A DAY BEFORE FIRST FINAL IN ADVANCE

Okay, notice the title? First final in advance! It seems scary, huh? In fact, IT IS SCARY. However, as usual, today i should not let myself facing much pressure. This is my study style. Usually, i won't be studying one day before the exam, but this time, it's really hard to do because i haven't finished what i am supposed to revise! So i still have to work on it even one day before final. Tomorrow is English paper, so i started revising for job application, meeting skills and presentation skill this morning, being effectively finished by 3pm. This is a shock, i didn't expect myself to finish such early. So, yeah, now should be my happy hour. =D

Okay, one day before first final, it makes me quite tension yet excited. I don't like the environment in CA and for me CA is sometimes too cold to sit for exam comfortably. So i look forward to sitting exam in CP, though based on usual experience, the air-con always breaks down. But at lease it should be more comfortable than CA, maybe? And i am very curious about the time management things. Most lecturers are telling us that we should properly and efficiently manage our time well to answer the questions. They mentioned until as if we will definitely be rushing for time towards the end. This is really scary for me. I start to be doubtful because i am not really used to plan the time though i did do some time calculation in the exam before. I hope this small little thing will actually help me in sitting advance diploma exam. I will take this final as experience for the time management part.

Now, what am i supposed to do? I plan to rest for the whole day! =D But this is clearly just a stupid DREAM! I need to cover my MIS Tutorial 5 & 6 today, hopefully i can finish those. And at night only i will take a good rest, sleep early and wake up early. I really need to be early tomorrow! T.T


 The most important thing before exam is definitely... 
SLEEP!

August 27, 2010

3.57PM

STUDY DAYS

I am at home studying now because all my friends are not gathering together for revision. So i started my life on revision plus facebook, and perhaps blog. =) Well, it is quite expected that i switch on my laptop every morning as soon as i wake up and sit in front for a while (perhaps 1 hour, which is actually NOT A WHILE), and have my breakfast plus reading newspaper, another one hour passed. The problem is before these, i lay on bed for another hour, just because of lazy. =( I am such not motivated nowadays, i feel that just a few days before, i still manage to wake up at 7 because of appointment with friends. So my conclusion is, i really need someone to push me. =D

Anyway, don't think that i have wasted my time, i do study. =) The thing is, i realized that i can't memorize everything in advance syllabus. I mean, it is really crazy to memorize EVERYTHING because it is A LOT. Besides, the questions, based on pass year, are not really direct questions that you can answer by pouring out what you have memorized. So this fact actually motivates me to persuade myself NOT TO MEMORIZE. So i don't really memorize AFA except for some important facts. On these three days, hence, i have not realized much improvement in my "knowledge" tank. There is uncertainty in my mind and i am quite doubtful whether i can really answer the questions. But it's alright, since i have decided not to memorize and there is insufficiency of time for me to regret for my decision, i shall just let it go. =D

Tomorrow i shall start my MIS revision, and i don't really know what to revise because the syllabus is so wide! MIS is the one giving me most headaches besides Audit. I now feel that i really like English subjects as i can study on Friday and take the exam on Saturday!

Went to some blogs motivating my friends to study smart and wishing them the best. I also hope for the best for myself. Someone did ask me whether i want to get another flat in my advance life. I mean, wow, this is such a great dream and i did dream before, but i dare not even think and plan about it. I mean, it's surely nice to get results with flying colours right? So this is what i dream. But it surely has its difficulties too! You must give up something like facebook, movies, redbox, chit-chat, blogging, lazy time, etc. which i can't make it, and even if i can, it still doesn't guarantee the flat. So this is what i dare not even think and plan. 'Cause i've learnt one thing - if you put high hope, and if you don't get it, you'll be in great depress. So i won't hope for anything higher than my own ability. By now, i guess my ability is, perhaps, 3.75??

But actually i don't really have any aim, be honest, from UPSR until now. People said no aim no pressure, but actually it's wrong. My pressure come from myself. I don't have aim but i have a characteristics that i will force myself to study if i think i am ABLE to STUDY it. This was what i did when i was taking SPM Sejarah. It made me cry almost everyday for a certain period. Anyway, this nightmare is over, and i am really happy in college.

