IDEAL TYPE?

Since i was very young until now, i've been asked several times about my ideal type. What kind of man do i actually like? I was quite puzzle at first as i never thought about this before. After several repeats, i told people "see feel lo, got feel mah can d lo." Then later on i discovered feel is not everything. So i told others "personality must match lo." Then i started to question myself - what kind of personality do i mean???

I think its quite essential to first address mine. I am a blunt, rational people. I am definitely not the one who is romantic. Spending money to book the whole cinema in order to propose appeared to be very thoughtless and foolish to me as i think the money spent can be just deposited in banks to earn interest - the most secure return. I know, i am super dull, i am scolded by my mom too for being too bored and not aware of the importance of "being romantic occasionally". Well, i wouldn't say i won't change, as for me, when a person is in love, he/she might probably become more romantic than he/she thought would be, right? So as i am single now, i wouldn't comment much about this.

But i am very certain that i am rather rational. Things are wrong when they are, regardless of who did those. So i am quite careless about the relationship effect, and i guess this makes me to have less friends. Well, it's okay because i am not so afraid of lonely. Of course that's really good to have someone share my thoughts with, but it's still not bothering me much. And being blunt, yes, rather. But i guess i've turned my way. In earlier days, i am blunt for the sake of blunt - thoughtless that type. Now, i am blunt for the sake of.... errr.... shooting people? LOL. I am evil, i know.

So i am this type of person and some people commented to me that i am over mature for my age. So my ideal type is also quite... (should i say) different from ordinary 22 years old girls. I care 0% of the look, seriously. Look isn't important at all for me, as someone will just appear to be handsome because of his attitude - this is truly happening on me. So are you thinking that i care about the attitude? Yeah, it comprises like 70%? Around that. How about the past? Well, seriously, only 20%. I actually cared about the past, but then i realized, if a person who had a terrible history now appears to be much better than other ordinary people, what's wrong? This means that he had set his mind to endure changes and he has successful! This gives him much higher value! So past isn't really something important for me already. How about the family background? Okay let's make history=15% and family background=15%, although people say love is between two persons, this is extremely wrong. I hope my relationship can be approved and accepted by every party concern, my family and his family. So, this is rather important.

So do you think i am very picky? Starting to? LOL i won't blame you, because i am. I just realized that no one ever possesses all the characteristics demanded. JUST NO ONE. There will definitely be something lacking, which makes me rather upset and *sigh*. I wouldn't say i have much experience, but those i have met, there must be something lacking. So i just realize - there won't be ideal type of husband appearing in our life. Even my mom is still complaining my dad!

So i start thinking, should i just prioritize? LOL. Then i would say i go for attitude the most. I would say, a mature guy who is caring, responsible and motivated, and loves me as me myself will be the person i want to meet the most. He can make mistakes in the past, because he will be more handsome when he learnt from mistakes. =)

Pray? LOL.

Feb-24, 2012

3.58PM

Commencement of ACCA class

So i've attended my ACCA revision class. 6 hours of studying is not a joke - it's really tiring. On the first day, i think i still concentrate quite well till the end, which i am very glad, 'cause i thought i might have lost during P2 (account practices) lesson. But towards the third day, i don't really think i can concentrate very well at the second half of the afternoon lesson. Sigh, it is tiring.

We have 6 hours of tuition per subject per week but it is still far not enough. We have to do our own studies and read newspaper and magazine to update ourselves. Well, i am rather at the "updating myself with current issues" part, as i will tend to forget everything after i read. So i was thinking to somehow jot down important points but it will consume plenty of time and end up i couldn't do other things. So i've decided to go college, maybe, every Thursday to read business magazines. I hope this at lease help. I rather agree with Miss Low who mentioned that if you read everyday, you don't even need to memorize it to remember certain things. Yeah, i believe on that too.

