person have the same thought and believes, they will work hard towards the same direction for the purpose of arriving at same destination.

So i guess until now i feel grateful for meeting him, and i feel grateful that he understands me well. Sometimes i don't even need to explain more that he would know what i mean by a sentence. I think this also means he views matters in the same way as mine. If i say i dislike a person, i don't even need explain why but he knows the reasons and thinks the same. That's really a type of relationship that i have long waited. I can present the true side of myself freely in front of him without worries, and i don't need to explain or be scared off misunderstanding when interacting with him.

So i guess with him, i don't even need many friends. If you already have someone who thoroughly understands you, you would rather talk to him instead of other people to whom you can't freely talk and those who do not have the same thought with you and view things differently.

=)

Nov 1, 2012

10.28PM

Cute and handsome babe of mine

I know i am not beautiful enough to be the focus. I just wanna draw your attention to my cute and handsome babe. xD

xD xD xD

October 03, 2012

11.19PM

Dating

I remember one of my friends exclaimed when she saw my sis following me while so called "dating". And everyone are pointing fingers on me causing myself to believe i really did wrong at that time. Until last few months when i first told my babe about this issue, his first reaction made me shocked: "What can't your sis follow us?"

According to him, as long as he is with me, that's dating. It doesn't matter with who i am bringing, even though there is a huge group of friends, he doesn't mind, as long as i am with him. This made me rethink my perception. Could it be possible that the matter is just some people couldn't accept it, or i should say it's probable that most people could not accept this, but there are still some who are more realistic and considerate.

I wouldn't say that friend of mine is wrong or what 'cause that is her perception and thinking. She might have the fortune in her life to enjoy her little world with only her beloved and ignore others. And maybe this is the case for most of my friends who are pointing fingers on me too.

But sadly such luxurious life is not for me. Love is not about two-person matter, but it's about two-families matter. And i am so glad to have found someone who understands this and does not always stress on two-persons private moment. I mean of course private moment is important, but it isn't necessary to happen only in shopping malls. For us, two persons spending a day reading books at home can also be a sweet private moment. So we don't see there is any problems of bringing family members for outing as we value every moment we spend together.

"As long as you're at my side."

You have a great life, and i have a simple life to work hard for my beloved family, now and future.

=)

And another thing is, i don't see any problem with "dating at home". Some people consider dating to only happen in outing, while this is not what i think. And they end up spending a lot and complaining they are getting fat because they have eaten a lot, or they do not have time for studies or assignments. All these are bullshit for me. Having bf/gf isn't something that should affect your daily life. If people need to "spend time for dating", that's really pity and one day they will end up being tired of this life. And dating can be cost-less, as long as humans kick off their foolish thinking of "dating=outing".

Well, i date at home. =)

October 03, 2012

11.03PM

Don't want to study blek!

I still don't want to study! blek =p =p =p

清靜

雖然不敢說自己是什麽“智者”，可是其實一早就領悟到了“沉默”的好處。很多時候不關自己的事還是少說為妙，多聼但不多講才是智者所為。明明知道這個道理，有時候還是無法忍受的要去評論。
Argh, one para in Chinese caused me to death. LOL. What i meant was, in this society, it's better to listen rather than comment. I have known it for a long time but it's very hard for opinion-based people like me to do so. I accept people's opinion and won't get angry or annoyed by opinions in different direction. And then i realize i expect others to do the same - foolish me. This world consists of people with different characteristics and most of the people are emotional - they can't accept criticism easily. And they can't accept different opinions easily too.
So perhaps i should just lessen my comments and listen to others. I am trying my very best in this few days, starting with facebook, and i hope this will last.
And hey, listening sometimes bring humour!
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If you know what i mean. xD

Sep 05, 2012

9.51PM

Another style...

Another one from which i gain satisfaction. 

This idea was very spontaneous, i have no original plan when i blew my hair. I was just thinking to make it curl so that my hair has 'volume' but not messy. The moment when i tried to tie it up i liked the effect and so this was done. 

Sorry if my foolishness and skill-less fact have made you laugh, i hope my this little satisfaction does not hurt your eyes. =)

Ta-dah!

The side view.

And this is after the event, you can see lots of baby hair coming out. It was a home-based event so i didn't apply mousse and make-up. 

And this is my handsome babe. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

Sep 02, 2012

11.35AM

Most satisfied

This is by far the most satisfied hairstyle of mine recently. Those to expert this maybe nonsense and rubbish, but to me i am very satisfied as this is only made up by a small clip, hair dryer and round comb. So i would say i am very happy with the result, will stick to this style by now. xD

Seeing the Difference

I told one of my friends before that i must send my kids to Chinese school for better discipline. But now i am rethinking my this decision.

I am from Chinese school, and all the while i have been thinking Chinese school is the best in controlling discipline. This is true in fact, until now i never deny it. What alters my thought is - is being discipline that good?

You know i have been doing excellently in my discipline, handing in assignments in time, being punctual to class (most of the time la xD), finishing all the homework, etc etc etc. But being a very disciplined student, i don't feel myself is happy (errr i mean not really happy being a good student, you get me?). What's the point being a well-known so called "GOOD" student with all the good comments from lecturers but not really happy about this achievement and didn't really know what this achievement is all about and how it helps?

