I know i am not beautiful enough to be the focus. I just wanna draw your attention to my cute and handsome babe. xD
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October 03, 2012
11.19PM
Dating
I remember one of my friends exclaimed when she saw my sis following me while so called "dating". And everyone are pointing fingers on me causing myself to believe i really did wrong at that time. Until last few months when i first told my babe about this issue, his first reaction made me shocked: "What can't your sis follow us?"
According to him, as long as he is with me, that's dating. It doesn't matter with who i am bringing, even though there is a huge group of friends, he doesn't mind, as long as i am with him. This made me rethink my perception. Could it be possible that the matter is just some people couldn't accept it, or i should say it's probable that most people could not accept this, but there are still some who are more realistic and considerate.
I wouldn't say that friend of mine is wrong or what 'cause that is her perception and thinking. She might have the fortune in her life to enjoy her little world with only her beloved and ignore others. And maybe this is the case for most of my friends who are pointing fingers on me too.
But sadly such luxurious life is not for me. Love is not about two-person matter, but it's about two-families matter. And i am so glad to have found someone who understands this and does not always stress on two-persons private moment. I mean of course private moment is important, but it isn't necessary to happen only in shopping malls. For us, two persons spending a day reading books at home can also be a sweet private moment. So we don't see there is any problems of bringing family members for outing as we value every moment we spend together.
"As long as you're at my side."
You have a great life, and i have a simple life to work hard for my beloved family, now and future.
=)
And another thing is, i don't see any problem with "dating at home". Some people consider dating to only happen in outing, while this is not what i think. And they end up spending a lot and complaining they are getting fat because they have eaten a lot, or they do not have time for studies or assignments. All these are bullshit for me. Having bf/gf isn't something that should affect your daily life. If people need to "spend time for dating", that's really pity and one day they will end up being tired of this life. And dating can be cost-less, as long as humans kick off their foolish thinking of "dating=outing".
Well, i date at home. =)
According to him, as long as he is with me, that's dating. It doesn't matter with who i am bringing, even though there is a huge group of friends, he doesn't mind, as long as i am with him. This made me rethink my perception. Could it be possible that the matter is just some people couldn't accept it, or i should say it's probable that most people could not accept this, but there are still some who are more realistic and considerate.
I wouldn't say that friend of mine is wrong or what 'cause that is her perception and thinking. She might have the fortune in her life to enjoy her little world with only her beloved and ignore others. And maybe this is the case for most of my friends who are pointing fingers on me too.
But sadly such luxurious life is not for me. Love is not about two-person matter, but it's about two-families matter. And i am so glad to have found someone who understands this and does not always stress on two-persons private moment. I mean of course private moment is important, but it isn't necessary to happen only in shopping malls. For us, two persons spending a day reading books at home can also be a sweet private moment. So we don't see there is any problems of bringing family members for outing as we value every moment we spend together.
"As long as you're at my side."
You have a great life, and i have a simple life to work hard for my beloved family, now and future.
=)
And another thing is, i don't see any problem with "dating at home". Some people consider dating to only happen in outing, while this is not what i think. And they end up spending a lot and complaining they are getting fat because they have eaten a lot, or they do not have time for studies or assignments. All these are bullshit for me. Having bf/gf isn't something that should affect your daily life. If people need to "spend time for dating", that's really pity and one day they will end up being tired of this life. And dating can be cost-less, as long as humans kick off their foolish thinking of "dating=outing".
Well, i date at home. =)
October 03, 2012
11.03PM
清靜
雖然不敢說自己是什麽“智者”，可是其實一早就領悟到了“沉默”的好處。很多時候不關自己的事還是少說為妙，多聼但不多講才是智者所為。明明知道這個道理，有時候還是無法忍受的要去評論。
Argh, one para in Chinese caused me to death. LOL. What i meant was, in this society, it's better to listen rather than comment. I have known it for a long time but it's very hard for opinion-based people like me to do so. I accept people's opinion and won't get angry or annoyed by opinions in different direction. And then i realize i expect others to do the same - foolish me. This world consists of people with different characteristics and most of the people are emotional - they can't accept criticism easily. And they can't accept different opinions easily too.
So perhaps i should just lessen my comments and listen to others. I am trying my very best in this few days, starting with facebook, and i hope this will last.
And hey, listening sometimes bring humour!
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Argh, one para in Chinese caused me to death. LOL. What i meant was, in this society, it's better to listen rather than comment. I have known it for a long time but it's very hard for opinion-based people like me to do so. I accept people's opinion and won't get angry or annoyed by opinions in different direction. And then i realize i expect others to do the same - foolish me. This world consists of people with different characteristics and most of the people are emotional - they can't accept criticism easily. And they can't accept different opinions easily too.