So i don;'t have aim, be serious, but i plan my study according to my ability, so there is pressure as well. It was even worse last time until Gino told me "Don't be too stubborn and ask for everything to be perfect. You should sometimes give up something to make your life easier". This is nice. Until now i still wanna thank him "Muacks Muacks Muacks" =D

So i wanna say - I AM NOT PERFECT, so my result need not be perfect; but if it is, then will be the best. =D (persuading myself and finding excuses for not getting good results.=D)


Phew! Luckily my books aren't that much! =D

August 25, 2010

10.28PM

PREFERENCE

Sometimes people will have own preference. So it's not that i don't want to study at home, but the attractions are too much. My dad is on night shift this week, so there is no problem in the morning. But in the afternoon, the tv will be switched on. And there is no study environment, be honest. So that's why i like to go over my friend's place because there is a study environment which everyone is studying together. However, my mom seems not to be too willing to let me go. I understand, she will think that i might not study but talk instead, or i busy teaching others instead of studying myself. But i am concern about my result much more than other people. So i won't let myself ruin my own revision plan. Hmm, anyway, just see how things go lo.. =D

August 23, 2010

7.05PM

CAN I STOP THIS??

Just one day apart from the study group, i spent the whole morning facing the computer. Why? Why? I just can't get my eyes off the computer. I mean, even if there is nothing important to do, i will find thing to do, and it made me spending my whole morning on the net. How can i stop this? I think i gonna leave my house again starting tomorrow. If not, i dunno when i can finish studying audit.
Okay now, i shall start my revision. =)

Bye, comp.

August 22, 2010

12.15PM

REALITY

Actually i want to write this for a long time, but i just keep quiet because i don't want to cause trouble and arguments again. But patient has its own limitation. Beyond certain extent, i really cannot stand.
I make this RESTRICTED is because, i admit, i really scared people quoting my blog again. I let some people seeing this, but i dunno how they will respond or what they will do... But just, i really want to express my feeling.
Recently, something happened, and people are separated into two parts. Actually i have not much comments on who is right and who is wrong, because after all, argument is always caused by two sides. But now i get the meaning of this separate - because of different point-of-view. I mean, everyone views things in different ways, and i finally discover that i am more towards THIS way.
Actually everything started here. I admit to some extent, it is really my fault. And then everything just came. I also wish everything is not the way i thought but it is just so obvious. Is there really no purpose of leaving a gap between, physically and mentally? And is it really meant to be the best arrangement when we are left as if we are outsiders? Is it really because of avoiding to interrupt my schedule when we are not included? Are those signs? To me, yes, and i was once very angry. But now, i just let it go.
Anyway, this might just be my own opinion and feeling, but consideration should also be taken on the reasons making me feel this way. But it is really useless and unnecessary to blame people. I mean, privacy and right still stand, we can't interrupt. So i just take it easy.
Then a THING causes comments. Actually i understand the feeling. But be honest there is nothing wrong. Even this is done in purpose, no one can be blamed bcoz of RIGHTS. But i want to say a reality - THE THING HAS NO OTHER PURPOSES! If the truth is going to be twisted, i have nothing to say also.
And the leakage is getting bigger and bigger becoz of this. The biggest surprise is really a shock to us. I don't understand why this is happening. Even if something wrong has been done, people do not deserve to be treated like this. I get rather irritated that day, though thing is not happening on me. I just can't believe this to happen. This is rather obvious about who is wrong, well, it should be, who is in the greater disadvantage. Yet no sorry at all but telling the victim not to make the things worst. In another words, it's like "okay lah, just forget about it lah!" What? Oh i really cannot accept and so i really don't talk since that.
And now, things have become the worst. I think people with eyes will all know about this. But i won't want to comment much. Just let it be.

August 11, 2010
11.17PM

THE DAY IN QUEENSBAY

At first we planned to ask classmates for movie, but thing turned up to watching movie with dearest pig and sis. We spent our day in Queensbay, starting from 4pm, eating at the food court (economic feasible =D).

Shot by sis.. I was trying to finish everything on the table =D

Then, we watched “Love In Disguise”.

It was nice, in the sense that there is a STORYLINE (or i should say the content is good) and there are nice actors and actresses. Lee Hom directed the movie for the first time, and i personally think it is really a good job from him. There is enough humour, and though it is a love story, it doesn’t seem to be really sad and romantic. Things just happened naturally and that is what i like – natural. As a conclusion, it is more to my style, so i just like it. =D

After movie. Strolling in mall. My sis and i were in Moliform just a few mins ago and this guy stayed outside.

After that, we met my dad and mom and had dinner in Dragon-i. Mom was complaining about the service – it’s getting worse nowadays. Well, i personally felt that they should hire more waiters because from what i saw, they couldn’t provide service as prompt as before. Anyway, i was still satisfied with the food, though mom was complaining as well. =D

Finally…

August 13, 2010

11.23PM

POOR HER!