So from now onward, we will need to clench our teeth to study smart for our three professional papers. Add oil la everyone. =)

Feb-24, 2012

12.13 PM

Don't Judge the Book by Its Cover

WOW! I can't believe i just used IDIOM! I am so "char" in languages, even my sis laughing at my awkward Chinese, so it's kind of impressive that i used idiom. LOL. Anyway, the idiom just expresses exactly what i feel recently.

Actually i have two incidents regarding to this topic.

I've met a few friends in this week, and because there were just two of us every time, we got to chat a lot, and know each other a lot. Sometimes people do not think like what their appearances tell - now i really believe this. I remember another friend commented about other's characteristics and in reality, it is an exact opposite. Another friend that i've met yesterday told me that she holds back some words because of some reasons that she thought it's true but in reality it's not. So we opened up our minds and exchanged opinions. So this is the power of communication. I am glad that she is still someone that i can really pour out everything. =))))

And i realized that something was wrong among my friend circle. Well this actually happened long time ago, and i always knew it, it's just that i feel to write something about this now. So i think (i can't exactly be sure because i have no evidences, but i think it goes this way), i guess, comments about me are flying all over my classmates. Well, people who know will understand what i actually mean here. And i also think some people, judging me based on opinions from a single side, already stamped me to be a certain kind of person. Anyway, i don't mind losing contact with people that don't even judge the quality of the so called "opinions" and don't even bother to make effort to seek my explanation. It's just that i feel ridiculous for people to believe entirely what others have told you about ANOTHER person. Are those commenting on me my father or my mother? How much do they know me, and how objective they are? Don't you even think about this?

Anyway, I am fine with that, just feeling funny for the foolishness. For those who at lease choose to talk to me (you know who you are), i wanna tell you that i appreciate a lot and i hope you get to know me more after the talk. And i will ignore those that choose to leave.

=))))).

Feb-16, 2012

12.49PM

Dad's Birthday

아빠, 생일 축하해요!! 사랑합니다~!!

Sigh, i don't know about the spacing... 

Feb-07, 2012

3.03PM

Regretful

Haiz, i am constantly having problem with my lil stomach. I think i've treated it very well yet problems always come without anticipation.

Okay i think i will start with the history of myself for the reason of getting such a problem. I used to be very innocent and very foolish to believe that we can cut down our fat on thigh by cutting our meals. So i used to skip my teatime when i was in Form 2 and ended up being very hungry when i reached home at 8pm. Imagine you just don't eat between 11am till 8pm. WTH. I still can't believe i actually did this and ruin my health. Within a short fortnight time, my body took revenge. I visited doctors quite a few times (but only a few times) and ate some medicine as well. But it didn't really recover, because it is already impossible to be fully recovered. What a shock to hear this from my mom! I at first thought it was alright as long as i took good care of my body. But at later time i got to realize it didn't really go in the same way as you thought even though you really took great care. It will constantly come to visit you.

So i experienced my worst moment of having gastric in Form 3. I ate really less and annoyed my parents. But somehow i feel grateful that i actually ate less instead of not eating at all. That will make things worse. The problem got worse whenever i had exam, especially my SPM. I still remember i cried due to Sejarah. Stupid Sejarah.

So after entering college, things finally got better but it still came from time to time though lesser. I felt grateful as college didn't really give me much pressure compared to secondary school. (So i always say i hate secondary-school time, unlike others) And thing really reached the best when i was having my internship - i realized that i ate a lot during that! This is definitely a goodsign - i never eat so much in my lifetime! (So sometimes i feel i wanna go back to work) So i have also reached a conclusion, whenever i am busy, this problem doesn't really bother me - which means the problems majority come from my mental!

I take things too serious??? I should just eat without caring much??? Hmp.. I really hope i can do this. Hope la.

HWAITING!

Sentence to end: i realize everyone has at lease one worry in their life, well mine is not studies, monies, friends, men, family, but will be this i guess. =)))) Mom, will try my best and won't let you worry, kayzz? 사랑합니다!!

Feb-06, 2012

4.08PM

Why is KPop so successful?