So perhaps i should just lessen my comments and listen to others. I am trying my very best in this few days, starting with facebook, and i hope this will last.
And hey, listening sometimes bring humour!
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If you know what i mean. xD
Sep 05, 2012
9.51PM
Another style...
Another one from which i gain satisfaction.
This idea was very spontaneous, i have no original plan when i blew my hair. I was just thinking to make it curl so that my hair has 'volume' but not messy. The moment when i tried to tie it up i liked the effect and so this was done.
Sorry if my foolishness and skill-less fact have made you laugh, i hope my this little satisfaction does not hurt your eyes. =)
Ta-dah!
The side view.
And this is after the event, you can see lots of baby hair coming out. It was a home-based event so i didn't apply mousse and make-up.
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Sep 02, 2012
11.35AM
Most satisfied
This is by far the most satisfied hairstyle of mine recently. Those to expert this maybe nonsense and rubbish, but to me i am very satisfied as this is only made up by a small clip, hair dryer and round comb. So i would say i am very happy with the result, will stick to this style by now. xD
Seeing the Difference
I told one of my friends before that i must send my kids to Chinese school for better discipline. But now i am rethinking my this decision.
I am from Chinese school, and all the while i have been thinking Chinese school is the best in controlling discipline. This is true in fact, until now i never deny it. What alters my thought is - is being discipline that good?
You know i have been doing excellently in my discipline, handing in assignments in time, being punctual to class (most of the time la xD), finishing all the homework, etc etc etc. But being a very disciplined student, i don't feel myself is happy (errr i mean not really happy being a good student, you get me?). What's the point being a well-known so called "GOOD" student with all the good comments from lecturers but not really happy about this achievement and didn't really know what this achievement is all about and how it helps?
So i was thinking, what is meant by discipline? Discipline is behaving good, not doing things in a wrong way, and saying good words, huh? It may be that i don't seek for others compliments and i don't commit myself to impress people, i don't feel like acting as a 100% human. So i don't feel like behaving in a way people wish, i just wanna be myself; and i don't feel like doing things in the way that people think is right because i have my own judgments; and i don't feel like saying good words to people who very obviously does not deserve that.
I think the more valuable moral value is being "responsible" instead of discipline. Humans are different in nature, but discipline attempts to integrate people to behave in the same way. So i feel being responsible is more important, knowing what you do and preparing to accept any possible consequences. Learning from every experience and taking those as reference.
Here comes the question on my mind that why some people cannot accept their own flaws? I mean humans make mistakes, this is norm. So what's important is to learn from mistakes. I've been told that it may be that some humans are offended from past experience. But for me, past experience is treasure, it teaches us what we can't learn from textbook. I accept the mistakes i've made in the past, and i don't avoid it. But somehow i understand why some people avoid it, just for comfort i guess. I hope those people are not trying to hide all past mistakes and build a "window dressing" profile for themselves.
And here, i feel Chinese ed students are not good in this area. This is because (i dunno about other schools but) i've been taught to have no mistakes. I've been looked down for a poorer result in a particular sem, and i've been punished for being careless in my job. I am not saying punishments are wrong or i don't deserve punishments, i am just saying the punishments designed by my teachers are in the way that "trains" or should we say "constructs" us to be a perfect human. The punishments tell us, mistakes are not allowed to be a human with good credential. So i guess this is the reason for "window dressing" profile - we hope everything is the best for ourselves, so we don't face mistakes. Until last year, i think i still behave in this way.
But isn't learning from mistakes good?
The more people i see, the more doubtful i get. I wouldn't make any conclusion about Chinese ed and English ed, but i realize something - it all depends on human's personality and the way he/she is brought up. Family education is far most important. I hope i can provide a good one for my children. =)
And a little conclusion i've made for myself - When human gets older, she will finally develop her own justice and opinions. Then she will notice the difference between humans, and realize what she has been holding as principles are exactly how she is educated, but not what she wants.
PS: That "she" represents me. =D
I am from Chinese school, and all the while i have been thinking Chinese school is the best in controlling discipline. This is true in fact, until now i never deny it. What alters my thought is - is being discipline that good?
You know i have been doing excellently in my discipline, handing in assignments in time, being punctual to class (most of the time la xD), finishing all the homework, etc etc etc. But being a very disciplined student, i don't feel myself is happy (errr i mean not really happy being a good student, you get me?). What's the point being a well-known so called "GOOD" student with all the good comments from lecturers but not really happy about this achievement and didn't really know what this achievement is all about and how it helps?