She didn’t do anything wrong, so she doesn’t deserve this. I don’t know about others, but for me, she is not that bad at lease. I mean, and i understand, everyone will face the first experience in life. This is her first experience of lecturing advance diploma students, it’s quite normal that her performance didn’t meet our expectation. Her teaching method is not the best for us maybe, and she maybe didn’t consider the overall level of everyone. But is this her problem? I mean, is this all her problem? Sometimes i don’t want to say this but as advance diploma students, we must know how to be self-motivated – to study for ourselves. I mean, there is no way people providing everything for you and you just swallow everything and vomit out in the exam. Study and revision are own effort. TARC is already so good that materials are provided for us. So, my opinion is, we should work for ourselves and lecturers are there for us to clear our doubt, that’s all. Also, I received complaints about her aggressive attitude. Maybe this is her problem and it really irritates some people. I understand that different people have different attitude, like me, i don’t think people can bear with me as well. However, for me, if you are good to a person, that person will be good to you as well, though this is not the case for everytime.

For me, i will still consider her as a good lecturer ‘cause i saw her effort of guiding and teaching us, using the best way of her, preparing notes and study materials for us, and yet there is still people not appreciating. I start to worry and wonder, will i face the same situation as what she is facing now? ‘Cause i feel that my attitude and characteristics are quite the same as hers. Sometimes i do care too much for certain things, and i will also get very emotional for the things that i really care about. And from the way i talk and i react, i do receive complaints that sometimes i tend to look down on people. Though i never mean that, but people interpret in that way. So i totally can understand her feeling. I wish to talk to her and comfort her actually – empathy – i can feel what she is feeling.

Hmm, if one day i become a lecturer, i will most probably face the same situation as hers. Though i am trying to control, but it really needs time. I believe that she also needs time to rearrange her mood and thinking – not to care too much and not to be too aggressive and emotional. I think we should definitely give her a chance – because after all, she is good.

Poor her, it is really not her problem! Cheer up, miss! ^^ We will be by your side. ^^

August 9, 2010

6.47PM

Messy AFA Test!!!

Okay, this time, we messed up AFA test again! My god, test 2 i did careless mistakes and test 1 (which i took for fun) i didn’t even know how to do the whole question! My god.

Okay, for test 2, i am still quite satisfied since i did a small mistake about the final dividend, which i carelessly omitted the date. I hated myself, but i couldn’t change the reality, so i decided to just let it be. For other parts, i think i got it correct, at lease i was happy that i could balance up the accounts. Now, here came the MESSIEST test 1 where i actually regretted to take it! It was so messy and made me actually smash my calculator in the exam hall! I mean, i didn’t know how to do question3 and question4 at all! Okay, when i first looked at the questions, i decided to leave it first and jumped to question5. When i actually finished question5, Ms Low just announced, “For question5, in advance changes to in arrear”. I was like, “WHAT???? I JUST FINISHED IT!!!!” So immediately i shouted, “Who said cannot!” Then i was like a mad person searching for errors in my answer script, and finally i decided to ask, “Why cannot do??” Though Ms Low said she will mark me correct, i just left my answer and was not willing to think anymore. I mean, this was so unfair to me that i just spent my time on the question and FINISHED it and suddenly the requirement was changed! So, i decided to give up, whether correct or wrong, it didn’t matter anymore.

And maybe because of this, it spoilt my beautiful and joyful mood of taking the paper. I started to be blank in my mind, couldn’t even think of how to start for question4. I mean, I NEVER SEE IT BEFORE and it was so different from what i expected. But this was my fault because as a student, i should do my studies before taking the test. I admitted that i DID NOT STUDY. =P Okay, this is not really shameful to me ‘cause the main intention of taking the test, for me personally, is to test how much i can do without doing revision. And i finally know that i can’t do the test without revising. So this is something call alert to me perhaps, to force me to do revision no matter how. Anyway, back to the topic, so i gave up question4 and looked at question3. This was an angry one, when i at first did it correct and finally I CHANGED MY ANSWER! I can’t believe that i actually changed my answer! I mean, at firstly i did it PERFECTLY CORRECT, but because of the ruined mood, i couldn’t decide for myself whether what i did was correct. So i decided to follow others. However, this is my fault as well because i changed the answer myself. But be honest, i couldn’t say that i didn’t blame others, i just blamed myself more. Anyway, now i’ve learnt another lesson, which is DECIDING EVERYTHING BY MYSELF WHEN I AM SITTING FOR EXAM. Okay, my fault, the main mistake is – I DIDN’T DO MY REVISION!

So this is the messy AFA Test. I hope i can get good marks for test 2. For test 1, i wanna quote a famous Cantonese saying - NO EYES TO SEE!

Really no eyes to see…

July 7, 2010

10.03PM