I attended class yesterday about Critical Success Factors and lecturer posted this comment. He said this was the question asked during last P3 sitting. My first response was like "What? I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THAT SITTING, I CAN PROVIDE WONDERFUL ANSWER FOR THIS!"

Then he made a small discussion about the CSF. Well, of course i wouldn't be able to list all here but it's something about "catchy songs regardless vocal ability", "beautiful looks", "acting in drama regardless acting ablitities", "appear in variety shows for 4 times + a week", "perfect sync dance", and more. Basically, I AGREE. LOL. Korean idols have a full package of this. Okay maybe i shall discuss my opinion, but i am not going to answer the question.

Korean idol groups have a formula. Let's take an example - INFINITE (a rising trend in 2011).



First of all, Kpop idols have to have a visual representative in the group, so that people will easily remember the group when they make their debut. The guy with light blue trousers and white shoes is the visual of Infinite. Next, whenever there are songs, main vocals cannot be ignored. The guy with light blue trousers and black shoes, and also the guy with violet trousers are the main vocal. Followed by dance representative, the guy with bright blue trousers, as they have to undergo intensive dance practice. Idol songs usually have raps, so they need someone like the guy with red trousers. And they need more exploration to introduce themselves to the nation, so they will need variety shows representatives like the other two guys - the one in pink and the one in white. Of course they have people that can act also, the visual and the one in white.

If you analyze carefully, you will find all the idols are in this formula. Sometimes you may wonder why are there so many members in a group (take Super Junior and ZE:A) but the companies have their own reasons to arrange the group in this way. Of course they will try their best not to change the members, however the members always face the risk of being kicked out due to their mistakes and some other reasons (only president will know).

They always have the whole package of singing catchy songs, dancing in sync, acting in drama, being in variety shows, and more. The company will make sure they have this in order for the artists to gain popularity. However, i personally think we shouldn't have ignored the hardwork of these idols. I've watched some clips of idols' daily life (like maybe Ta-dah, Sesame Player (especially Infinite's), more). I am not sure whether it is scripted but i personally think even if it is, it can't be scripted much (you will know when you watch). I can see how much effort they put in in order to present a perfect show to their fans. And i can see the determination of quitting their schools (not college btw, is ELEMENTARY SCHOOL) and become the top stars. Also i am very impressed with their ability of enduring stress (this is what Malaysian should learn!).

So i personally think somehow towards some extent, they deserve the attention they are getting. So KPop is successful not only with those packages, but also with hard work. ^^ =)

Feb 03, 2012

9.55AM

How I Treat You Depends on How You Treat People

Okay some people are just too arrogant at every moment that they think they are always the best and always criticizing people. I have met some in my life. When i know this fellow i was still okay 'cause i still felt this fellow somehow blunt and straight, not pretending, which is something i actually value. But as time went by, i felt annoyed with it.

This fellow is acting arrogant as if this fellow is always the best, criticizing others and demanding something that this fellow felt very normal but it's actually very difficult to others. This fellow said he didn't talk bad things behind, he talked in front, but in fact he talked the most at the back. Well, started to feel contradict about himself. But okay, this is none of my business anyway.

However, when things stepped into my life, this is my business, already. I felt the dominance when we were working together. And still, according to this fellow, this fellow changed a lot as time goes by, but it doesn't really mean that i have to suit this fellow in every moment. After all i felt this fellow is not my boss, this fellow is somehow just my colleagues, and this fellow criticized in a very irrational way of perfectionist. I felt very disturbed with the high demand. And for my character, i won't let someone to say something not true or irrational for me, so i started shoot this fellow back. And there i guess this fellow has some feeling.

Well, i didn't really need you to teach me how to grow up. I know very well that what myself is doing. You must be thinking that i treat people in this way all the times, but it actually depends on how people treat me, and how you treat people. I won't be one of your friends that always listen to you.

(PS: I guess this fellow must be already spreading my bad words around. Think I care?)

Feb 01, 2012

11.59AM