So i was thinking, what is meant by discipline? Discipline is behaving good, not doing things in a wrong way, and saying good words, huh? It may be that i don't seek for others compliments and i don't commit myself to impress people, i don't feel like acting as a 100% human. So i don't feel like behaving in a way people wish, i just wanna be myself; and i don't feel like doing things in the way that people think is right because i have my own judgments; and i don't feel like saying good words to people who very obviously does not deserve that.
I think the more valuable moral value is being "responsible" instead of discipline. Humans are different in nature, but discipline attempts to integrate people to behave in the same way. So i feel being responsible is more important, knowing what you do and preparing to accept any possible consequences. Learning from every experience and taking those as reference.
Here comes the question on my mind that why some people cannot accept their own flaws? I mean humans make mistakes, this is norm. So what's important is to learn from mistakes. I've been told that it may be that some humans are offended from past experience. But for me, past experience is treasure, it teaches us what we can't learn from textbook. I accept the mistakes i've made in the past, and i don't avoid it. But somehow i understand why some people avoid it, just for comfort i guess. I hope those people are not trying to hide all past mistakes and build a "window dressing" profile for themselves.
And here, i feel Chinese ed students are not good in this area. This is because (i dunno about other schools but) i've been taught to have no mistakes. I've been looked down for a poorer result in a particular sem, and i've been punished for being careless in my job. I am not saying punishments are wrong or i don't deserve punishments, i am just saying the punishments designed by my teachers are in the way that "trains" or should we say "constructs" us to be a perfect human. The punishments tell us, mistakes are not allowed to be a human with good credential. So i guess this is the reason for "window dressing" profile - we hope everything is the best for ourselves, so we don't face mistakes. Until last year, i think i still behave in this way.
But isn't learning from mistakes good?
The more people i see, the more doubtful i get. I wouldn't make any conclusion about Chinese ed and English ed, but i realize something - it all depends on human's personality and the way he/she is brought up. Family education is far most important. I hope i can provide a good one for my children. =)
And a little conclusion i've made for myself - When human gets older, she will finally develop her own justice and opinions. Then she will notice the difference between humans, and realize what she has been holding as principles are exactly how she is educated, but not what she wants.
PS: That "she" represents me. =D
Aug 14, 2012
11:22 PM
Short of Idea
I was thinking it has been a long time since my last visit and post and so i opened a new tab and went into blogger dash board. I glanced through the updated blog posts that i follow and clicked on stat which is my usual habit. This was when i shocked that someone or perhaps some people in United Kingdom viewed my blog the most, i mean the click from United Kingdom into my blog was the highest. Whoever you are, thanks for the support. =DDDD
Okay, talk about the reason i didn't visit for a long time - I AM SHORT OF IDEA! Well, I admit i ain't a romantic person. I wouldn't take pictures of my food and landscape around and get them posted with long captions. I also wouldn't write much review of any movies as i am very forgetful person that i wouldn't be able to remember every single scene in the movie and i find that with such personality it's hard to write review. And i wouldn't talk about drama because i simply don't watch LOL!
Okay, what about daily life? Someone might suggest: "You can post about what happen around!". Errrr what happen around ar??? Well, it must be something that is very extraordinary for me to remember and spend time posting. Thank god that my life isn't too hard that many obstacles are around. And basically my life isn't exciting - i don't club, don't celebrate much for festival, don't join events, don't travel, don't have much friends, don't hang out much (when i am occupied like now), don't work, don't interact with much people, etc. Boring, huh?
Some people asked me: "What are you doing when you don't even watch drama?" And i stunned. True, on what did i spend my time? Until now i still couldn't find very perfect answer, i would say it is spent on ACCA studies and facebook??? Then i must be very hard working. =.= Hmm Perhaps also interaction with family members - jogging, pasar, hanging out, shopping, etc? Hmm whatever it is, i just always make sure my day is not wasted.
So you see, i don't have much chances to snap photos and post, and basically i don't have such habit as well. So what to blog? So you can see usually my posts are about my inner feelings. Recently it is less basically because of some reasons: my feeling is conquered by somebody more important and no space for other issues; and also i have been learning to care less on matters which i shouldn't have cared much.
First of all, i am bored in this combination of characteristics. Don't like me? Fine, i am not waking up everyday to impress you. LOL Babe said one. Sometimes we just couldn't avoid criticism because there are such people who don't like us. As we also complain people, we should let people to criticize us as well. LOL.
