If you ask how good my result is, i wouldn't say it is very good. If it is to be aligned to TARC grading system, i didn't get As for all three subjects. However, i would be very contented on the achievement, as in i am not striving for world top or Malaysia top award. If i were to work hard i know very best that i might be able to achieve, but i just choose not to.
My friends must have thought that all the time i really worked hard for my exams, but i seriously don't think so. I still feel myself very lazy on studies and always allocate not enough time for revision. But of course i will make sure myself to cover the main areas that myself feel i should have known. If i were to tell this to anyone (especially some type of people) they would have said me proud, something like "you don't lie la, you cannot meh?" or "hao lian la! I don't want to listen to you!" will be heard. But never mind, people who don't know you always comment nonsense. Dog barks at people they don't know. =P
Anyway, my point is - i am not a perfectionist, i don't want to live in pressure and at the end i don't know for what i am fighting. I wouldn't want to have a life that i fight for awards and recognitions from others, achieving marvelous result in career, but remain empty in private life. I wouldn't want myself to work hard during day time but eventually return to a spacious but dark home. I just feel that there are some other valuable things besides my career that will light up my life.
So just a moderate life will be enough for me - pass my exams, graduate, get a stable job, and maintain a moderate family. My career goal? I would prefer people to ask "my life goal". =)
May 16, 2012
3.14 PM
