Okay i think i will start with the history of myself for the reason of getting such a problem. I used to be very innocent and very foolish to believe that we can cut down our fat on thigh by cutting our meals. So i used to skip my teatime when i was in Form 2 and ended up being very hungry when i reached home at 8pm. Imagine you just don't eat between 11am till 8pm. WTH. I still can't believe i actually did this and ruin my health. Within a short fortnight time, my body took revenge. I visited doctors quite a few times (but only a few times) and ate some medicine as well. But it didn't really recover, because it is already impossible to be fully recovered. What a shock to hear this from my mom! I at first thought it was alright as long as i took good care of my body. But at later time i got to realize it didn't really go in the same way as you thought even though you really took great care. It will constantly come to visit you.
So i experienced my worst moment of having gastric in Form 3. I ate really less and annoyed my parents. But somehow i feel grateful that i actually ate less instead of not eating at all. That will make things worse. The problem got worse whenever i had exam, especially my SPM. I still remember i cried due to Sejarah. Stupid Sejarah.
So after entering college, things finally got better but it still came from time to time though lesser. I felt grateful as college didn't really give me much pressure compared to secondary school. (So i always say i hate secondary-school time, unlike others) And thing really reached the best when i was having my internship - i realized that i ate a lot during that! This is definitely a goodsign - i never eat so much in my lifetime! (So sometimes i feel i wanna go back to work) So i have also reached a conclusion, whenever i am busy, this problem doesn't really bother me - which means the problems majority come from my mental!
I take things too serious??? I should just eat without caring much??? Hmp.. I really hope i can do this. Hope la.
HWAITING!
Sentence to end: i realize everyone has at lease one worry in their life, well mine is not studies, monies, friends, men, family, but will be this i guess. =)))) Mom, will try my best and won't let you worry, kayzz? 사랑합니다!!
Feb-06, 2012
4.08PM