Then, we couldn't avoid the personalities variation of people around us. Some people are fake but they didn't know that i know; are rude that thinking their way of speaking and acting are fashion and style; are foolish until they didn't realize it has been shown thoroughly; are childish and act like children to "count" with you; are proud thinking they are the best and have the best; are cunning in making friends with purpose; and some act innocent so that people will care more about them and what we did to them is definitely wrong; etc. We are not perfect enough to criticize them and we have no right to blame them. All we can do is complaining to our beloved, and let the matter passes. So though i was stupid before, i now think it is not necessary for me to endanger my health by getting angry on such people.
So.. less blog. =D
But i couldn't deny that sometimes some matters still bother us, of course with less magnitude. Sometimes i also will be frustrated: "Why the hell is there such people in the world?!"
But i always remind myself with this quote: "Sometimes we need to forget some people from our past because they just don't belong in our future." And also "People we have met and do not get along well with are the people who will not be participating in your future life". So sometimes if we think over again, some people and matters actually aren't worth too much attention from us.
Live happily and stay alert. I should and will just let people be how they are right now. Just don't take advantage on people and don't let people taking advantage on us. =)))
July 29, 2012
4.10PM
Study moment
Practice time again! One thing i like about ptpl is the lecturer forces us to complete the exercise (she calls that assignment) every week and we are required to hand in. Also the feedback is awesomely fast! No pain no gain. Nothing is easy especially acca. Babe is also having hard time struggling in P2. But more important is we are working hard together, supporting each other to deal with such hardship. Hope all of us can successfully pass through this big obstacle!! All the best everyone!!! 19 July 2012 22.35pm
何苦
我常常跟別人說：“爲什麽要去喜歡一個看都知道跟你不可能的人？”
可是其實我了解他們的心態。人基本上都是這樣的 —— 得不到的永遠都是最好的。有些人或事，可能因爲一直都在身邊了，所以並不會想擁有，一些不屬於自己的東西。這心態我真的了解。
我或許。。。曾經。。。也這樣吧。遇到比較特別的，就毫不猶豫愛上了，拒他人於千里之外。
好。愛上了，沒話説。可是人就是犯賤，那個已經是不可能的人了，還一副對你愛理不理的樣子，可是我們偏偏就喜歡。
今早看到一個po寫：“女生是否覺得，特別有吸引力？” 其實不能否認的，這是chemical effect，我相信不只是女生，男生也一樣，都不會被一味奉承的人動心，因爲他們在我們眼裏沒有個性，也就沒有吸引力。所以，儘管一副無所謂的衰樣，我們還是會不知不覺摘下去。
我repost那個東西，可是我加了一句：“if the guy is still arrogant, the girl will eventually leave him too. At lease for me, i don't like to impress people who doesn't even know how to appreciate me.”
這是我的領悟，或許曾經，我也有相關的經歷，任憑我怎麽努力，還是覺得空虛，因爲縂覺得自己在打沒有人接的球。這種感覺其實很累的，可是犯賤的人們都還會抱著希望，希望有一天他可能會看到我們的努力，希望有一天他會接我們的球。所以就這樣一直等、一直等。。。終于有一天醒過來了。
爲什麽我要這樣作賤自己？我沒做錯什麽，爲什麽必須受到這樣的懲罰？爲什麽我要拒絕他人的關心，只是爲了迎合一個不知道儅我是誰的霸氣傢伙？？？我不應該這樣被對待的，我也有被疼愛的權利！
於是，他就出現了。我不敢說他完美，但至少他願意分享他的一切，願意和我承擔，願意和我一起努力。
他讓我知道，被疼愛是不用苦苦哀求的，是我deserve的東西。
他讓我知道，我可以是一個人的全部，而不是有空才找出來聊聊天、可有可無的對象。
他讓我知道，我deserve別人的努力，而不是只是我一味的在付出。
他也讓我知道，有人可以光明正大牽著我，跟全世界宣佈我就是他的女人，後果一起承擔。
一切一切的美好我都從他身上深深的體會到了。可能在閲讀得你會覺得等多一年兩年瓶頸就出來了。或許吧，但是我從不後悔我的選擇，怎樣都好，至少我努力過，不是單方面的那種。
還有，也不管你怎麽想。。。
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他，真，的，是，帥，到，不，行！
I never stare at a guy like the way i stare at him. He will ask "why? what happen?" Nah, nothing, i just wanna spend my time looking at your handsome face. =DDDD
可是不可以一直稱讚，現在已經夠厚臉皮料，尾巴會飛起來！
有些人，沒有想過會在一起，卻自然而然的在一起了。
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可是其實我了解他們的心態。人基本上都是這樣的 —— 得不到的永遠都是最好的。有些人或事，可能因爲一直都在身邊了，所以並不會想擁有，一些不屬於自己的東西。這心態我真的了解。
我或許。。。曾經。。。也這樣吧。遇到比較特別的，就毫不猶豫愛上了，拒他人於千里之外。
好。愛上了，沒話説。可是人就是犯賤，那個已經是不可能的人了，還一副對你愛理不理的樣子，可是我們偏偏就喜歡。
今早看到一個po寫：“女生是否覺得，特別有吸引力？” 其實不能否認的，這是chemical effect，我相信不只是女生，男生也一樣，都不會被一味奉承的人動心，因爲他們在我們眼裏沒有個性，也就沒有吸引力。所以，儘管一副無所謂的衰樣，我們還是會不知不覺摘下去。
我repost那個東西，可是我加了一句：“if the guy is still arrogant, the girl will eventually leave him too. At lease for me, i don't like to impress people who doesn't even know how to appreciate me.”