So i was thinking, what is meant by discipline? Discipline is behaving good, not doing things in a wrong way, and saying good words, huh? It may be that i don't seek for others compliments and i don't commit myself to impress people, i don't feel like acting as a 100% human. So i don't feel like behaving in a way people wish, i just wanna be myself; and i don't feel like doing things in the way that people think is right because i have my own judgments; and i don't feel like saying good words to people who very obviously does not deserve that.

I think the more valuable moral value is being "responsible" instead of discipline. Humans are different in nature, but discipline attempts to integrate people to behave in the same way. So i feel being responsible is more important, knowing what you do and preparing to accept any possible consequences. Learning from every experience and taking those as reference.

Here comes the question on my mind that why some people cannot accept their own flaws? I mean humans make mistakes, this is norm. So what's important is to learn from mistakes. I've been told that it may be that some humans are offended from past experience. But for me, past experience is treasure, it teaches us what we can't learn from textbook. I accept the mistakes i've made in the past, and i don't avoid it. But somehow i understand why some people avoid it, just for comfort i guess. I hope those people are not trying to hide all past mistakes and build a "window dressing" profile for themselves.

And here, i feel Chinese ed students are not good in this area. This is because (i dunno about other schools but) i've been taught to have no mistakes. I've been looked down for a poorer result in a particular sem, and i've been punished for being careless in my job. I am not saying punishments are wrong or i don't deserve punishments, i am just saying the punishments designed by my teachers are in the way that "trains" or should we say "constructs" us to be a perfect human. The punishments tell us, mistakes are not allowed to be a human with good credential. So i guess this is the reason for "window dressing" profile - we hope everything is the best for ourselves, so we don't face mistakes. Until last year, i think i still behave in this way.

But isn't learning from mistakes good?

The more people i see, the more doubtful i get. I wouldn't make any conclusion about Chinese ed and English ed, but i realize something - it all depends on human's personality and the way he/she is brought up. Family education is far most important. I hope i can provide a good one for my children. =)

And a little conclusion i've made for myself - When human gets older, she will finally develop her own justice and opinions. Then she will notice the difference between humans, and realize what she has been holding as principles are exactly how she is educated, but not what she wants.
PS: That "she" represents me. =D

Aug 14, 2012

11:22 PM

Day of cooking

This is my sausage octopus!!! Shall make more in different pattern in future. xD

Short of Idea

I was thinking it has been a long time since my last visit and post and so i opened a new tab and went into blogger dash board. I glanced through the updated blog posts that i follow and clicked on stat which is my usual habit. This was when i shocked that someone or perhaps some people in United Kingdom viewed my blog the most, i mean the click from United Kingdom into my blog was the highest. Whoever you are, thanks for the support. =DDDD

Okay, talk about the reason i didn't visit for a long time - I AM SHORT OF IDEA! Well, I admit i ain't a romantic person. I wouldn't take pictures of my food and landscape around and get them posted with long captions. I also wouldn't write much review of any movies as i am very forgetful person that i wouldn't be able to remember every single scene in the movie and i find that with such personality it's hard to write review. And i wouldn't talk about drama because i simply don't watch LOL!

Okay, what about daily life? Someone might suggest: "You can post about what happen around!". Errrr what happen around ar??? Well, it must be something that is very extraordinary for me to remember and spend time posting. Thank god that my life isn't too hard that many obstacles are around. And basically my life isn't exciting - i don't club, don't celebrate much for festival, don't join events, don't travel, don't have much friends, don't hang out much (when i am occupied like now), don't work, don't interact with much people, etc. Boring, huh?

Some people asked me: "What are you doing when you don't even watch drama?" And i stunned. True, on what did i spend my time? Until now i still couldn't find very perfect answer, i would say it is spent on ACCA studies and facebook??? Then i must be very hard working. =.= Hmm Perhaps also interaction with family members - jogging, pasar, hanging out, shopping, etc? Hmm whatever it is, i just always make sure my day is not wasted.

So you see, i don't have much chances to snap photos and post, and basically i don't have such habit as well. So what to blog? So you can see usually my posts are about my inner feelings. Recently it is less basically because of some reasons: my feeling is conquered by somebody more important and no space for other issues; and also i have been learning to care less on matters which i shouldn't have cared much.

First of all, i am bored in this combination of characteristics. Don't like me? Fine, i am not waking up everyday to impress you. LOL Babe said one. Sometimes we just couldn't avoid criticism because there are such people who don't like us. As we also complain people, we should let people to criticize us as well. LOL.

Then, we couldn't avoid the personalities variation of people around us. Some people are fake but they didn't know that i know; are rude that thinking their way of speaking and acting are fashion and style; are foolish until they didn't realize it has been shown thoroughly; are childish and act like children to "count" with you; are proud thinking they are the best and have the best; are cunning in making friends with purpose; and some act innocent so that people will care more about them and what we did to them is definitely wrong; etc. We are not perfect enough to criticize them and we have no right to blame them. All we can do is complaining to our beloved, and let the matter passes. So though i was stupid before, i now think it is not necessary for me to endanger my health by getting angry on such people.