這是我的領悟，或許曾經，我也有相關的經歷，任憑我怎麽努力，還是覺得空虛，因爲縂覺得自己在打沒有人接的球。這種感覺其實很累的，可是犯賤的人們都還會抱著希望，希望有一天他可能會看到我們的努力，希望有一天他會接我們的球。所以就這樣一直等、一直等。。。終于有一天醒過來了。
爲什麽我要這樣作賤自己？我沒做錯什麽，爲什麽必須受到這樣的懲罰？爲什麽我要拒絕他人的關心，只是爲了迎合一個不知道儅我是誰的霸氣傢伙？？？我不應該這樣被對待的，我也有被疼愛的權利！
於是，他就出現了。我不敢說他完美，但至少他願意分享他的一切，願意和我承擔，願意和我一起努力。
他讓我知道，被疼愛是不用苦苦哀求的，是我deserve的東西。
他讓我知道，我可以是一個人的全部，而不是有空才找出來聊聊天、可有可無的對象。
他讓我知道，我deserve別人的努力，而不是只是我一味的在付出。
他也讓我知道，有人可以光明正大牽著我，跟全世界宣佈我就是他的女人，後果一起承擔。
一切一切的美好我都從他身上深深的體會到了。可能在閲讀得你會覺得等多一年兩年瓶頸就出來了。或許吧，但是我從不後悔我的選擇，怎樣都好，至少我努力過，不是單方面的那種。
還有，也不管你怎麽想。。。
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他，真，的，是，帥，到，不，行！
I never stare at a guy like the way i stare at him. He will ask "why? what happen?" Nah, nothing, i just wanna spend my time looking at your handsome face. =DDDD
可是不可以一直稱讚，現在已經夠厚臉皮料，尾巴會飛起來！
有些人，沒有想過會在一起，卻自然而然的在一起了。
=)
June 28, 2012
12.08AM
Birthday
Wow, i still haven't written any post in June! So i shall start with my birthday. Kekezzz
I always thought my birthday is easy to remember as it is on 6 June. Fairly easy to remember yea? Haha. Thinking back the birthday celebrations i have had in the past, i've got the wishes from friends and family. However this year, i don't have any celebration partly due to my preparation for coming ACCA exams. And partly due to my thought - i don't think there is necessary to actually celebrate birthday. I would be very happy if i am still healthy and happy with all the people i love staying beside me.
Celebrations and presents are just tangible symbols. For me, the things that really build us a happy life are not physically possessed. Things like happiness do not simply come from celebrations and presents. It is felt by heart. =)
I always thought my birthday is easy to remember as it is on 6 June. Fairly easy to remember yea? Haha. Thinking back the birthday celebrations i have had in the past, i've got the wishes from friends and family. However this year, i don't have any celebration partly due to my preparation for coming ACCA exams. And partly due to my thought - i don't think there is necessary to actually celebrate birthday. I would be very happy if i am still healthy and happy with all the people i love staying beside me.
Celebrations and presents are just tangible symbols. For me, the things that really build us a happy life are not physically possessed. Things like happiness do not simply come from celebrations and presents. It is felt by heart. =)
June 13, 2012
2.21PM
What a FOOLISH me!
All in a sudden, i just realized that i've been concerning too much. My mood has been swung by those unimportant people and matters that i shouldn't have concerned at all. And i dunno why, i suddenly discovered that this should not be the way i am living. I shouldn't care much about those people and matters but ignore the important person in my life! I should have spent my time enjoying the happiness i got from my beloved instead of debating with outsiders!
So, i have deleted my lists in Facebook. There is no point anymore to follow anyone's posts and status. There is also no reason to segregate Facebook friends into groups because all the friends are already the same. There is no point to comment and like much on Facebook either because only meaningful and important matters worth my attention. LOL.
Moreover, i should pay more attention to people paying attention on me. I just discovered that all my blog posts are about those unimportant matters but none about people who love me. Everyone has no obligation to treat me good. Sigh, they definitely deserve more from me, such as:
Sending my mental support to my little cousin made him crying. LOL sweetheart you definitely deserve that. =)
To be honest, i am very happy in spending my time with the one who loves me. Happiness is not about big meal, big car, big house, etc. But the most touching thing is, you see the effort of that person realizing those just for you. =)
So, i have deleted my lists in Facebook. There is no point anymore to follow anyone's posts and status. There is also no reason to segregate Facebook friends into groups because all the friends are already the same. There is no point to comment and like much on Facebook either because only meaningful and important matters worth my attention. LOL.
Moreover, i should pay more attention to people paying attention on me. I just discovered that all my blog posts are about those unimportant matters but none about people who love me. Everyone has no obligation to treat me good. Sigh, they definitely deserve more from me, such as:
Sending my mental support to my little cousin made him crying. LOL sweetheart you definitely deserve that. =)
To be honest, i am very happy in spending my time with the one who loves me. Happiness is not about big meal, big car, big house, etc. But the most touching thing is, you see the effort of that person realizing those just for you. =)
May 30, 2012
11.13PM
Understand
縂有一個人的出現，讓你了解爲什麽其他人不可能。
Yesterday saw a post with this caption, i finally believe it. I wanna say something very old-fashioned but very true - you cannot force happiness to come. Sometimes when you sincerely hope for a relationship to grow, it won't grow as you want; but when you don't expect a relationship to develop, it will develop in a way out of your expectation.
Sometimes maybe due to the way we are brought up or the achievement that we have got, we tend to demand - demand for better. But sometimes we will tend to ignore another expect - what we can give to the other while we are demanding. For once, i also thought that i have to live with certain types of person and thus i demanded. But as time goes, i finally understand that is only a "formula" that governs my thought all the time, and i finally took off the "formula" and look at people in different aspect. Realizing that some people may not behave exactly like our first impression, i also discovered that some people, with all the strengths wrapped up, has serious weaknesses.
With this, i met several people. I wouldn't say they are wrong, no matter how people still have the right to behave in the way they like. But what i felt was, LUCKILY, i didn't get closer with those people. It is always not wrong to demand but maybe we should analyze ourselves and demand in proportion. I don't know exactly but i feel over demanding is an action showing that someone is not contented with what he/she has. Of course we have to fight for living, but appreciating what we have will make us feel happier and more motivating in pursuing a better life. When you're not contented enough, you will feel people around are owing you and along the way you will get frustrated easily and eventually miss out all the precious moment in life.
I especially cannot stand 大男人. I mean, hey, we girls do not owe you. I choose to have a bf because i wanna share my happiness and pains with you. I saw a quote stating that guys don't listen to complains, please don't find them except if you really need help. Come on, if i don't share my frustration with you, i don't need you anymore, okay? And one more: "Guys don't remember dates, jot those down and keep reminding them." Come on, if i need to keep on reminding you, i might as well celebrate those special days with parents 'cause they will certainly remember well. If you don't even want to put effort on the relationship, then you might as well don't be in a relationship. Guys are really ridiculous.
And to those (...), i quote a meaningful phrase to you.
"Yeah, there are many girls out there who are prettier and better. Your girl is just not perfect enough. But can't you see that you're also the same? You are not perfect enough either, and yet she chose you. There are
always better things not in our possession but why don't you try to appreciate what we have? "
So, i am thankful to what i have right now. I have a happy family, i have friends (perhaps they might not be too sincere but at lease it doesn't affect me much) and of course the special one who is way much different from those that i have mentioned. Yeah perhaps the quote (the first sentence in this post) best describes the situation - i finally know why those "certain types of people" are not for me.
Well, i guess i am not mature enough, i should perhaps learn not to get mood swung by those unimportant comments. =)
Yesterday saw a post with this caption, i finally believe it. I wanna say something very old-fashioned but very true - you cannot force happiness to come. Sometimes when you sincerely hope for a relationship to grow, it won't grow as you want; but when you don't expect a relationship to develop, it will develop in a way out of your expectation.