So.. less blog. =D

But i couldn't deny that sometimes some matters still bother us, of course with less magnitude. Sometimes i also will be frustrated: "Why the hell is there such people in the world?!"

But i always remind myself with this quote: "Sometimes we need to forget some people from our past because they just don't belong in our future." And also "People we have met and do not get along well with are the people who will not be participating in your future life". So sometimes if we think over again, some people and matters actually aren't worth too much attention from us.

Live happily and stay alert. I should and will just let people be how they are right now. Just don't take advantage on people and don't let people taking advantage on us. =)))

July 29, 2012

4.10PM

Study moment

Practice time again! One thing i like about ptpl is the lecturer forces us to complete the exercise (she calls that assignment) every week and we are required to hand in. Also the feedback is awesomely fast! 
No pain no gain. Nothing is easy especially acca. Babe is also having hard time struggling in P2. But more important is we are working hard together, supporting each other to deal with such hardship. Hope all of us can successfully pass through this big obstacle!! All the best everyone!!!

19 July 2012 
22.35pm

T_T

Caught cold and starve. T_T

<3

 He insisted to show how handsome he is to prove my previous blog content. LOL. 

何苦

我常常跟別人說：“爲什麽要去喜歡一個看都知道跟你不可能的人？”

可是其實我了解他們的心態。人基本上都是這樣的 —— 得不到的永遠都是最好的。有些人或事，可能因爲一直都在身邊了，所以並不會想擁有，一些不屬於自己的東西。這心態我真的了解。

我或許。。。曾經。。。也這樣吧。遇到比較特別的，就毫不猶豫愛上了，拒他人於千里之外。

好。愛上了，沒話説。可是人就是犯賤，那個已經是不可能的人了，還一副對你愛理不理的樣子，可是我們偏偏就喜歡。

今早看到一個po寫：“女生是否覺得，特別有吸引力？” 其實不能否認的，這是chemical effect，我相信不只是女生，男生也一樣，都不會被一味奉承的人動心，因爲他們在我們眼裏沒有個性，也就沒有吸引力。所以，儘管一副無所謂的衰樣，我們還是會不知不覺摘下去。

我repost那個東西，可是我加了一句：“if the guy is still arrogant, the girl will eventually leave him too. At lease for me, i don't like to impress people who doesn't even know how to appreciate me.”

這是我的領悟，或許曾經，我也有相關的經歷，任憑我怎麽努力，還是覺得空虛，因爲縂覺得自己在打沒有人接的球。這種感覺其實很累的，可是犯賤的人們都還會抱著希望，希望有一天他可能會看到我們的努力，希望有一天他會接我們的球。所以就這樣一直等、一直等。。。終于有一天醒過來了。

爲什麽我要這樣作賤自己？我沒做錯什麽，爲什麽必須受到這樣的懲罰？爲什麽我要拒絕他人的關心，只是爲了迎合一個不知道儅我是誰的霸氣傢伙？？？我不應該這樣被對待的，我也有被疼愛的權利！

於是，他就出現了。我不敢說他完美，但至少他願意分享他的一切，願意和我承擔，願意和我一起努力。
他讓我知道，被疼愛是不用苦苦哀求的，是我deserve的東西。
他讓我知道，我可以是一個人的全部，而不是有空才找出來聊聊天、可有可無的對象。
他讓我知道，我deserve別人的努力，而不是只是我一味的在付出。
他也讓我知道，有人可以光明正大牽著我，跟全世界宣佈我就是他的女人，後果一起承擔。

一切一切的美好我都從他身上深深的體會到了。可能在閲讀得你會覺得等多一年兩年瓶頸就出來了。或許吧，但是我從不後悔我的選擇，怎樣都好，至少我努力過，不是單方面的那種。

還有，也不管你怎麽想。。。

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他，真，的，是，帥，到，不，行！

I never stare at a guy like the way i stare at him. He will ask "why? what happen?" Nah, nothing, i just wanna spend my time looking at your handsome face. =DDDD

可是不可以一直稱讚，現在已經夠厚臉皮料，尾巴會飛起來！


有些人，沒有想過會在一起，卻自然而然的在一起了。

=)

June 28, 2012

12.08AM

Tearing

用我的一生來換你的快樂。

June 13, 2012

2.23PM

Birthday

Wow, i still haven't written any post in June! So i shall start with my birthday. Kekezzz

I always thought my birthday is easy to remember as it is on 6 June. Fairly easy to remember yea? Haha. Thinking back the birthday celebrations i have had in the past, i've got the wishes from friends and family. However this year, i don't have any celebration partly due to my preparation for coming ACCA exams. And partly due to my thought - i don't think there is necessary to actually celebrate birthday. I would be very happy if i am still healthy and happy with all the people i love staying beside me.

Celebrations and presents are just tangible symbols. For me, the things that really build us a happy life are not physically possessed. Things like happiness do not simply come from celebrations and presents. It is felt by heart. =)

June 13, 2012

2.21PM