Sometimes maybe due to the way we are brought up or the achievement that we have got, we tend to demand - demand for better. But sometimes we will tend to ignore another expect - what we can give to the other while we are demanding. For once, i also thought that i have to live with certain types of person and thus i demanded. But as time goes, i finally understand that is only a "formula" that governs my thought all the time, and i finally took off the "formula" and look at people in different aspect. Realizing that some people may not behave exactly like our first impression, i also discovered that some people, with all the strengths wrapped up, has serious weaknesses.
With this, i met several people. I wouldn't say they are wrong, no matter how people still have the right to behave in the way they like. But what i felt was, LUCKILY, i didn't get closer with those people. It is always not wrong to demand but maybe we should analyze ourselves and demand in proportion. I don't know exactly but i feel over demanding is an action showing that someone is not contented with what he/she has. Of course we have to fight for living, but appreciating what we have will make us feel happier and more motivating in pursuing a better life. When you're not contented enough, you will feel people around are owing you and along the way you will get frustrated easily and eventually miss out all the precious moment in life.
I especially cannot stand 大男人. I mean, hey, we girls do not owe you. I choose to have a bf because i wanna share my happiness and pains with you. I saw a quote stating that guys don't listen to complains, please don't find them except if you really need help. Come on, if i don't share my frustration with you, i don't need you anymore, okay? And one more: "Guys don't remember dates, jot those down and keep reminding them." Come on, if i need to keep on reminding you, i might as well celebrate those special days with parents 'cause they will certainly remember well. If you don't even want to put effort on the relationship, then you might as well don't be in a relationship. Guys are really ridiculous.
And to those (...), i quote a meaningful phrase to you.
"Yeah, there are many girls out there who are prettier and better. Your girl is just not perfect enough. But can't you see that you're also the same? You are not perfect enough either, and yet she chose you. There are
always better things not in our possession but why don't you try to appreciate what we have? "
So, i am thankful to what i have right now. I have a happy family, i have friends (perhaps they might not be too sincere but at lease it doesn't affect me much) and of course the special one who is way much different from those that i have mentioned. Yeah perhaps the quote (the first sentence in this post) best describes the situation - i finally know why those "certain types of people" are not for me.
Well, i guess i am not mature enough, i should perhaps learn not to get mood swung by those unimportant comments. =)
May 27, 2012
10.59AM
Moderate life - what i want
I've got back my mock exam result, so as a conclusion, the results of all three subjects are quite average. The greatest benefit that i've got from this mock is that i finally know what is the weaknesses of mine on these three subjects. So the hard work of mine and the pressure that i have endured finally pay off. Of course, passing the mock exam papers also helped in leveling up my confidence towards ACCA. I know that it will never be easy, but i must be prepared for it.
If you ask how good my result is, i wouldn't say it is very good. If it is to be aligned to TARC grading system, i didn't get As for all three subjects. However, i would be very contented on the achievement, as in i am not striving for world top or Malaysia top award. If i were to work hard i know very best that i might be able to achieve, but i just choose not to.
My friends must have thought that all the time i really worked hard for my exams, but i seriously don't think so. I still feel myself very lazy on studies and always allocate not enough time for revision. But of course i will make sure myself to cover the main areas that myself feel i should have known. If i were to tell this to anyone (especially some type of people) they would have said me proud, something like "you don't lie la, you cannot meh?" or "hao lian la! I don't want to listen to you!" will be heard. But never mind, people who don't know you always comment nonsense. Dog barks at people they don't know. =P
Anyway, my point is - i am not a perfectionist, i don't want to live in pressure and at the end i don't know for what i am fighting. I wouldn't want to have a life that i fight for awards and recognitions from others, achieving marvelous result in career, but remain empty in private life. I wouldn't want myself to work hard during day time but eventually return to a spacious but dark home. I just feel that there are some other valuable things besides my career that will light up my life.
So just a moderate life will be enough for me - pass my exams, graduate, get a stable job, and maintain a moderate family. My career goal? I would prefer people to ask "my life goal". =)
If you ask how good my result is, i wouldn't say it is very good. If it is to be aligned to TARC grading system, i didn't get As for all three subjects. However, i would be very contented on the achievement, as in i am not striving for world top or Malaysia top award. If i were to work hard i know very best that i might be able to achieve, but i just choose not to.
My friends must have thought that all the time i really worked hard for my exams, but i seriously don't think so. I still feel myself very lazy on studies and always allocate not enough time for revision. But of course i will make sure myself to cover the main areas that myself feel i should have known. If i were to tell this to anyone (especially some type of people) they would have said me proud, something like "you don't lie la, you cannot meh?" or "hao lian la! I don't want to listen to you!" will be heard. But never mind, people who don't know you always comment nonsense. Dog barks at people they don't know. =P
Anyway, my point is - i am not a perfectionist, i don't want to live in pressure and at the end i don't know for what i am fighting. I wouldn't want to have a life that i fight for awards and recognitions from others, achieving marvelous result in career, but remain empty in private life. I wouldn't want myself to work hard during day time but eventually return to a spacious but dark home. I just feel that there are some other valuable things besides my career that will light up my life.
So just a moderate life will be enough for me - pass my exams, graduate, get a stable job, and maintain a moderate family. My career goal? I would prefer people to ask "my life goal". =)
May 16, 2012
3.14 PM
Confession
I want to confess something: I am very happy right now. As in, i never thought this would ever happen in my life. It is really amazing when someone cares about you truly from that person's heart and you actually feel that.
-- That person willingly stays connected to you. --
-- That person wants you to be involved in his life. --
-- That person shows you that you deserve all the cares. --
-- That person protects you with strong arms. --
-- And the most touching one is you know you are the only one who owns that. --
You don't need to beg for others' attention which the trend of caring is hardly predictable. You don't need to wait for people to care about you, anymore.
How i wish this would stay, no, i should be saying: "I'll make this stay." =)
I love you, babe.
-- That person willingly stays connected to you. --
-- That person wants you to be involved in his life. --
-- That person shows you that you deserve all the cares. --
-- That person protects you with strong arms. --
-- And the most touching one is you know you are the only one who owns that. --
You don't need to beg for others' attention which the trend of caring is hardly predictable. You don't need to wait for people to care about you, anymore.
How i wish this would stay, no, i should be saying: "I'll make this stay." =)
I love you, babe.
May 09, 2012
11.18 PM
After a long time
Hmm, though i am not sure when my last post was published but i am quite certain that it has been a long time since my last visit to my lovely blog. It doesn't really mean that i've nothing to write. It's just that firstly, i have too much that i dunno how to arrange, and secondly blog is now seriously getting more and more dangerous in revealing our feeling. LOL.
Anyway, perhaps i would simplify everything here? =D
Actually many things have happened since my last post. In ACCA class, i saw different people handling stress in different ways. Distinct personalities have separated the class into groups, playing and working hard together. No matter how, i am still thankful to my peers who accompany me throughout this tough study life. Seeing different people widens my social circle, providing a "platform" for me to learn how to deal with different types of people. I feel that i am still not doing very good in this area. LOL anyway, it's fun to deal with different types of people, FUN? LOL.
And now i realized, those things that matter a lot in the past don't really bother me anymore. Perhaps i finally realize that i've something more important to take care of? Or perhaps those things have been recurring till i am now used to it? Sometimes some words that were spoken by some people irritate me when i first heard that, but trying to look at it in different perspective - it doesn't really matter at all! Why should we punish ourselves with the mistakes that were made by others? Whatever you wanna comment about me, just go ahead. People who love me for real will eventually stay. =)
After a year i've decided to put myself back into that situation and feeling. Actually it's around 11 months, huh? Anyway, what i wanna say is, i dunno how long it will last, but eventually i chose to trust. I felt somewhere deep in my heart scolds myself: "after such painful experiences leaving scars in your life you still dare to try and perhaps get hurt again?" But i answered: "or perhaps i will never get hurt again?"
I TRUST. =)
Anyway, perhaps i would simplify everything here? =D
Actually many things have happened since my last post. In ACCA class, i saw different people handling stress in different ways. Distinct personalities have separated the class into groups, playing and working hard together. No matter how, i am still thankful to my peers who accompany me throughout this tough study life. Seeing different people widens my social circle, providing a "platform" for me to learn how to deal with different types of people. I feel that i am still not doing very good in this area. LOL anyway, it's fun to deal with different types of people, FUN? LOL.
And now i realized, those things that matter a lot in the past don't really bother me anymore. Perhaps i finally realize that i've something more important to take care of? Or perhaps those things have been recurring till i am now used to it? Sometimes some words that were spoken by some people irritate me when i first heard that, but trying to look at it in different perspective - it doesn't really matter at all! Why should we punish ourselves with the mistakes that were made by others? Whatever you wanna comment about me, just go ahead. People who love me for real will eventually stay. =)
After a year i've decided to put myself back into that situation and feeling. Actually it's around 11 months, huh? Anyway, what i wanna say is, i dunno how long it will last, but eventually i chose to trust. I felt somewhere deep in my heart scolds myself: "after such painful experiences leaving scars in your life you still dare to try and perhaps get hurt again?" But i answered: "or perhaps i will never get hurt again?"
I TRUST. =)
Apr 25, 2012
11.25PM